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Friday, October 31, 20082:54 PM

I'm going to night safari tonight with jian. So excited. He still kept his promise. :) and it is Halloween today. I hope it will be fun. Mummy said later I took picture with the ghost cos I thought they are fake, but when I reach home and look at those picture, there are no fake ghost beside me cos they are real ghost. Lol. So damn lame.

Went to mindcafe on Wednesday. Had fun there. Saw Dhapa but didn't manage to talk to him cos he was working. Miss him so much. Learn quite a lot of new games. Everyone went off at 11 and we are the only table that didn't go off since we know everyone there, they were kind enough to wait. Haha. Went off at 11 plus and reach home at 12 plus. Tired.

Was on mc yesterday. Sleep the whole day at home. Woke up at 4 and went for dinner with Edric and went for lesson after that.

Mr Bala was late for lesson yesterday. Waited till 7.15 then he reach.
Siti started level 2 yesterday. So happy cos there will be people having break with me. Too bad she is not in my class. So I went to her class to find her during breaktime and she accompany me for smoke. Talk to Miss Denise after that. She was funny cos she told the class I am distinction student when I haven't even got my results. and I am happy enough if I can pass.
Mr Bala ended the lesson at 10pm yesterday. Wtf. And i'm the last 3 to go. Make Jian waited for so long. But the last part was funny cos everone was rushing to finish the classwork so that we can go off. End up we copy here and there. But for business stats, u either copy from the beginning or do it urself. Cos the decimal points are all different. So it will be so obvious even if u just copy 1 line. But we didn't care cos everyone wants to go off. Especially those people with kids. They miss their children.
Jian came to fetch me after lesson. Was happy talking to him. Had lots of fun joking. Went off at 11 plus. Then I told Jian I want to take cab. But bus came so he ask me not to waste money since bus is here. So I guai guai listen to him.

Took my pay cheque today. Thought of asking Edric to send me to Aljunied to drop cheque so that I can get the money on Monday. Sms and asked him whether he want to have lunch together, but when he call it was quite late. So it will still be the same whether I go to the bank to drop it today or tomorrow. Somemore he is going to workshop. So decided not to lunch with him. Sounds a bit like i'm making use of him again. Lol. But no la, he ask for lunch yesterday what. So I just shun bian ask him to send me to drop cheque only. I'm not that bad lah. :)

Drinking tomorrow again. Hope it will be fun. And i'm going out with someone that my sis will sure be shock if I tell her who i'm going out with. Haha. Seems like i'm always snatching her friends. From Gary to Jian to Jeremy. But don't get the wrong idea cos Jeremy is not trying to hit on me. Unlike Gary and Jian. Hopefully Alene can make it tomorrow too. Miss her so much.

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Tuesday, October 28, 20089:54 AM

So nice to had a long weekend.

I meet Jian after work on Friday and we went Bugis to shop. It has been quite sometimes when I last went shopping with him. The feeling is so nice. It was a happy night. Didn't went home that night and I only reach home the next afternoon at 12. Was so tired but I didn't sleep immediately cos I was preparing for my meeting with Nick at night. So I get my nails done while watching some Dvd and went to bed after that.

Woke up at 6 to get myself prepare. Then I saw Da Jie at home. Didn't see her for 2 weeks. So I cook dinner that night. Was happy cos I didn't cook for a long time. Had my dinner with Da Jie. It was already 7 plus after the dinner and Nick says he will pick me up at 8. Was so rushing. By the time I get myself ready it was already 8.30. Luckily Nick was late too cos he couldn't find my place. Haha. We went to Bugis again for a movie. Watch Max Payne. Quite interesting but the storyline was quite lame. Went to Vic for a drink after the movie. On the way there, we couldn't figure out how to turn in to Mosque street cos it is a 1 way road. After turning the 2nd round Nick decided to just turn in. Then a car was coming out. So he high beam us. we were so pai sei and I ask him to faster anyhow just park a lot. Not many people there. Drank a few glasses. Had a nice and long chat with him till I didn't notice the time. Everyone gave me the shocking face when I went in with Nick. Then I told Su he is my new bf and Su keep on laughing. :p Went off at 2 plus. By the time I reach home it was already 3 cos Nick didn't drive fast cos he was afraid his licence will get revoked but he didn't drink much also.

