Kidnap my heart.

Thursday, August 21, 20082:59 PM

Went to Edric house after work yesterday. Cook dinner together. Been cooking dinner recently for him. Haha. So nice of me. :Þ
Wanted to watch 12 Lotus. But end up we didn't. Nothing much to do. So just rot and watch tv till his mother came back. Talk to his mum for awhile and watch Dvd. Fell asleep halfway through the show. Was tired.

Couldn't wake up this morning. Was so lazy to wake up to go for work. But no choice.

My mood was good at first but not for long. Something which I don't wish to mention about it. Just piss me off and spoilt my mood for the whole of today. Argh! Just find it so rude. At least give some warning and said it nicely since it was the first time. Somemore who am I to u to say I don't know how to behave? That should leave it for my parents to say. And i'm not feeling well either. At least, I can control my temper for not giving attitude to Edric now. For the first time. Congrats to myself! Big improvement! Haha. Cos it wasn't his fault. So why should I give him attitude? I have to be understanding. Chat with er jie in msn. Told her that my mood is very bad. She said daddy ask me why I didn't go home yesterday night. Haha. Then she said at least mummy is coming back today. So I should be happy. :) Luckily at least there's something for me to be happy about!

Lesson today. Yawnz. I don't have the mood to study. Seriously I think that I will fail my exam badly.

Don't know why when I was moody just now the first person that came to my mind was jian. haiz. Maybe cos I already get used to him who always cheer me up and console me whenever I am feeling down.
And I read 2 of my friend's blog just now. 1 of them was feeling so sad and miserable over a break up with her bf and I feel so hurt when I read it cos I totally understand how it feel and it reminds me of jian. The other wan was saying how sweet her relationship was though there were ups and downs during the r/s, (which r/s don't?) Friends and relatives asked her to find someone better but she is so much happy now with him. Omg. and I started to feel so sad and regret for everything that i've done for the past few months. and regret everything that I've done all these years. Whatever I do is always affecting the people around me. Why did god created me to this world? but life still have to go on. haiz.
Whatever.... The decision has already made. Remember what Mdm Ho told me, since everything is set, we don't have a choice, so just go for it and do the best. Do my best? I hope I can, but I need some time.

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