Kidnap my heart.

Tuesday, July 29, 200810:24 AM

在我最后一次,闭上眼睛之前,我想對你說我愛你

在你怀里,舍不得放弃,心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使劲全力,不想闭上眼睛,这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你,当不要忘记你曾经答应我你会好好活下去 (我永远爱你)

想走了~去了好远的地方,不能再陪你看日出等不到天亮
所有回忆抹去却并不容易,生死由天决定不要太伤心

在我最后一次,闭上眼睛之前,我想對你說我愛你
在你怀里,舍不得放弃,心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使劲全力,不想闭上眼睛,这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你,当不要忘记你曾经答应我你会好好活下去 (我永远爱你)

在我最后一次,闭上眼睛之前,我想對你說我愛你
在你怀里,舍不得放弃,心里有千万语还没说给你听
我使劲全力,不想闭上眼睛,这次告别就不能再相遇
不能再陪你,当不要忘记你曾经答应我你会好好活下去 (我永远爱你)

Suddenly love this song alot.

Lots of rumour about this song.

写歌的人有很多故事。。

有人说，
她得了重病，这首创作是要献给，她的爱人

也有人说，
这首歌是讲述那女孩子被抛弃，在自杀前写的一首歌

又有人说是。。。
那女生得了癌症，
因为她的男友喜欢听歌和创作,在他走之前想写下一首歌，让他男友留念

还有。。。
她和他很相爱爆
可是不幸男的生了重病
然后那位女的变写了这首歌给他
写了之后，男生去世了
女的也跟着自杀

不过唯一能肯定的是。。。
那女孩真的去世了。。。

有多一个消息指出
最后一次这首歌好像不是传说中的那些故事。。。
好像是创作者创作了这首歌
怕没有会记得这首歌
而却散播了这些谣言。。。
而且这首歌在很久以前就有了，大概两三年前
并不是宽中人所唱的。。。

Some said it was because the girl got some illness and she compose this song for her love...

Some said it was because the girl was dump by her bf and she compose this song and commit suicide...

Some said it was because the girl got cancer, and her bf loves to listen to song. So she wrote this song as a memories for her bf before she died...

Some said it was because the couple was so deeply in love and unfortunately the guy got some illness, so the girl compose this song for her bf and she commited suicide after her bf died.

But the only thing that they can confirm is the girl has really passed away.

Then some people said that none of the stories are true. It was because the composer was afraid that the song will not be popular, so he created all these stories.

Whatever it is, just find that this is a nice song. If all those stories are really true, it is really really sad and touching.

Alright, anyway, meet Jian yesterday. Nearly couldn't recognize him. He cut his hair. Lots of changes. Things were so different yesterday. Ha. just 1 week and everything change alot. Got to get use to it. All the best to me. :)
Now I know how it feels when u can't tell a person u love that u love him/her.
Hold my tears....

Yesterday lesson was not as bored. Learnt bill of exchange which Singapore doesn't use. So lame. But still we have to learnt.
So I told Edric I will migrate to Australia next time to be an accountant there since Australia use that. Edric said so I will marry him in order to migrate to Australia. Haha. So bhb.

I'm feeling super tired everyday no matter how much I slept. Something is really wrong with me.

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Monday, July 28, 20082:36 PM

A wonderful weekend last week.

After work on friday night, Edric came to pick me up as usual. Went for dinner then packet dinner home for his daddy.
Went to Mustafa at night to buy things to go back to muar. Walk around. Very crowded. Full of smell which I couldn't stand. I'm not racist or what, just that I can't stand the smell.
Got TSGS for myself.
Edric was suddenly so beng that night. Blast music in his car, then wind down window and drive fast. Haha. Didn't have this kind of feeling for very long. Talk about our lian and beng story in the past.
Reach home at 12 plus. Was feeling very tired and we have to wake up super early the next day. Before that we still said we will reach home at 10pm and rest early but end up we didn't.