Woke up at 10 plus on Sunday. Da Jie's friend came to pick her up cos they were going to play bball. So I hitch a ride to Chua Choa Kang and I went to Jian's place to find him. On the way to Chua choa kang, Da Jie's friend was so humorous. Then they said the news said that cannot kiss in the MRT or MRT station. Or else will be fine if u are caught. So lame lor. What's wrong with the law nowadays.
Plan to go Night Safari but Jian's injuries still not heal yet. So I suggested not to go cos we have to walk a lot. Think we will go next week.
Then 1 of the Indian worker wanted to borrow money for Jian. I took out $20 since it's Deepavali on Monday and I know they don't earn much. So nice of me. :) $20 is not a lot, but is enough for me to take a cab home. Still got change somemore lor.
Took a cab home at 11 before the midnight charge start. But I forgot it's the public holiday eve. Cab fare are so ex nowadays. The taxi driver was so chatty. Talk to me all the way till I reach home. Cost me $17.70 for the cab fare. The uncle still so funny, ask me whether I need receipt to claim from company.

Woke up quite early at 9 plus on Monday. Maybe cos already get used to wake up early on weekdays. Did some housework cos grandma and dad keep on nagging about me going out and going home late everyday. Get myself prepare to go out in the afternoon and grandma was so unhappy when she saw me going out again. Haha. Meet Jian at my block and we went to Malaysia to get my hair done. Went to rebond and cut my hair. They are so not professional. Cut till my hairstyle is so ugly. Was so not satisfied. I still prefer E-layer. Think i'm going down to E-layer this weekend to trim abit especially my fringe. I swear i'm not going to Malaysia to cut my hair again!
Shop around city square. Watch Tropic thunder. The movie was so funny. Must watch! Bought some Dvds back. I don't know how Jian always manage to bring those Dvds out. Bought Cigarette too.
Went off at 9. It was so damn pack and crowded. Reminds me of a few months ago when I went back to Singapore alone when Jian didn't send me home. But Jian was with me this time round. Was so happy. He bring me to cut the queue. He was so pro in that. The person who was queueing behind was so angry and he purposely talk to his friend loudly saying we cut their queue. Jian pretend that he didn't hear and didn't bother to look at them. But I don't know how to do that. I'm not good at cutting queue. So I turn to look at them and smile. Haha. Their face was more piss off lor. Damn funny. I'm so evil.
Something interesting happen at the Woodlands checkpoint. While queueing to do the screening, someone step on a shit from don't know where. So the whole checkpoint was so damn smelly. The shit was on the floor everywhere. So everyone cover their nose. I keep on laughing and ask Jian to observe everyone cos they keep on looking at their shoes and leg while walking to make sure they didn't step on it.
Reach home at 10 plus.

There's no lesson today. Is not the teacher who cancel the lesson. Is the student who cancel it. They keep on telling Mr Bala cos we love him so much so we give him another day off so he can celebrate Deepavali. Mr Bala didn't want but they keep on insist. So lesson today was cancelled. Mr Bala was so funny when I confirm with him there's lesson today. He said "I didn't cancel the lesson, it's the student who cancel it."

Read Alene's blog. Still don't really know what happen. But quite interesting though. She was so cute when she sms and ask me to meet her on Monday to settle girls thing and she said cos need some ah-lianness. But I think I don't look like one now so I won't be able to help her even though i'm there. Alene look more like one than me. Hehe. I really wish to go on Monday too but too bad I really can't make it. Hope u understand babe. :) Tell me more about it when we meet again. Miss the gigglets so much.

