Kidnap my heart.

Thursday, August 28, 20085:06 PM

Boring day.

Edric having fever. Haiz.

Received call from him this morning and he asked me to go to work myself. Then I decided not to go to work so early. End up mummy's colleague send me there. Haha. Reach office at 11am.

Had lunch with him. Initially he asked me to go to Tampines to find him then he send me to school. Being understanding, I agreed. After awhile he asked me to go to school myself.

Called me when he reached home and he ask me to call him before I go to school.

I called at 5pm but he was sleeping. He asked me to go over to tampines then he send me to school. Within 5 mins he called back and ask me to go to school myself cos he was very tired and xin ku.

Disappointed...........

Fever? I'm already understanding enough to go to work myself and go over to tampines to find him. Then now ask me to go to work by myself.
Selfish.
When I was having fever I went to work for 3 consecutive days just for him. And I had nothing to do even when I go to work. I rather go there and sleep just to accompany him instead of resting at home. I accompany him for dinner even though I am xin ku.
This is how he treat me when he is sick.
I'm a bloody fool! Idiot!

Still dare to ask why I am so sad. No brain to think or wat?

Hate all the sweet talk guys always said. Say what "if one day nv send me means he don't love me anymore". Fake. All fake. Only used all those sweet talk to cheat on girls feeling.

Then maybe cos of guilt will act nice by saying I love u. So sweet.

Why are girls born to be so foolish and soft hearted?

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Monday, August 25, 20081:19 PM

Friday
Went to watch firework on friday with Edric but I fainted suddenly. Haiz. I feel so bad for not watching the whole firework with him. Somemore he rush all the way and go through all the jam and finding for parking just that we can get to watch firework on time.
So sorry dar.
Still thought of going out after that but I wasn't feeling well.

Saturday
Initially wanted to go to chevron to buy things that Edric needed for his reservist. But I was tired. Asked Edric over and I cooked lunch for him. Nothing special but Edric appreciate it. :) Thanks dar!
Meet up with Gui Qing. It seems like years that I didn't meet her. Got lots of things to talk about. Went orchard to shop. It was raining so I didn't go out in the afternoon and I was to tired to go out. So Edric sent me to fetch gui qing to orchard and he went for his dinner.
Didn't buy anything on that day. Haha. Edric was surprise I didn't buy anything too.
Went to starbucks for a drink after shopping. Saw 2 girls shouting. So uncivilised. Act until so guai lan end up also nv fight. Haha.
Edric came to join us after dinner. Then we went to fetch er jie from work and went to mosque street to drink. Had fun on that day and reach home at 3. Tired.

Sunday
Went to Bugis to shop with Edric cos he wanted to buy jeans. He bought a jeans and a top. Haha. Nice! Cos I chose for him. :p I only manage to get a top for myelf. Then we went to chevron to buy his things then to IMM to find mummy. Buy mummy was not in the office, so we shop ourselves. I only bought 2 slippers.
Fetch da jie and her bf from jurong east and sent them to their hall. He bf got the very stuck up face. Ass!
Reach home quite early cos Monday still got work to do.

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Thursday, August 21, 20082:59 PM

Went to Edric house after work yesterday. Cook dinner together. Been cooking dinner recently for him. Haha. So nice of me. :Þ
Wanted to watch 12 Lotus. But end up we didn't. Nothing much to do. So just rot and watch tv till his mother came back. Talk to his mum for awhile and watch Dvd. Fell asleep halfway through the show. Was tired.

Couldn't wake up this morning. Was so lazy to wake up to go for work. But no choice.

My mood was good at first but not for long. Something which I don't wish to mention about it. Just piss me off and spoilt my mood for the whole of today. Argh! Just find it so rude. At least give some warning and said it nicely since it was the first time. Somemore who am I to u to say I don't know how to behave? That should leave it for my parents to say. And i'm not feeling well either. At least, I can control my temper for not giving attitude to Edric now. For the first time. Congrats to myself! Big improvement! Haha. Cos it wasn't his fault. So why should I give him attitude? I have to be understanding. Chat with er jie in msn. Told her that my mood is very bad. She said daddy ask me why I didn't go home yesterday night. Haha. Then she said at least mummy is coming back today. So I should be happy. :) Luckily at least there's something for me to be happy about!

