Miss him! If there's really "wang qing sui", I will definitely buy it no matter how much it cost. It is just too torturing for me to keep on thinking of him and yet knowing he won't be there for me anymore.

When u're gone

I always needed time on my own I'd never thought I need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
In the bed where you lie is made upon your side When you walk away I count the steps that you take Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone the pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone the face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone the words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make me ok
I miss you

I heaven't felt this way before Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes your left the lyin' of the floor And the smell just like you
I love the things that you do When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
I miss you we were made of each other I keep forever I know we were yeah yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can heardly breathe I need to feel you hear with me yeah

I got the pass for the Singapore Airshow today. Will be going to that site soon in end of Jan. Somehow I don't feel excited anymore. I still remember how I used to joke with him about finding those ang moh from there and marry them, and he said he will go over there to make sure I don't do that. Those were the memories. Haiz.

I miss u!

Thinking of the past, I remembered there was once when I was having dinner at his place, we were talking about our past, talking about our life. Suddenly I asked him this question, "Do u think we will last?" He said yes. I wish that it could be true. Haiz... But now, I guess now, I’ll never know.