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Thursday, October 23, 20081:48 PM

It's lunch time! Everyone went for lunch except me. The place that they are going doesn't sell anything I can eat. So I rather stay in the office and rest. I am so hungry cos I didn't have my breakfast and lunch today.

Went for movie with Jian yesterday. Watch Connected. Quite a nice movie. The mood was not right yesterday. Both of us didn't talk much till he said out why he was moody. But we were ok during the movie. Received a sms from Ed. Jian wasn't happy initially. After that he told me Ed purposely wants to make us quarrel to spoil our day. So Jian purposely doesn't want to get angry to let that sms affect us. So he continue to treat me even better. Haha. Recently Jian is getting sweeter and sweeter and he already planned everything. We are going to night safari somewhere this week. Either Sat, Sun or Mon. And he already plan with his colleague to go for Ktv this week too. Somemore the KTV they are going is somewhere "not clean" that's why he said he purposely wants to bring me there so that no girls will touch him this time. So sweet of him by not fooling around. :) Love him so much.

I can't sleep well yesterday night cos Ed keep on smsing me. And my sms alert will keep on ringing and ringing if I ignore. Piss me off.
Wonder was he trying to provoke me. I didn't want to reply cos I was sleeping, and also cos I don't want to receive another sms from some unknown number and ask me not to disturb. In the first place who is the one who start sending sms? I was not the one. Should I feel proud cos maybe I am hotter or something in me that attracts him so much that he can't stop thinking of me and she don't? That's why he still sms me when he is with her? Don't need to get so jealous lah! I know i'm hot. And please, if he is the one who starts smsing me, then don't go and tell people I am disturbing him or what and pass my number to someone who is a stranger to me and ask me not to disturb. Such a bastard to not allow me to msg her when my sms to her is something nice but allow her to msg me when her sms to me is something not very nice. Hate me also don't need to do that. I can't believe people who are already over 20 still doesn't know how to grow up and play this kind of things. Oh ya, I forgot. Cos they don't have a life. People who don't work and only know how to have fun playing everynight. To think I am still so nice to remind him the DOs and DONTs when he told me she is going over yesterday night. It doesn't pay to be kind.

Alright, enough of the unhappy thing!

Woke up late today. When mummy wake me up, it was already 7.30. Luckily I still managed to reach on time to see Jian.

Maybe i'm going to Jian's place to stay over tomorrow night cos he said his boss had went overseas so I can wake up late on Saturday. But Da Jie told me she is playing mahjong at her hall. Feel like going to find Da Jie also. So can't make a decision yet. And maybe movie with Nick. Everything still not confirm.

Mike msg me in msn yesterday. He said he saw me at mac on tuesday and said i'm very dao never even say hi to him. But I didn't notice he was there also. Then he said he saw Jian and he thinks that Jian not suitable for me saying he won't give me good life. I hate rich people cos they are so arrogant. As long as I am happy with whoever I want, I don't care whether they are rich or not. 一起吃苦的幸福! As if I can't work hard and earn money for myself.

Triume is closing down soon. I hope it really close so that it can lighten up my work and I only need to handle DNK. I am so mean. Haha. Where got people pray for their company to close down. Think only me.

Lesson again later. Yawnz. Guess i'm going to take my PDL first before going to lesson. Since I didn't go for lunch today, I am going to leave office early.

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Wednesday, October 22, 200811:04 AM

MY BF IS THE BEST!

Yesterday I finally realised that. Took quite sometime for me to realise but I think it is still not too late.
My previous post stated that I am very piss right? But when I open my office door and walk out, he was standing outside waiting for me. Haha. So surprise and happy! Luckily I can control my temper well, so when he told me he can't send me to school though I was so piss, I didn't give any attitude or throw temper at him if not I would have spoil everything. :)

And and and, after he send me home yesterday night, my elder sis told me she went drinking alone. At that moment, I thought of asking Ed to help, but he was having fun outside and he doesn't want to help. Piss and angry for 5 sec, I call jian and he agree immediately. I really thank him a lot. So he went down to Vic to find da jie. I was so touch when he was so tired and having his leg injured, he still went down to look after da jie for me so that I can sleep well at night.

