Kidnap my heart.

Tuesday, September 30, 20084:39 PM

I had a boring weekend cos it was spend on revision for level 2 exam. Haha. I know I am acting studious.
So Friday after work, Mike came to fetch me with his Subaru. Nice car! But the owner is not nice. Haha. The way he talk was so haolian. Telling me how much he earn a month and what he work as. Well, a rich man indeed. Rich man are always not handsome. Handome guys are always not rich. A Samsung Marketing manager earning 12k a month. Oh! When can I earn 12k a month? With 2 cars, 2 latest samsung phone that is all sponsored by company. Petrol and handphone bills also sponsored by company. So tell me did he even get a chance to spend his money? Oh god. So he should have 100k over in his bank. If I ever got such a bf, I don't even need to work anymore and get to shop all I want. Well, i'm dreaming again.
Went home after dinner as I planned to study but end up I spend my days sleeping. Totally not in the mood to study.

I spend the whole of Saturday studying at home. Yawnz.

Woke up early on Sunday morning and I went to Jian's place to study. Meet Pei Hua at night to clear all my doubts. Pei Hua is a nice guy. Though he was so busy with his project and school, he still find time for me cos I told him i'm having paper on Monday. Had a nice chat with him too. Finally I know what is depreciation after a few months of taking accounting class without knowing what is depreciation all about. Haha.
Went home around 12 and was too tired to continue my revision. So I slept till 3 am and I woke up again to study. Was so bloody tired in the morning but still, I went to office with mummy to continue my revision.
I realise it was 1.30pm and was late for my exam. So I rush all the way to the exam hall and realised I left my calculator in mummy's office. I said "SHIT" so loudly that everyone turn to look at me. Turn over to tell my classmate that I forgot my calculator and I panic. Luckily 1 of my classmate got a spare one and lend it to me. Hoo! Lucky me.

The paper sucks to the core. It was hell too difficult for me. Think I have to re-take the exam again. Haiz. Everyone please pray for me that in 2 months time I will be happy when I get my results and not weeping like a child.

Alright, exam is done. So in the meanwhile till I know my result, I should enjoy myself to the fullest!

Yesterday night, I had a weird dream. Don't know why Eric appear in my dreams. It has been years since I last met and contact him and I heard that he is already married. I dreamt that he just appear in front of me and started talking to me like how we used to. Then Edric also came. I was like huh? How come Eric and Edric both appear in my dreams? Maybe they were too alike. Not in looks and character though. When I first got to know Edric, those friends and my sister who knows Eric also said Edric reminds them of Eric when they first saw Edric. Haha. Complicated.
It was also a nightmare. Cos Edric just appear for a few mins then he disappear. Was talking to Eric halfway then saw kor too. So we were all sitting together. Then ah ling and her friends were also there. All causeway people who I know in the past. Suddenly me and kor was going somewhere to buy drinks then a gun bullet flew past him. So he ask me to be careful cos somebody is trying to kill us. Then me and kor just run and run to try to dodge away from the bullet and we both ran separate ways. So I was alone but there were still gun bullet trying to hit me. And don't know why suddenly I ran to a night market and saw ah ling they all. So I just join in the crowd and no more gun bullet flying to me.
The dream was so real and scary and I didn't watch any action movie recently. Don't know why this dream. Haha.

This morning I woke up by Jian's call. Then I saw his sms saying he is coming to send me to work. So I quickly went to prepare and get ready. Was so rushing. I asked him why he woke up so early and he told me he got nightmare and couldn't sleep back. He told me he dreamt that someone was trying to kill him. Haha. Same dream as me. So coincident. Is it something bad really going to happen to us? Hopefully not. *pray*

So nothing much for me to do at work today. And I watch Hot shot and Guess x3. Super free to watch 2 show in a day. And i'm blogging now. Can u imagine how free I am? half an hour more and i'm knocking off from work. What a day! Time past so fast when I am not doing any work.

