Kidnap my heart.

Tuesday, January 8, 20085:35 PM

All good things come to an end! This songs is very suitable for me now. I find it very meaningful.
Flames to dust Lovers to friends Why do all good things come to an end? Yes! We have come to an end. That's the end of our story. Recently I can't concentrate in work. Making a lot of mistake, sending wrong info to customer. Luckily my boss is good enough for not scolding me. I can't stop thinking of him. Suddenly feel like killing myself to stop all this suffering.

While working today, I think of him. Thinking of the 1st day when I met him. The sweet him I knew. The time when he always accompanied me during my Os and encouraging me. Those time when I went to Malaysia and how much he told me he have missed me. Come to think of it, those were the time when we were not yet together. Did we made the wrong decision being together? Should we have just remain as friend so that all this wouldn't have happen? Gary Seet, I really miss u! Can u come back to me?

Staying in the office alone till 7pm. Feel so lonely, but at least I got the time on my own. I can do whatever I want. I can cry like nobody business. That' y I am blogging now. Till now I still can't believe that he can don't contact me at all. I can't even do it even if I'm enjoying. This shows that I am not important to him at all. So I was wrong about him. I thought I am the one for him.

I wore a disguise cause I didn’t want to get hurt. But I didn’t know I made everything worse. You told me we were crazy in love, but you didn’t care when push came to shove. If you loved me as much as you said you did, then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit. Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me. I loved you with my heart, really and truly.

Somehow I feel that I am lucky enough cause I still have friends around me to console me and be there for me. I have to thank Teddy, Nick, Ah Jian, Zi Qiang and my sis. At least they called to ask me how am I and accompany me all this while. I am really glad. I don't know what to do without them around. So I think I should feel fortunate enough. I shouldn't complain anymore.

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