Secondly, Su, the waitress there, nearly get me into trouble. Cos she overheard Jian's conversation with Da Jia and she heard my name, so she was asking them, "oh, u all know shu yi?" And she still asked them whether they know Ed and said he is my bf, bla bla bla. Jian suddenly called me to clarify things with me, really shocked me and I was so afraid I will lose him during that moment. That was when I know I can't afford to lose him. But I don't need to explain much, I just told jian we are really over and he choose to believe me than Su, though I know actually there are still things I am hiding from him. Things like, going to Vic with Ed and getting so close to him just not long ago. Afterall, that was already a past tense. I swear I won't ever do it again. Then Jian drop me a sms and ask me not to worry cos he believe and trust me cos that is love. I was so touch that he really appreciate and trust me so much. I was so happy that I didn't give my love to a wrong person. I gave it to someone who trust me and someone who don't find me wild and cheapo when he know about my past.

I was so happy that I couldn't get to sleep. While lying on my bed, I keep on thinking about the past with Jian. Times when he hurt me and times when I hurt him. Times when he change so much just trying to get me back. It was really a 180 degree change and when he said change he really change without taking a long time.
I really regret the times when I lie and cheat on him cos of Ed. I find myself so bad and mean. But Jian still forgive me cos he said it was the past.
I have to thank Ed of cos, if not for him, Jian wouldn't change cos he doesn't have a competitor. He will still be the same old Jian with bad temper. Really all thanks to Ed. Thank u so much.

People who doesn't know what is happening and reading this post will think that I am so unfair to Ed. But no. I don't owe him anything cos he owe me much more than I owe him. Yes, he is Mr Nice guy to do everything for me like sending me to work and fetching me home wasting a lot of petrol. I appreciate it for everything he does but he doesn't know how to appreciate things I have done for him. Things like, feeling so tired and cause me to have headache cos of him. Going to work feeling tired and screw up all my work which cause my boss was so disappointed with me. Accompanied him even when i'm fucking tired and sacrificing my beauty sleep to go to his house to accompany him, cook for him and I still have to act so decent in front of his parents to please them so that they will like me. I even behave like a super good housewife when I went to his grandma house and clearing up everything that we eat when nobody was doing that cos they have a maid and never once I have done that at my own house unless my mum force me to. But still, i'm doing it so that I can please his parents. Somemore sticking to him like a super glue and neglecting my times with friends and family, only go drinking with him and try not to get myself drunk to prove him something but people does not appreciate and even accused me of cheating on him. What does this show? All that i've done for him is fake? What does he have? He is not handsome, even though he got a car, so? He is not very rich either. I can find someone richer if I really wants money, he wont even be in the list. Somemore he is jobless now, having no life everyday except having fun outside. Zq always said I don't deserve him but he don't know anything. What does he know? He only listen to one sided story so what he said is not reliable.
Only a loser will asked his friend to sms me when he can't take it. I bet yesterday night he should be acting pitiful cos there are girls around, that's why don't know which of his friend sms me and ask me not to disturb him. It's my phone, it's my hand, I am free to do anything I want. Who are u to me that I have to listen to u? I didn't sms him after that was not because I listen to his friend, it was because I was so tired as it was already 2am and I don't want to spoil my happy day too. I want to go to bed smiling and have a sweet dreams.