Going to start my second module, Business Statictis on coming thusday. Heard that Business stats is so much more easier and is the easiest module in accounting. :)

Tomorrow is a public holiday!

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Friday, September 26, 200811:29 AM

It's finally friday again. This Friday will be a boring one cos I will be staying at home to study. So no nights out for me. Haiz.
I hope exam will be over soon so I can enjoy myself.
My contact lens is hurting my eyes these few days. Till today I can't stand it anymore, so I remove it in the office and my vision is so blur now that I am not able to work. Perhaps this can give me a reason to take half day to go home and rest. :)
Today is suppose to be a happy day cos 3 weeks ago, plan to take off, to accompany him. Well, but it's over. So.... i'm sitting in the office now. Haha.
Suddenly I remember today is Daddy's birthday! I totally forgot!
Friday night! I love friday but not today.
Got to know Mike from don't know where he get my msn in wlny or sd. Was so bored in the office so I chat with him. He asked me to accompany him to go racing tonight where all Subaru cars will be racing over there. He brag so much about his Subaru STI like how fast it can run from 0 - 100km/hr in 3.2seconds. And so coincidence that he is staying at Woodlands too! How I wish to go tonight.

Can introduce to Gui Qing since she said she wants a bf who drives so she don't need to take cab to school everyday. If I get to see him in real person I will intro to her if he is not handsome. If he is above my expectation I will take him then! Haha.

Mike's car.

Lesson yesterday was not as fun. But is still not bad lah. Mr Bala was so lame when we ask him how to do a question, he said use a pen and paper to do. Super lame.

Jian came to fetch me and I end my day at 11pm.

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Thursday, September 25, 200811:19 AM

So end up I went drinking with Ken and Xiao Pang yesterday. :Þ. I just can't control myself and I don't find a need to since I am not promising anybody and since he don't trust me even when I really control myself for not going to drink.

I left office around 5 plus with Xiao pang and we cab to mosque street to wait for Ken. Drank a few glass of beer over there. Then Xiao Pang asked me to call Ken to ask him what time will he be coming. So I used the other number cos doesn't have that number to call him. When he answered he ask me whether I am Irene and I said yup. Then I told him I miss him. :) Ken said miss me then check-in a room to wait for me lo. LOl. Then I laugh out and said I am Shu Yi lah then he also laugh and scolded me. Before I hang up I told him I will check-in a room and wait for u then he scolded me again. Haha.
Abit bored over there, Ken only reach around 7 plus when he told me he will reach at 6 plus. After awhile, we went to club sake at boat quay cos it was big ken birthday.
Ken keep on forcing me to eat meat. What the hell! I was abit tipsy that I really got the urge to open my mouth but I controlled myself. Then Ken keep on playing with the camera and took a lot of junk pictures. So when he pass me the camera I also did the same thing as what he did. Then everybody said got this type of boss will have this type of employee. Haha. The 1st glass was super, William mix martell and chivas and beer in every0ne glass and everybody have to drink. Then I pour into William glass cos I know the taste will be super disgusting so I only drank a bit of it.
When William was pouring the second glass, he haven't add in the mixer and I help him to stir. Xiao pang and William laugh at me and said i'm drunk but I deny. I keep on re-filling William glass and accidentaly spill Leslie glass. So pai sei. Then Leslie ask me whether i'm ok.
I sang Nan ren nu ren with William.
Big Ken was already very drunk and keep on talking nonsense. Then I told Leslie Big Ken and him behave so alike when they were drunk.
When we were about to go off, Ken asked me to tell a waitress over there 500 bucks, then I call that girl and Ken ranaway. I point to Ken and told her Ken said 500 bucks. Everybody was laughing and said I sabo my own boss. Then Alan ask me then how much I charge I told him I am priceless. Ken then said $30 enough already, xiao pang add in said give him for free he also don't want. Alan laugh putting his hand on my waist and said he wants it for free. :) But I said cannot cos I am priceless.
Went off around 10 plus 11 and went to meet Jian. Was walking alone to find a cab but end up I don't know where I walk to and I can't see clearly. I saw a green light in front and I thought it was a cab so I stand there to wait and only to find out it was a traffic light when it turns red. So I walk and walk to find a toilet and saw a taxi stand. So I stand there and wait for a cab. There was 2 man queueing in front of me keep on looking at me with a stupid face. They must thinking that I was drunk or something like that. I finally got a cab. When the taxi driver ask me which way to go, I can't think of anything during that time, pause for a moment and said anything.
Cab fare cost $20 plus cos there was extra $3 charge in city area. So damn ex.
Reach block downstairs and meet Jian for awhile before going home. Was so tired and knock off as soon as I can.