Lesson today. Yawnz. I don't have the mood to study. Seriously I think that I will fail my exam badly.

Don't know why when I was moody just now the first person that came to my mind was jian. haiz. Maybe cos I already get used to him who always cheer me up and console me whenever I am feeling down.
And I read 2 of my friend's blog just now. 1 of them was feeling so sad and miserable over a break up with her bf and I feel so hurt when I read it cos I totally understand how it feel and it reminds me of jian. The other wan was saying how sweet her relationship was though there were ups and downs during the r/s, (which r/s don't?) Friends and relatives asked her to find someone better but she is so much happy now with him. Omg. and I started to feel so sad and regret for everything that i've done for the past few months. and regret everything that I've done all these years. Whatever I do is always affecting the people around me. Why did god created me to this world? but life still have to go on. haiz.
Whatever.... The decision has already made. Remember what Mdm Ho told me, since everything is set, we don't have a choice, so just go for it and do the best. Do my best? I hope I can, but I need some time.

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Tuesday, August 19, 20083:18 PM

Received a sms from Edric this morning and he said he is not going to work. So I didn't go too. Daddy and grandma was nagging this morning about yesterday incident. Was so pc lah.. So I went to the bathroom immediately so that I cant hear them.

Daddy brought a china woman home yesterday. Don't really like it lah. But luckily mum was not at home. So I saw her lying on er jie's bed, then on my way out, I sms er jie to tell her about it. Er jie was very piss and she went home to say that china woman. So daddy and grandma was angry with er jie that's why they were nagging about it today. Haiz. Stupid home. So sick of staying here. I was very pc with them and I complain everything to er jie in msn this morning. Told er jie I want to move out soon, to Edric's place. Haha.

Edric came to pick me up in the afternoon just now to his home. Did a bit of revision but I totally got no mood to study. So here I am blogging while waiting for our lunch to be ready.

I realised that I didn't blog for quite some days. So Edric ask me to blog more about him. Haha...

Nothing much to say actually. We went out on Saturday night and went to Marina Square to pick er jie and zq from there. Both of them quarrelled, and I was so sianz of it everytime they quarrel. Luckily this time was a major wan.
Then we went to clarke quay for dinner and they were ok already. Phew!
Went to Bugis after dinner to take my keys from xiao pang as I had left it in my office. So I asked xiao pang to help me take.
Wanted to go mosque street but er jie said she got sorethroat so zq doesn't allow her to drink. Then she cannot sing k. So I asked her to suggest where to go since here and there also cannot go. A bit pc with her already. Then I suggested going to fisherman since I am so addicted to the hoegaarden. Ordered full pint this time. Haha. Zq said i drink so much for what and I told him it's nice. Then he tried a sip and he said he rather drink one full pint of plain water rather than hoegaarden.
Sat there and chit chatted and went home.

Sunday
Went to the swimming complex at somewhere near Chinese Garden. Didn't go there for very long. The last time I went there was like 4 years ago.
Was very fun and I enjoyed myself with Ed that day. Er jie and zq had another arguement that day. So sianz. Haiz. Sometimes go out with them really very pc...
Wash up at 5 plus. Walk to the carpark and Ed kena summon. So unlucky lahz.
Went to Bukit Timah and had prata for dinner. Very nice. Was very tired so we went home early that day. Ed stay in my house to accompany me and I fell asleep while watching tv.

Nothing much happen yesterday. Just a normal working day. Life is so boring.

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Wednesday, August 13, 200810:16 AM

I had a great day yesterday!

As usual, Edric came to fetch me after work and we went to catch Journey to the center of the earth. I suggested going to Downtown East cos I didn't go to the cinema there before.
Not a very fantastic movie but it was ok. ok because of who i'm watching with. Haha.

After the movie, we went to fisherman get a drink and relax. It has been some time since I feel so relax. Was stress with work, study and personal things recently. So I feel good yesterday.
Drank Hoegaarden. But only order half pint.
Talk about everything. Didn't do that for so long with him. Feel so good.
He said it feels like a friday yesterday. Haha. How I wish it was.
Went off at 11.

THANKS DAR FOR A WONDERFUL NIGHT!!!!!!!!
SWEET ENOUGH ALREADY? HAHAHAHA.....
F.Y.I, somebody just complain about me not being sweet anymore in my blog and looks like I only treat him as a driver!