Yessterday I really realised I have to let him go. On Sunday when Jian was still jealous about me keeping Ed's sms and photo in my phone, he took it and I thought he was going to delete it. I teared. I know Jian will feel damn hurt for sure cos he saw me tearing when I thought he wanted to delete Ed's sms. After thinking of it yesterday night, I feel so bad to Jian. So I took my phone and deleted all Ed's sms and pictures and I don't even feel anything at all. I read all the msgs again for the last time before I delete it and I find it all bullshitting. Guys are jerk who always bullshit. Only Jian won't cos he is a man. Man don't bullshit. Haha.
I saw his msn contact is still under the group name "beloved dar". So I move his contact under "friends" and deleted the group name "beloved dar" too.
The only things that I didn't delete is the recording Ed send to me. I kept it cos I want to remind myself not to fall for such guys again and I want to remind myself that is how he hurt me and he still owe me and also to remind myself not to go back to him anymore.
In his eyes, i'm still the wild and cheapo girl. Since he always think of me like that and said how good the girl is, then go for her lah. Don't need to be so proud of it. I'm not surprise girls will like u. Good for her then, cos I am the victim who get the hurt and make him learn how to treat her gf good next time. I am also a victim to get so much pressure from his family side and now his family doesn't care about the standard of his gf anymore. So the next gf doesn't need to act so well like me. So this is what Ed owe me. Cos this is what i've done for him but didn't get appreciated in the end. What he owe me he can never pay me back even if he jump into the yellow river.
Some people are just so proud and arrogant thinking that he is the only one who can help me just because he got a car. But sad to say I still got my Wen Jian Laogong. Even there's no him, I got no lack of friends and suitors. What makes him think that only him can give me the best? He is not a superman or god. He is only a human and he got no supernatural power. So everyone is equal. Don't need to be so arrogant cos I can do what he can do. I don't need to rely on him. So what he got a car? Is not as if I got no money to take cab if there's emergency. I don't need his help at all.

yes, he don't have to help me cos he said he is afraid the feelings will come back again and he won't standby for me 24 hour. I don't need to. He wants me to have a taste of how he have felt before. He can but not when someone might be in danger. Not funny to play with. If want to let me have a taste of it, at least on other things. But sad to tell him I will never have a taste of it cos I got tonnes of friends and people who are willing to help me and be with me when I need someone. Cos I socialize around, I don't sit in a corner keeping quiet. I got lots of friends. Maybe he don't. Yes, I ignore him when he was sad. But tell me how to show concern for a person when u have decided to end everything and he still insist of having u back. The more u concern the more he will think he still got a chance right? That was all for his own good. When he have thought it over, didn't I still meet him, replying his sms and went out with him? Selfish minded will always be selfish minded. Leopard will never change it's spot. Guys are so petty nowadays.

I got no lack of friends, I bet I got more friends than him. So it is nothing to me even if I lost one like him. I don't need someone who is so arrogant and only want advantage or motive when he helps me.

Once again, thank u my dear Edric for waking me up and realised everything. I made up my mind, I only have jian and he is the only one for me doing anything for me without complain. He loves me so he loves my family too. Money and cars can't buy happiness. I am happy and contented now with him. The most important thing is to be happy.

Suddenly thought of a song when I was chatting with er jie in msn during the time I went back to Jian. Er jie said if I choose Jian I have no car to sit anymore and I sang this to her:
"Cos if I got jian, I don't need money, I don't need car, Jian u are my all! and oh........."

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Tuesday, October 21, 20085:09 PM

Super piss!

Thought his job site will be at raffles place and he will send me to school but end up he said meet at Woodlands cos he still got another job site there.

Argh!

Yesterday also the same.

Why is it always work work work?

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Monday, October 20, 20084:31 PM

Chalet on Friday was still ok cos I thought it will somehow be boring cos I don't know anybody there except for Jian and Hua. Reach there around 8 plus and there were only hua and 2 of his friend. We were too early I guess. Not long after all his friend came. His relative then came too. Sat there and watch tv. Didn't know Francis was there too. He brought his wife along. She was 8 months pregnant. Hua's mother is super friendly and funny. How I wish my mum character will somehow be abit like her. :) All of us had fun talking with his mum when Hua was not there.
Left at 1am and Francis sent me home. Save my cab fare. Haha.
Hate the way Francis show off his driving skills when his wife was already 8 months pregnant and sitting in the car. So dangerous.