Edric came back this morning and he fetch me to work. Feelings are weird. Don't know why my eyes suddenly become so teary. I control for very long and it finally fell down. Well, good things doesn't last anyway, all good things will come to an end eventually. Life still goes on and i'm enjoying the way I live my life now. Cos we don't need to worry for 1 more person, informing 1 more person anything. Just do what u want to do. I'm loving it. Isn't this what I want all along? So I should feel happy. When I reach home yesterday, I told er jie she should join me and it will be so fun without bf around and she was so tempted to go. Haha. But end up she said it's ok cos she got zq. A difference from me and her is she get appreciated by her bf when she do so much for him by behaving herself, staying faithful and an obedient gf but I don't get appreciated. What's worst? Instead of getting appreciated, I get insulted. So give me hundreds, thousands, million and billion reason why should I be a good girl?
Oh, what he said really affect me so much. So guys n gals, watch what u say, and please think before u say anything to a person. As 1 sentence can totally change and affect a person A LOT.

Lesson as usual today. 4 more lesson and i'm going to finish Management accounting. Going to miss Vion and Lynn for the next module.

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Wednesday, September 24, 20084:16 PM

5 more days to exam and I have yet to study! Haha. I am so damn lazy. I admit! :Þ

Yesterday I reach school super early at 6.30pm. Walk in and there's only Regina, one more classmate and me. 3 people! Talk to Regina for awhile then Lynn came. Haha. Then I told her this is the first time I reach earlier than her.
Took my timetable, the next module is Business Stat on 2 Oct. So no 2 months holiday for me. For those who are not taking Business Stat, good for them cos Higher Accounting is starting on Dec. How I wish I got the break also.
So yesterday lesson was fun as usual with the 2 entertaining vion and Lynn around. Mr Bala asked me to improve on my handwriting. Lol. Mr Bala said the 3 of us always got important matter to discuss cos we were very talkative.

Jian came to pick me up after lesson with Six. Don't know why people call him Six. Haha. And he told me somthing super funny but I think I shall not say it here cos it is quite disgusting and I was having my dinner during that time. Nearly puke.

I finally finished the book "To forget you" Nice story but not very good ending. Nearly cried halfway reading it. It is so touching. MUST READ!

Went to work this morning and it was raining. So I ran all the way from MRT station to my office. Jian saw that I was drench so he help me to wipe off the droplets on my body. So sweet of him. :)

Ken came in to office today. Don't know for how long I didn't talk to him already. Went lunch together with Xiao Pang also.