I had a nightmare yesterday. Something so scary and feel so real that I woke up from my sleep in cold sweat. But I manage to get back to sleep after that.

On Monday, when I was on my way home from school, there were 2 uncles having some arguement in the bus. So the bus driver doesn't want to move the bus. Held up every passenger time. One of the passenger was super piss and shouted at both of them. End up everyone alight from the bus and took another bus behind.
Feel so happy it was the last lesson. it was a relax one. Ms Denise still can tell us story during lesson. And we talk about the coming exam too.
I got no confident in passing. Wish me luck people! I haven't start my revision yet.

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Monday, August 11, 200811:19 AM

Friday
Edric wanted to bring mummy to Quality Hotel for buffet. Waited for him in the office. Then he called at 5 plus saying that he just left the site and he have to go back to office to do some work. A bit sianz but also no choice cos is due to work. So I called mummy and ask her to wait in her office.
End up Edric came to pick my up early. Much more earlier then I expected. Went to Jurong to fetch mummy and er jie. Jam when turning in to the carpark. Then mummy called to ask where were we. Edric said my whole family got no patience, cannot wait. Haha. Cos normally girls don't have the patient to wait for people. Only guys do. :Þ
Another jam while on the way to Quality Hotel. Super hungry. Called to ask whether there's any more table. Luckily there was one more. Reach there at 8pm.
The buffet there is not as nice as I have expected. Some food taste really bad but have to force yourself to swallow it. If not we have to pay. Was already very full but I still feel like eating. Haha. Cos the porridge is nice. Edric says next time must bring me to more buffet so that I will eat a lot. :)
Send mummy home after dinner and we went to mosque st to drink. Very crowded inside. Edric's company pay for that day. So we got free chivas. Then one of his boss was drunk. I was holding my glass and he bang into me and spill the drink all over my body. Fucking piss. So I went to the toilet to wash up.
Reach home at 2 plus and knock off immediately.

Saturday
Mummy woke me up early at 9 plus and ask me to go for breakfast. I said I don't want cos I was very tired. Then daddy woke up to talk to me and said it has been a long time since he brought us out for breakfast. So I got no choice but to wake up and went for breakfast with them. And daddy was super nice on that day. Don't know what's wrong with him.
Was super tired and Edric came to fetch me after breakfast and I went to his house to take a nap. Wanted to go National museum to find Dan and end up I overslept. So by the time I get ready and go there, think they have already finish everything. So I msg him to tell him. Was so pai sei.
Called er jie to tell her we are not going, so she and zq came to Edric's house to drink the balance of Martell. Er jie love Sandy so much lah. Was so funny when Sandy keep on looking at my sis and my sis feel very heartpain cos she cannot feed Sandy cos she already ate alot.
went to Jin ying birthday at night. Super duper bored and the most boring birthday I had ever attend.
And I was super tired. So I slept there all the way till they want to go off. Edric and er jie still play chinese chess till I was super bored. And they play until they didn't look at the time. When we reached home Edric was shock to see the time. It was close to 2. I didn't know I can stay in such a boring place for so long. Haha.

Sunday
Didn't go anywhere cos I got class in the afternoon.
Super lazy plus cramp. So I just lie on the bed for the whole day.
Meet Edric at 5 plus. Went to cwp to collect my book and to woodlands central to repair my hp. F.Y.I my hp dropped on the floor and the LCD cracked. I was very very sad about it cos I only bought it for not even half a year. Haiz. The repair cost for about $150. Gek sim.
And it takes for about 1 week to get it done. Miss my phone. :(

Monday
Today will be the last lesson for book-keeping level 2! Hurray!
and I only got 1 lesson for this week. HAHAHAHAHA.
I am very happy for this week. :) :) :)
Finally i'm done with all my book keeping lesson. Finally I don't need to attend boring lesson. Finally I don't need to see all those arrogant classmate face. HAHAHA. and aND AND, I don't need to attend 3 hours of lesson anymore cos level 3 is only 2 and a half hour. And.... GOODBYE TO MS DENISE. Hehehehehe.

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Wednesday, August 6, 20085:59 PM

Was on mc yesterday cos I had an appointment with Dr Puvan at SGH. Hmmm, so nothing wrong. It's only migraine. But still have to go back for appointment 3 months later. So doctor ask me to observe my headache for this 3 months and take down everything. Cost me $86 for 20 mins.