Woke up at 10 plus on Saturday. Had my breakfast and get my nail polish done. Watch abit of Tv shows and I went to sleep again. Woke up at 4 plus by a sms and I decide to get myself prepare since i'm already up.
Took me 2 hours to get myself prepared. Grandma said I am super vain and nagging here and there. I wish to get myself done asap so that I can get out from the house. Can't stand her! And I gave her 50 bucks again. Argh!
Went out at 6 plus and meet Jian at Jurong East MRT station and his colleague pick me up from there.
Reach his Aranda Country Club at 9pm. Quite fun though. While his boss was playing cards, I walk over to see. The "Zhuang" keep on winning, but when I stand behind him he keep on losing and the rest keep on winning. So they ask me to stand there then the zhuang give me a black face in a joking manner. Then the Zhuang ask me to place a bet on anyone so I place a bet on jian's boss but ended up we lose. No luck. Jian then came over cos we are going back to Hua's chalet. Talked and chat with his colleague for awhile and we went off.
cab to east coast park. There were more people on Saturday. I had fun there. Hua was drunk when we were there. End up he can't even stand up after 5 mins. Then Jian carry him back to the chalet and everyone was laughing and making fun cos it was hell damn funny. It was so gay.
We sat down to joke and chat and I had fun. Those people were funny people. Then I saw bicycle and I told Jian I didn't cycle for very long time and I cycle for 1 round but I can't balance myself. Jian was so worried that I may fall anytime and I saw him still standing at the exact place to look for me to see whether I am back safe but I came back from his back cos I can't cycle and decided to make a U-turn.
Then Jian cycle me out instead. So sweet. Never even once someone had cycle me like that in a park. Then Francis's brother came out to look for us and we cycle together. Quite fun but my butt hurts. Cycle back and we had our chit chatting again.
Slept at 4 plus. Was so tired.

Er jie was so annoying that she called me at 8 in the morning.
Went back to Jian's place and I continue my sleep. Was suppose to meet Shi Ying but cos it was Jeremy birthday so I cancelled my meeting with Shi Ying. Jeremy came to pick me up at 6 from Jian's place and we went for durian at Geylang.
His driving skills is erm............ not very good. Haha. And he bump into the car infront when doing parallel parking so we drive off and decided not to park in case the owner ask us to compensate. So bad of us. Haha.
Went to my office and asked Jian to go and buy a cake. Then er jie asked Jeremy to go to his car to take her eyes solution for her and Jian came up. We light up the candles and when he came back we switch off the light and sang birthday song to him.

This morning was not feeling well cos my gastric was so pain. So I msg Ken and told him I will go to work slightly later. Went to work at 11 plus and it was raining heavily. Still not feeling well now. Yawnz.

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Friday, October 17, 20083:04 PM

Vic on wednesday was fun though there was some part I was quite piss, overall I enjoyed myself.

Went there quite early ard 5 plus with Edric and XP. Free flow beer from 6-8pm but I didn't drink much cos I don't really like beer. There was free buffet but I can't eat.

Kor came around 6 plus to fetch me to Raffles place to transfer the prepaid card money to a new prepaid card. He was so damn irritating but funny. He keep on asking the sales person question then he said why like this why like that. Can see the man was quite irritated but he still smile to us.
So long didn't meet kor but Yue Ping was with him. So he couldn't join me.