While I was browsing through friendster just now, happened to see Vincent(my ex)'s profile and OMG!!!! He got a gf. Finally after 123456789987654321 years. Haha. So I was looking at their pictures, the girl look so plump. :Þ Not pretty. Haha. I know I am mean but this is the fact. And Vincent is such a skinny guy. Guess what is his weight? 45kg for a guy!!!! So can u imagine him with his plump gf? HEHEHE.. Just look so weird together. What's more? I read her blog and she call herself "xiaobudian" which means "petite". Laugh till I can cry!!!! If she is xiaobudian then what makes other smaller size girl? Extraxiaobudian? Lol. She is also some ah lian wannabe. Cos she blog like some other xiao lian with my=moi, you=uii and many others which I don't know cos I don't write like that and don't they find it difficult to type it out? Cos I do.
Don't know what is Vincent thinking of. Did she cast a spell on him or is he too desperate cos he is single for so many years, and he need someone to help him to solve his problem so he don't need to DIY? Haha.
I read someone's blog yesterday and I can't believe that she can write something like it might be true that after her break up, guys are wanting to know her and make her theirs. but she won't open my heart to anyone else easily, and ask those people to kiss their hopes in wanting to be with her good bye. She won't accept anyone easily. But if the guys are still waiting for the slightest glint of hope, then go ahead and ask them don't be mad at her when she don't reciprocate their love. Soooooooooooooooooooo BHB when she is not even pretty and totally flat. Think only Kim and Alene know what I mean flat cos we used to call her "qiao qiao ban". Gosh, what is happening to the girls nowadays?

Ken and xiao pang is going to boat quay to drink today. I feel like going also but exams are coming soon. God, please help me. Take my drinking habits away. Really very tempting.

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Tuesday, September 23, 200811:46 AM

I met giggles after work on friday. They are a bunch of idoits cos they didn't wait for me to start the singing session. Well, anyway, I reach there areound 5 plus and join them in the singing session. Can u believe that I actually don't know how to walk from somerset mrt station to cineleisure and I had to call syafiq to ask him how to go? Omg. Didn't meet them like so long. Alene wore like Mrs Angie Tan cos she went for teaching before that. Kim cut her fringe, Syafig becomes more muscular, and the rest never change at all.
Catch up with them and gossip abit. I always loves to listen to their gossip cos ever since I am working, I am so outdated about everything. Took some pictures, but I won't be uploading till i'm free.
Kor came to fetch me at cineleisure after the singing session. Wanted to go Dragonfly, but have to go and fetch yue ping first. Waited at Changi General Hospital for 1 hour and I really dozed off. yawnz. Kor was piss so we just went off without fetching her home. Then it was too late, so didn't go Drangonfly cos Kor's friend end up don't want to go. Can't decide where to go, then me and kor talk about the past when I just broke off with Dennis and he just seperated with da sao and we can go wherever we want to go with no worries, don't need to inform anybody and no curfew. We can drink until drunk, go home when we play until song and flirt all we can. Haha. Still remember I will go home everyday after school to sleep and wake up at 4 plus or 5 plus and meet kor after his work and decide where we want to go or just stay at his house to slack if there's no place to go. Miss those days.

Went to club nana at clarke quay to help kor to take his pay. Kor ask me to take from Jason, who got the same name as him. lol. So the bouncer asked me who am I looking for I said looking for Jason helping Jason to take his pay. Lol. Sounds weird.
Then we got no where to go so we went to Vic to drink. It has been a long time since I drank with kor. Still as fun. Xiao pang, kok leng, Ben and Raymond was there too. Chat awhile with them and I went off at 1 plus. Then kor said his friend wants to go Dragonfly already, but my contact lens was so dry and my eyes was very painful. So we went home. I was so sad didn't manage to go Dragonfly. haiz. Perhaps after exam when I got my pay. I hope so.

So slept throughout the whole Saturday and woke up at 4 plus to get ready and went to AMK hub to shop. Bought a few things and catch a movie with Jian at 9 plus. It was 11 when we finished the movie and home sweet home.