Woke up at 5 plus in the morning on Saturday. Set off at 6 plus. Then there was heavy jam in the checkpoint. jam for an hour.
Was very tired throughout the journey but I didn't sleep. accompany Edric cause I scare he will feel bored for driving long journey.
Reach muar at 12 plus.
rest there till 3 plus and went out to shop.
Asked Sin Yi to let me drive. Was very nervous. Then the car nearly went down into the drain so I step on the break pedal very hard. Edric was angry after that. He said it was dangerous.
Didn't went to Malacca in the end cos it was late. So we went out for supper at night. The prata there is nice. Much more nicer than Singapore prata.
Talk to Edric, then talk to Sinyi till 4 plus then went to bed.

Next morning, my cousin woke me up at 9am ans she said Edric ask me to wake up. Walk out to the living room and he ask me why I wake up so early. Haha. Then I told him my cousin said he ask me to wake up and he said no. He only asked my cousin whether I wake up already anot. Lol. So I went back to sleep, but couldn't sleep back. Very pc. So I decided to wake up.
Went out to get all the stuff mummy wanted.
went back for lunch then Edric ride my grandpa's bike. Then I learn how to ride too. It was fun but I don't know how to stable. Edric sat behind me and help me.
Then er jie and zq also learnt to ride bike.
Grandma said we look like we never sit bike before. Haha.
Went off from muar at 4 plus. Don't feel like going off but no choice. A lot of stuff to bring home. So his car was full. Got lots of durian and rambutan.
Grandma and Grandpa was very very friendly to them. Happy!
Reach johore and I suggested going to Danga Bay to walk.
Super nice place. But not enough ringgit to shop. So we just walk around to see. Hope to go there again soon.
Jam in checkpoint again. Reach home at 11 plus. Super duper tired.
Anyway, Jian came back to Singapore yesterday.

Woke up at 9am today. Inform Ken yesterday night that I will reach office in the afternoon.
Edric came to pick me up at 10 plus. Went for breakfast then went to his house.
Reach office at 2pm. Haha. 3 more hours to finish work. Shiok. Too bad got lesson tonight. Don't feel like going. Yawnz.
Xiao pang passed his FTT today. Reach office and walk to my table and saw the result slip that he purposely put on my table. Then he laugh at me for not passing that time. Hate him. Purposely gek me.
So I must pass this test on September no matter what.

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Friday, July 25, 20084:19 PM

Going to muar tomorrow. Edric says he will set off at 6 plus tomorrow in the morning.
Yawnz. Have to wake up super early tomorrow. Haha.

Can't wait for tomorrow. For the first time, bringing somebody there to meet my family. Haha . Wonder what will grandma says after that?

Hoping for tomorrow to come......

Today is a super slack day in work. Haha.

Refused to do work.

Wonder how long can the boss tahan me? Lol.

Yesterday was the first lesson of management accounting. It is much more interesting than Level 1 & 2 book-keeping.
Class is bigger than level 1 & 2. total of 18 - 20 students in a class.
The lecturer is much more interesting than Ms Denise. Mr Bala told us a lot of experience when he was working as an accountant. Funny.
And... Mr Bala said management accounting is one of the module that most of the students failed.
Haha. All e best to me.

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Monday, July 21, 20084:22 PM

Jian went back to Sabah yesterday. Cool! But feeling quite sad too.

Edric came to fetch me early in the morning on Saturday. Brought my family out for breakfast. Sent mummy home, then sent da jie and er jie to admiralty. Went to Pasir ris farmway to buy fish cos his tank looks so empty with only one small fish inside. Pathetic.
Went to see dogs over there. Saw a shih tzu. So cute. Cost $900. Love it so much and I feel like buying it. But....... I got no money lah. Haha.
Bought 4 fishes for myself and Edric bought 2 fishes. Went to his house to wash the fish tank and put the fish inside. Was so tired cos woke up very early. Took a nap. Woke up at 5 plus and went home to set up everything for my fish.
Went to his grandma house after that. Was quite awkward in the beginning cos I don't know anybody there except for his parents. Then he introduce his uncles and aunts to me. Had dinner over there, then durian. Too bad I was quite full, so only had a few durian.
Slack awhile over there. Tried to play canon in d and realised I had forgot all the notes. Haha. That was Kim and Alene's favourite song. Still remember they always asked me to play during school time.
Went off at 10 plus. Went to Boat Quay to fetch er jie from work and home sweet home.