Went back to Vic near to 8, so the free flow was going to be over soon. Er jie and Zq reach not long after. Edric open another bottle of martell. So nice of him. So while waiting for our martell, I ask Andrew whether he can lend me his martell anot. Lol. He a bit crazy cos he pour half glass to me, so I pour to er jie then he refill it to half glass again. It was so thick that I can't take it.
Sang nan ren nu ren with William again for the 2nd time. Haha. They went to Zouk after that and I feel like joining but sis and Ed was there. I think I will join if they were not there cos it is a ladies night.
My "cute" guy was there but he don't look cute that day. He wear until sooooo...... which I don't know how to describe.
Saw the Matthew that approached me last time. He said it was his friends birthday so I walked over to say Happy Birthday to her. Play games with them for awhile and I walk back to my own table.
Uncle Jeff become my daddy cos he asked me to call him daddy instead. Then when I called him daddy he said must add a sugar in front. Lol.
I always like to drink with Ken cos I get to joke and play with him unlike in the office when we don't even talk unless there's something about work that he have to tell me or I have to tell him.
Share a bit of my secrets with him too.
Ben came when er jie and zq was quarreling, so I asked Ben to console her and I tease them a bit so that er jie will laugh. Don't know what's their problem and I don't want to know also. They always stick together like super glue and I was quite happy when they quarrel though. I'm not mean la, but just hate it when both of them behave like they are living in their own world.
Er jie and Zq wanted to leave but I told them i'm not going off yet then Zq keep on rushing me to go off but I refused. Well, they are not the one who drive so I think I shouldn't listen to them cos I didn't owe them anything, so I don't have to leave when I don't feel like leaving when I always did that in the past when they always ask me to hurry cos they are tired I will just leave. Now I won't. I think I have my own rights and freedom to do what I want and not being control by people. So they took a cab home.

I was drunk and vomitted again. This time the feeling was so sucks. Cos I vomitted again in Edric's car. But I got prepare plastic bag so I didn't throw up and mess his car. Haha. I am responsible right?
Hangover. cos when I woke up the next day I still feel so giddy and headache but still have to force myself to work. Overall I still enjoyed myself.

This morning mummy's worker send me to sengkang and I was bloody late for work. When I reach sengkang I couldn't get a cab. So I called Edric and asked him to pick me up. While waiting for him, I went to compass point to shop for awhile. Most of the shop were still closed. Bought 2 fake lashes as mine has spoiled and bought a box of ferrero rocher for Edric. He was so nice to pick me up from sengkang to office. Thanks Edric. He is always my Mr Nice guy. So I was pai sei to ask him to fetch me here and there. Cost me $25.90. More expensive than cab fare. Lol. Got to save up. 2 more weeks to pay day. Really fast cos I didn't spend much this month and normally at this time my bank won't have this much. Congrats to myself. I don't know why cos I still thought I bought a lot of stuff this month compare to last month.

Nick had returned the money today. Like finally after so long. But still short of 100 bucks. At least he return something is better than nothing.

Nothing much to do. I did a mistake again and Ken called to say me this morning. Yawnz. I am always so blur la. Haha.

Chalet tonight. I hope it will be fun. It's friday again. Hurray! But this week is a chalet week. I hope I can go party next friday. It has been a long time that I go club and when I heard Edric and Xp talking about going clubbing tonight I was so envious. It's ok, I still get to enjoy myself today at the chalet today and tomorrow as it will be 2 different chalet.

It is Edric last day of work in Ascend today. Don't know why that time when he told me it's his last day I felt a bit sad though. Maybe there was some memories with him in Ascend that's why I felt sad luh. Haha. That is where we first met and know each other too. Memories of how we get close and the times when I move back to my own office, the lunch we had, times when I go to his office to wait for him after my work and times he come over to fetch me. Anyway, Ascend office is moving soon. Gonna miss the old Ascend office. Hope he can find a good job and a good boss like my boss. All e best to him!

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Wednesday, October 15, 200810:03 AM

Didn't blog for so many days. So damn lazy to blog.