Woke up at 7am on Sunday. Was so super tired. Get myself ready and meet Jian for breakfast. Meet up with his colleague and fetch us to Expo for the car show. Walk around. Took a lot of pictures. OMG, those cars are super duper nice. If only I marry Bill Gates, I can buy all the cars over there. Oh, how I wish.
Many pretty girls with fantastic figure over there. I want to be like them someday too. When I was squeezing so hard in the crowd to take a look at those girls Jian just walk off and said he wasn't interested, he was more interested in cars. Piang. Is he a gay or what?
Saw Gary there too. Was so surprised! So I went over to talk to him. Then Gary said I go there to look at girls to see how they dress so I can become like them also. He can read my mind! Lol.
Watch the show at 5pm. The drifting was nice. If only I can drive like them. Haha.
Didn't get a good view watching the show, then a guy went off and I wanted to stand in front, but a girl behind me just so kan jiong to snatch my place. Such an ass. Luckily the guy who stand beside her took out a cigarette and smoke, so the girl cannot tahan and walk off. laughing my ass off, so I was not affected by the smoke cos I am also a smoker and I stand at the place.
Ah Hua came after that, so we walk a few rounds more and went to Changi Airport to walk around since Jian never go to Changi Airport before.
Took 858 home after that and we join my family for bbq somewhere near our place. Shi Feng was shock and ask me where's E? LOl. then er jie said E for End. HAHA. Was so hungry when I reach there so I only helped out to eat, and didn't bbq. :p

Took MC on Monday. Was so tired and I rest and slept till 3. Woke up to do some study. Then Jian was sick. So at 6, I saw daddy was preparing to go out, so I might as well as him to send me out also since his work place is at Bugis. So he sent me to Bugis MRT and I took train to Paya Lebar. Bought some Liang teh and called him to ask him where he is. then talk to him all the way till I appear in front of him and gave him a shock. :p Pei him and take care of him for awhile and I took a cab home.

Reach work this morning and I didn't have key to open the door cos I left my key in the office. Waited 20 mins for Gyan to reach and chat with Sin Yi and Gui Qing in msn. So Sin Yi was saying she know a Germany guy who is quite rich and handsome but he is 36. So she said can introduce to our youngest Aunt to him. But I suggest she intro to me instead and I don't mind the age. Sin Yi said if she want to intro to me why not she take it herself instead? She asked me to take the New Zealand one instead cos he is only 23. But I don't want to drink milk everyday. Haha. And the Germany guy is so much more handsome and richer. If only I can marry him, I don't mind giving up the one I love. :Þ
Just like what Alene asked me who to choose last friday, I told her to go for the richer wan since her current bf is so ah beng.
Gui Qing also msn me today to tell me she is free FROM NOW ON! So............ LET'S GO OUT TO PLAY!
Maybe we can get to know more richer guy out there. :Þ

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Friday, September 19, 200811:18 AM

Yesterday lesson was still interesting. 5 mins after I reach the class Mr Bala said the test will be starting in 5 mins time. So I msg Vion and tell her.
Me and Lynn both just stare at the question paper cause we don't understand. Until Vion reach, then she explain it to us.
We learn about Internal rate of return(IRR) yesterday. Not that difficult. It was still ok but abit blur. Mr Bala gave us some classwork to do and we got our breaktime. After coming back from break, we ask the girl who sat beside Vion about taking ABC and Business Stats. Vion and Lynn decided to take ABC instead of Business Stats cos they said ABC is easier. Haiz. So I got no friends in Business stats.
So we were happily talking while Mr Bala is writing question on the board for us to do. Then Mr Bala said we are very noisy and we realised we need to copy down. After awhile when most of the people are done, the 3 of us were not done yet. So Mr Bala cannot explain the answer. Then he said we were happily having discussion while he is writing down, then the director who is giving us the speech has already finish. The director refer to the girl who is sitting beside Vion.
Mr Bala called us the 3 Guru yesterday. Lol. So overall I still enjoy the lesson yesterday.