Meet Jian on Sunday. Sent him off and I went to buddhist class. Edric came to fetch me and mummy after that. Sent mummy to centrepoint. Went to Edric's house. Meet kor at 9. Went to swensens for dinner. Was quite tired and decided to go home. Went to Toa Payoh to find Zhi ming to take things for Sin yi. Chat with him for awhile. Then home sweet home.

View 2 of my friend's blog just now. Ha. Both blog about quarrel and arguement with friends and the arguement was so lame. Girls nowadays. Lol. Maybe they are still young. Cos I remember the last time I did that was during secondary school days.
Or becos I end my youth earlier than all my ex classmates and schoolmates?
My sis said that too. She said my youth ended last year cos I took different route from them. Everybody still continue their poly, ITE, Nafa or shatec after secondary and I am working.
Seriously I don't have any other friend around my age other than ex schoolmates. The rest are all much more older than me. That's why somehow I feel a gap between me and gigglets when I went out with them the other days. Find that I got nothing much to talk to them.
Even all my classmates now are working adult.
How I wish I am still schooling now. Haha.

Will be going to Muar this Saturday with Edric and sis. Edric was so bhb cos he said he is very nice to volunteer to drive us to Muar. Lol. Like so unwilling to send us there.
Anyway, thanks dar! I do appreciate.

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Tuesday, July 15, 20082:55 PM

failed my theory test again. Piang!
The next test date is on 8 Sep. 2 more months to go.
Hopefully this time can pass.

Meet Gary yesterday after my test. So unexpected to be able to meet him again. Haha.

Edric came to fetch me after that. Went home to take my textbook and went for lesson.

Yesterday lesson was fun. Didn't do much study. Teacher tell us stories about her accounting life. Quite fun. I wish I could be like her one day.

She is jealous of me too. During her time there was no SDF for her. Haha.

Edric came to pick me up after lesson. Learn to drive again. Fun. Can't wait to get my licence soon.

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Monday, July 14, 200812:56 PM

Having Final theory test today.

Wish me luck!

Somehow I got the feeling I can't pass.

Not in the mood to do anything.

Haiz.

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Friday, July 11, 20082:17 PM

It's the last weekday of the week again. I'm always so excited on friday cos I don't have to wake up early on the next day.

I skip lesson on Wednesday. Went home to rest. Having headache nowadays. Something is wrong with me. Need to see a doctor soon.

Kor came to fetch me and Jian yesterday. Went to the Singapore flyer but we didn't take the ride. Find it a waste to go at night cos we won't be able to see anything. Went to walk around. Did some fish spa. So ticklish. Cannot stand it and I keep on laughing. Was wondering how the others seems like there's no feeling at all. I'm the only one who keeps on laughing over there.
Went to watch Hellboy after that. Was so tired. fell asleep in the beginning. Woke up after that and finish watching the show.
Went to Geylang cos kor went to find his friend, send Jian home and kor send me home.
On the way to my house, kor race with a car but lost. Lol.

Going to orchard for shopping tonight. Must buy more things this time or I won't be satisfied.

Final theory test next monda. Wish me luck!

Zouk next friday with sis and friend. Haha. Hopefully sis will have the visa to go. Hate this kind of bf who doesn't allow their gf to go clubbing. Didn't go club for quite some time. Like 2 or 3 weeks ago? lol. Anyway, is with the ladies this time. Think it will be more fun this time round.

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Monday, July 7, 200810:40 AM

Went to Mosque street on Thursay cos it is xiao pang birthday. Accompany Edric home to park his car first then we took train down. First time taking train with him. Seldom will have this chance. Lol. He was so funny cos he doesn't even know how to buy standard ticket. The last time he took train was still using farecard that time.
Kor went down to find me. Nv see him for quite long le. Then we went to fetch Da sao from cell group. Going to be around 1 yr the last time I've seen her. So happy to see kor and da sao together again.
Raymond test drive kor's car before we went to fetch da sao. Think Raymond was abit tipsy. Nearly fight with another driver. Stop in the middle of the road somemore. Then when Raymond stop it was someone he knows. Luckily. Lol.
Vomitted again. Recently I keep on vomitting when I drink. Something is wrong with me. Think my gastric problem is back again. Omg.
Edric was also drunk. He vomitted twice. But was ok when we were going home that time.
kor drove me home. Was abit drunk. Slept in his car.
Edric send me up. Cannot walk properly when I got down from the car. Sat outside my house for awhile to make myself awake so that mummy won't notice that I am drunk in case she haven't sleep yet.
Walk in to my house. Nothing happen. Everyone was asleep. Went in to mummy's room. She haven't even reach home yet. Lol. Even much more later than me and it was quite late already. Tease her when she came back.