Jian accompany me to go and I took train after weeks of not taking train. Abit lazy though. And I walk from outram park mrt station all the way to SGH. Haha. 20 mins walk and i'm sweating like hell when I reach there.

Had my lunch in some restaurant at chinatown. Not bad.

Meet Edric in the evening. Talk to him on the phone while at home, then he suddenly ask me to look out of the window. He did something at the top storey of the multi storey carpark. Super sweet. Was so surprise. Then he came down to fetch me up to the carpark again and read those words that he wrote. He bought me a poohbear and a necklance from citygems with 7 diamonds. So touch. With a small card which he wrote something sweet inside. Thanks dar! love it. Then he brought me to a restaurant at Novena. Had a wonderful dinner. Send mummy to centrepoint before going for dinner. Mummy saw us at the carpark. Haha.

Work today is stressful. Nearly breakdown in the office but i control myself. The account problem is half solve. Hopefully can solve it by tomorrow. Too tired to do it now. So, will continue tomorrow.

Bored! Still having lesson later. Yawnz! Exam is in 1 month time and I have yet to study. Got to work hard! Jia you!

this month is really broke for me. Cos of an idiot that I always trust. Haiz. Paid $548 for nothing. Really nothing. I am so innocent. $548 is enough for me to buy a new hp. Or mabe some branded stuff. I rather donate it to charity. Stupid me.

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Friday, August 1, 200810:35 AM

Finally it's Friday again!

Going to watch money no enough 2 today. Some people comment that it is not very nice. Hmmm... Hope that I wont feel disappointed after the show.

Have been going for lesson for the past 4 days.. Erm, nope. Skip lesson on Wednesday. So is 3 days. Yawnz. So tiring to go for lesson after work. twice a week is already very tiring for me. So 4 days a weeks is going crazy for me.

Yesterday lesson is a waste of time. Cos I don't know what is Mr Bala teaching about. He always teach very fast. And I can't read his handwriting, firstly because the handwriting looks like some Indian words, and secondly, his marker ink is so low that the words he wrote on the board are so light that I can't read as I am seated at the back of the class. So damn piss..

Anyway, something funny happen during lesson yesterday. The girl who sat beside me was also from Riverside secondary. She is one year younger than me. So when I asked her when did she graduated, she said she was from 5/3 last year. I was like huh? That's my class, how come I didn't see her before? and she told me she look very different in secondary school. But I was thinking it is impossible that I can't recognize my classmate for 1 whole year right? Lol. At that moment I still thought of some incredible things like "oh, maybe we got no fate to see each other that's why I didn't see her for one whole year." Haha. or is it due to some spiritual thing that makes me can't see her for the one whole year?
I can't control my laughter during that time. Then she pause for a moment and said oh she got it wrong, she was from 4/* in 2006. Haha. Lame.
But how can people remember their class wrongly? Even if u remember it wrongly, how can u possibly said u are in sec 5 when u didn't even attend sec 5?
Well, enough. Hope she wont find out my blog or link from some other people blog to search for my blog and see this post. I'm not trying to laugh at her or what, just writing out how I feel.
Overall, she is a nice girl and a good classmate.
In fact, classmate in level 3 are much more fun and better than those in level 2. They are more helpful and sociable. There are even smoking khakis. haha

After lesson, meet Edric and I told him about the joke and I couldn't stop laughing about it. Edric said I'm so bad. Haha. I know I am. :Þ
Well, something not very good happen while on the way home.
Silly dar, not angry with u and I will always be ok after awhile, it's not the first day u know me. :)

Didn't do any work for the past 2 days. All I did was watching show, playing games and reading stories and blogs.
Don't have the mood to do anything. Headache.
So the bank reconciliation is not done yet. Haha. Spend nights and nights of it to think about how am I going to solve it and where the money go to. Just can't think of any solution and I really can't figure out. Spent a few hours on Tuesday to check all the cheque bud and bank statement and acct statement. But still couldn't find the answer.Argh! Somebody help me please!! As if there is any. Even if there are people willing to help, I can't show company account to anyone. Ha.

Alright, I shall stop here. Have a nice weekend!

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