Well, anyway, i'm trying to settle my things soon. Thought I can settle in 1 night but failed. How can a person say he trust u a day before and then said it's hard to trust u like that and said I didnt even prove to him that he can trust me the next day? So what if i'm not home after 11? Does that mean that i'm doing something wrong? So if everyone goes out after 11 means all of them are cheating of their bf/gf?
Ladies and gentleman, won't u feel irritated everytime when u are going out, be it to work or with friends or anywhere else, with who, ur mum, ah gong, ah ma, gu ma, gu po friends or whoever, as long as it's human, or even alone. Ur partner always repeat " Careful oh! Guai guai oh! Must behave urself hor! Don't anyhow anyhow, don't flirt with guys!" Ok, u may say it is a joke, but is everytime! Can even repeat more than 1 time a day. joking also don't need to repeat everytime want right? Lame. It sounds more like suspecting than joking.
What's more? If I want to cheat on u, why should I go through all the hassle of doing things for u and try to give u what u want? Why should I act so decent in front of ur parents and relative just to make them like me?

Alright, I don't want to say anything else. of cos u are good too! Not that u are totally bad. Only too sensitive. I'm sorry, i'm the type who loves freedom. I get close to any guys as long as they are nice or some advantages to benefit me. So I wont be the type of girls u want. Go find some decent lady, maybe a teacher? Haha.

I feel the playing mood is coming back to me again. Oh god!
So I will be playful till I can find someone who don't know how wild I can be at times so that he won't suspect me of anything no matter who I meet and where I go. But he must not be like me and must be a 24 hours gd bf. Oh, I pray to god that some good guys like this still exist.
Haha. I know i'm dreaming. Just dream awhile to make myself happy cannot izzit?

This morning, I stand all the way from Woodlands to Paya Lebar. oh god! When I board the train, there was no seats, but one whole row of place for me to stand. So I look at the people, one chinese uncle was sleeping, beside him was an Indian uncle who open his eyes widely and holding on to his bag which he place on the floor, then a aunty seating beside him was also dozing off. So who will u think will alight first? Of cos not those who are sleeping right? Cos they still got a long way to go so they are sleeping. So I stood in front of the Indian Uncle. Next stop Admiralty, nobody alight. Then Yishun, nobody alight. So I was like, "hey stupid uncle! U are holding on to ur bag for so long, don't u feel tired? If u are not alighting then why are u holding on it to look as if u are alighting?" Then the aunty beside him alight at Khatib. Too bad I was standing in front of the Uncle, so another lady took that seats. Actually I can really snatch from her cos I am nearer to that seats. but I don't want to look so aunty to snatch seats like what the aunty or uncle always do to do a 100m sprint to get a seats.
After that, the chinese uncle beside the Indian uncle alight, so I could not get the seats also cos I die die also want to stand in front of the Indian uncle that I thought he will alight soon. End up he alight at Dhoby Ghuat which is just 1 stop away from where I will be alighting. So no point seating down for just 1 stop.
And everyone who board the train later than me all got seats. They must be thanking me in their heart cos I die die also stand in front of the Indian uncle so that they will be standing at other place to get the seats. See, i'm so nice to everybody. Haha. Indirectly nice lah!
So next time when u all board the train, don't sleep in the train when u are just alighting in 2 or 3 more stop, and if u are not alighting so soon, please don't stay so awake and hold ur bag so tightly to seem as if u are going to alight soon! Argh!
And I hate women more! Cos sometimes man will let u have the seats even though they are just standing in front of the empty seats. I just love gemtleman! I remember quite long ago, there's a aunty who wants to snatch the empty seats, but the man standing in between me and the aunty block the aunty way and gave me the seats and the aunty was so piss! Haha. Oh, that shows how realistic the society is. Of cos I am much more attractive and prettier than the aunty. :p

I want to save money! My dream is to get my licence and car when i'm 21! Don't need to be a very good car, but it must be presentable also. In this case. I don't need to guess everyday who is going to alight from the train soon, and don't need to squeeze in the crowded train.
So I will stop shopping starting from this month. Ok, I know I can't control, the most only $50 a month to shop. If can, get people to buy it for me so that I don't need to spend a single cent. Then my dreams to get a car will get nearer and nearer. I wish Bill Gates will marry me.