Promise jian to reach his place at 7am on Friday. But I was too tired. Didn't sleep well. Doesn't feel like going to work when I woke up. Drag myself to the office. Slept at the office. Was too tired. Slept for 20 mins then Ken came back. Cannot sleep anymore. Haiz. Then slept at 5 plus again while waiting for jian.

Woke up super early at 7 plus on Saturday. Cos have to go to school to collect my testimonials and cert for secondary school. Edric came to pick me up. The security guard talk to me in the office. Asked me what i'm doing now. I said Working and part time study. He said it's ok, cos his son used to do that too and now he got his master. Earning like 25k per month. I wish to be like him someday. But it can only be a dream.
Went to Kingsmen with Edric. Haha. Working on a Saturday. Not suppose to be there also.
Went to purvis mind cafe to meet er jie, zq, grace and kelvin. They were late. Had fun there. played till 4pm then we went off. Walk to Edric's car, got summon. So unlucky.
Went to eat organic food for dinner. The service sucks. The aunty is so rude. never tried organic food before, so I decided to go there to try. The food sucks. Omg. Feel like puking everything out. So didn't finish the food. and it was really not worth it. Cost ard 20 plus for just1 set of main dishes, 1 plate of sushi and 1 rojak. Really find it a waste of money.
Meet Jian at Bugis Village after his work. Went to shop. Withdraw $200 from bank. Thought will spend alot. Didn't manage to buy alot if things. only bought a top, a shorts and a pair of slippers. Haiz. Disappointed.
Meet Edric after that again. He went to challenge a car while on the way to woodlands. He won. Haha. After that the driver want to challenge with him but Edric didn't want to challenge with him anymore. Haha. Went to Jetty to chat for awhile. Was quite tired so we went home.

Woke up early on Sunday again. Went to BMC to register for the sep exam. So ex. Just 2 paper only and it cost me $223.
Went out with Jian. Then cab down to Geylang for Durian. He bought the best one and 1 durian cost $41.90. First time ate such an expensive durian.
Cab to Vivo to shop. Bought movie ticket at 9.30pm. Went to play arcade. Didn't shop much. Cos the shoe is hurting my feet. So I didn't feel like walking.
Watch wanted. Nice show.
After the show is already 11.30pm. Cab home. 23 bucks. Spent alot on taxi fare yesterday. Getting more and more lazy to take bus and train. Spend around 70 bucks for this week for cab. Omg. So not worth it.

Edric went on course yesterday and today. So he is not really free. Think will be lonely for lunch today. Haiz. Lesson today again. yawnz.

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Thursday, July 3, 200810:41 AM

Didn't blog for 1 week. I'm not in the mood to blog. And work has been quite busy recently.

I'm so tired of everything now. I wish to sleep and never wake up.

Break down today again. Have been happening for quite a long time. Is always like that recently. I will just tear suddenly and think of the unhappy things again.

life has too many choices to choose from.....
go make ur own choices or choices will make u choose...
freedom is choice....

I'm feeling so lost now.

I miss the past.

I miss the time when I was 13 & 14. I was always happy. 24/7.

Not long ago, read a book written by one of a Singapore writer, Low Kay Hwa. The story is about a love story of a couple who know each other since they were 7. Their fifteen years old love story is so touching.
Soon after when the girl grows up, after the guy has hurt her and things that has upset her, she became mentally-retarded one day. Her mindset begins to shrink younger every two weeks: At twenty-two years old, she cries for burgers and plays with Hello Kitty soft toys.

Wonder will I ever become like her one day? Haha. Is not a bad thing too. Cos she got no worries at all and just play like a kid.

Seriously, i'm going to be insane soon. ARGH!

Oh, nearly forget, Happy birthday to Gary! miss u so much.

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