I give up on him totally. Not the first time le. Haiz. Is it really so coincidence everytime? I expected it before he told me everything. Already disappointed enough that i'm unable to spend my new year with him, but i'm more disappointed that he doesn't care. He went MIA for the whole night which makes me worry more than angry. 2 days before new year we were still so happy and sweet, and I feel touch by everything things he had done. Even if it is just a minor thing, I felt the warmth he gave. Fetching me from woodlands, hugging and comfort me to sleep. I already feel contented which makes me love him even more. But why? Suddenly u left me all alone again. Haiz.
While walking from Boat Quay to esplanade with kor to find my sis and her bf, it reminds me of him again. The day when we first met, we also walk from Boat Quay to Esplanade. How I wish he was there too.

Anyway, just received a sms from my sis. OMG, I had forgotten about the my coming BTT. I didn't study at all. It is on this coming friday. Hope that I can pass this time. Somehow I got this feeling I can't make it this time too. Totally got no mood to study for it and I think I can't get anything in my mind now.

Hmmm, somehow I managed to enjoy myself during the countdown. Kor drove to expressway and his car breakdown suddenly. Haha. Then we have to wait for the EMAS to come and tow the car to Mandai. So no car during new year. Lol. It's alright. Think of the bright side, kor gets to drink and enjoy as much as he wants.

My friends just asked me what's my New Year resolution? Hmmm. I can't answer to that question. Perhaps being a good and filial daughter to listen to my mum and not to go home late often? Not to let my mum worry about me? Cherish my loved ones and people around me? Be a better and understanding gf? Quarrel with him lesser? Study and work hard and spend my time wisely?

To sum up about 2007, thinking of what i've done for the year, I felt that I have wasted it. Didn't spend my time wisely. Everything i've done is affecting the people around me. Especially my family. I think I hurt my mum the most. I didn't study hard enough. I've play too much. I've done too many silly and childish things.

Gotta stop here. No mood to blog anymore...
I hate u, but I love u more!