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Thursday, September 18, 200812:04 PM

I went to mind cafe yesterday. It was quite fun but it get pretty bored after a few hours of playing so we try to play some lame games to entertain ourselves.

I feel so weird not talking to him. No improvement for us. All good things come to an end.

A new life after I settle everything! What should I do?
My wish:

1) Spend more time with my friends.
2) Know more new friends.
3) Enjoy myself to the fullest!

Haha.

Received a sms from Kim just now. Gigglets meeting for pizza hut in the afternoon and movie afterwhich. So I thought is today. Sad and disappointed which I thought couldn't make it cos I got lesson tonight. So I replied Kim and told her not to organise on Tues and Thurs next time. I got a reply from her after that saying it was TOMORROW! Haha. Who ask her not to say clearly in the msg. :p
AND, she never say where will they be going. So I thought it was at causeway point. So Kim said they are going to PS. Can't wait for another meeting with my friends again! I miss all of them so much.

KC promised me yesterday night to go online today but he never. Ass! Always lie to me. I miss him also lah! I hope I really got the time to meet my all friends one by one and catch up with them.

Will be having test on Payback method, AAR and NPV tonight. Got to do some revision. Looking forward to lesson with Lynn and Vion around.

I find my life more meaningful nowadays with catching up with friends. I love my life now.

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Wednesday, September 17, 200810:15 AM

3 days has past, I still can't stop thinking of it.

This is the first time just one sentence that really affect me so much. Izzit because I put too much hope in him and that's why it is a big disappointment that I can't forget about what he said.

Feel so weird this few days of not talking to him on the phone, telling him what happen for the day and everything.

I really want to, but the moment I think of what he said I don't feel like calling him. I feel so hurt when I hear his voice.

He called me this morning saying he got rashes all over and it has beem raining recently over there. I really want to show my care and concern for him. But I was too sad to talk.

Guess everything going to be over soon.

Everything just feel so strange for me now.

Alright, enough about the emo thing.

Yesterday lesson was great! Me and Lynn missed the last lesson, so we asked Vion to take notes for us. Vion was late for lesson yesterday, so when the lesson start, me and Lynn got no notes to refer to and we don't know what is the teacher talking about. Then we somehow understand abit cos he was teaching Net Profit Value(NPV) which is not related to last lesson.
Vion only reach when teacher finish teaching NPV. While waiting for Vion to reach, Mr Bala gave us a question to do but me and Lynn doesn't know how to do cos we didn't learn last lesson. So Mr Bala ask us to pray to god and pray that our saviour will reach soon and he asked us to do the NPV first.
Finally Vion reach and Mr Bala said the god has answer to our prayer. Lame.
So Vion teach us about the Payback and ARR. The whole class are filled with our voice. Then Mr Bala keep on saying there's a pool of director behind discussing some important matter which is referring to us.
Then Mr Bala keep on making fun of the 3 of us cos we always ask him stupid question. Reminds me of Kim and Alene when we were in secondary school.
After break time, Mr Bala gave us an assignment to do and have to hand in before going off. We still can happily checking answer with each other and got the same answer. End up the 3 of us got the answer totally wrong. Then have to re-do again. So everyone goes off and only left the few of us. Then Mr Bala called us the 3 muskateer. Lol.
Lesson is getting more and more interesting with Lynn and Vion.
And there's 2 months holiday before we start the next module. Hurray! but the next module is Higher Accounting. OMG!

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Tuesday, September 16, 20085:39 PM

I'm so hungry now. Suddenly reminds me of those times when he will buy some food before coming to fetch me before lesson so that I can eat in his car on the way to school and I will always feed him cause he is driving. Haiz.

Sad that we are like that now.

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9:40 AM

The words that he said on Sunday is still haunting my memory. I just can't forget about it.
Although I really tried very hard to cheer myself up, I still can't get over it.
I sleep very early yesterday soon after I reach home.
I sleep early because I don't want to think so much. If i'm awake then I won't stop thinking about it.
Even though u didn't said anything yesterday, but I still can feel that u still don't trust me. When I told u i'm going to sleep, u said I always sound so out of breath. Are u trying to say something?
And u also asked me why izzit so quiet, alone in the room, of cos it will be very quiet. Is not the first time u call me at night, and u never ask this kind of question before, whatever u think just tell me straight. Don't need to ask me this and that.
This morning u still ask me again to confirm I sleep very early yesterday. Haiz. Why should I lie to u?
I know I am bad. U always think I am bad. That's why long ago I mentioned to u that u won't trust me in the future but u said u won't. Easier said than done.

Luckily I didn't put in so much effort this time......

Love fade away bit by bit. Eventually, one day there will be nothing left. The more you try to hold onto love, the more it want to get away from u.

Everytime when u called, u told me u are hurt by this and that, got rashes and everything. I really wish to care, but I am too upset to say anything. I just don't know what to say. It seems like keeping quiet is the best thing.

I don’t remember the tears, I only remember the pain.

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Monday, September 15, 20081:00 PM

I experienced that pain: Sharp, strong and like an emotionally-injected sting

He don't trust me at all!

For the first time I felt so humiliated by a person who is so important to me.

I totally can't stand it anymore!

I know I am not some decent person worth to be trusted. But he is too over.

Since think of me like that then why jio me in the first place?

What's the use of apology?

Why am I so obedient? Why should I not go drinking? Why should I not meeting my friend and go out on friday and Saturday? Why am I staying at home for the whole week? It prove nothing to him. I am still the not decent and playful girl in his eyes.

Fuck.

Totally lost faith and feeling for him. I am not happy at all!!!!!

How to cheer up when this kind of things happen? Still got the cheek to ask me to cheer up and forgive him. Haha. Why not u try it urself?

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Thursday, September 11, 200810:48 AM

Meet jian yesterday after work.

Went to Clarke Quay for dinner. Then er jie and Jeremy came to join us. Went to Central to walk for awhile. Nothing much to shop. So didn't buy anything.
Walk around clarke quay, then to boat quay.
Walk past all the pub down there. Very tempting to drink. But I promised Edric I wont go drinking when he go Thailand for reservist.
I'm such a obedient girl. Haha.

Walk down to Boat Quay then to Mind cafe to play. Played till 11 then went home.

Was super tired.

Edric still in Thailand. Miss him so much.

Chatted with Ben on Msn on tuesday. Then I told him I miss Edric. Lol. Cos I got nothing to do.

Kim sms me yesterday and ask me to go out next friday. Hurray! Miss her! I miss all my friends so much. It seems like I nv meet any of my friends for a long time.

Overslept this morning. Was so lazy to take train and bus so I took cab. $22. Piang.

Don't know how much I spent on cab fare these few days.

Lesson again today. Sianz. I missed 2 lesson last week and I can't catch up anymore.

Life is so boring. Yawnz!

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Tuesday, September 9, 20085:08 PM

I'm back to work from my 1 week leave.

Been studying like hell last week. Insufficient sleep.

The paper was horrible. I did not manage to balance the balance sheet.

Pray hard I can pass!!!!!!!

Lesson again today. Yawnz. How I wish I can rest.

Edric went to thailand on thursday. Miss him so much. 16 more days to go.

I took train and bus for the past 2 days. Omg! totally hate it. Especially the crowd and the long journey. I wish to get my licence soon!!!

I passed my Final theory test yesterday! Finally. 1 more step to my driving licence... :)

level 2 exam on 29 September. All e best to myself!!!

After 29 sep I want to go out and play, drink, sing, and enjoy myself to the fullest!!!

Edric doesn't allow me to drink when he is not around! So unfair. But at least he still bring me to drink before he went for reservist... Not bad lah..

Miss him! Miss him! Miss him!

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