Anyway, Friday I was being put aeroplane by a friend. Supposed to meet her and she told me she's tired and lazy. Well so I went to Dempsey Hill with Edric and XP for a site survey. Had our dinner there. Saw Hoegaarden on the table when I came back from answering a call. Didn't drink that for so long. Somehow I miss it cos it reminds me of those good and relax days I had with him. However somehow it doesn't taste good to me anymore. So I didn't finish it.
Crap alot with XP. Hate him lah, always like to tease me.

Went to Vic after that. Er jie and Zq was already there. As usual, we had Martell cos that is the only thing that er jie drink I guess.
Had quite alot of fun and I drink drank drunk until I can't recall what happen.
Something quite piss me off that day cos after that I received a call and being put aeroplane by a friend, she call me and told me she's at somewhere near DXO. It seems like go out with me then tired and lazy, then can go out with other friends not tired. Amazing right?
Well, anyway, I saw my "cute" guy the moment I reach there. But Edric said he is not cute at all. Didn't manage to talk to him at first so we just smile at each other. So when me and Edric was smoking outside, the "cute" guy went out to smoke also, so I walked over and talk to him. Edric said they way I stand and talk to him is so flirt. :P This is just me!

Sang quite a number of songs with er jie. Edric told me I was already drunk and I sang the songs to him and said we were very close but I can't remember many things that happen. I only remember I keep playing with Sue so I drank quite fast. End up I vommitted. Yucks. But overall I enjoyed myself. It has been quite sometime since I enjoyed myself so much.

Saturday I didn't do anything much and didn't go anywhere. I stay at home and sleep for the whole day, attend class at night and went to meet Jian after class.

Woke up at 9am on Sunday and went for lesson. Lesson starts at 10.30am but I only reach at 11am. Talk alot to da jie cos we only get to see each other 1 day a week. Miss her so much.
Meet Jian after lesson and as usual went to his place. Basically that's what we do every Sunday.

Monday is also a normal day. Edric send me home after work so I don't need to take train. Went to causeway point to get my stuff and end up I bought quite a lot of cosmetics. Haha. Happy! Cos I didn't shop for a long time. Edric paid for it. Thanks!
Saw Chang Hao at causeway point.
Afterall I enjoyed myself that night cos it seems like me and Ed had gone back to our old times again. Well, but only friends la. Don't get the wrong idea. Been having lunch with him recently. No other intention. Just some normal lunch.

Lesson yesterday. Another boring lesson without Lynn and Vion and I have to tahan for 2 month to end this module before I will be in the same class with Lynn and Vion again. Miss them so much.

Saw Alene in the train today while going to work. So surprise that I saw her and she was shock too! Miss her so much and we gossip about someone. Haha. She is so mean but I love her "meanness" always never fail to make me laugh and we promise to go out next week.

Going to vic again tonight. Hurray! This week is going to be so fun.
Wed-vic
fri- hua's chalet at east coast
sat- another chalet at pasir ris with jian and his colleague
sun- meet up with shi ying

I'm so going to enjoy myself!

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Thursday, October 9, 200811:04 AM

Past few days were boring day. I just went to work and home. Yawnz.

Skipped lesson on Tuesday cos my contact lens hurt my eyes so much. Had lunch with Edric on tuesday. Haha. Surprising that I even want to meet him. But I guess meeting a friend for lunch is ok right?
Meet Jian after work and we went home to rest. Was lazy to cook, so we cook maggie mee to eat. He accompany me till mummy came back and he went home.

Wanted to go out on Wednesday but don't where to go and the contact lens make my eyes so ithcy. So I meet jian then we took train home. Alight at Kranji Mrt station to take 178. As it was still early, we went to the This Fashion to walk for awhile. Saw some nice dresses but I didn't buy cos I want to start saving now.
Went home and I was quite hungry. I open the fridge but there was nothing for me to cook. Cos it has been quite sometime that all of us went home to eat. So mummy didn't cook anymore. Somehow I missed my home cook food. Saw there was still abit of vegetables. So I asked Jian he mind eating rice with vegetables and fried french fries and he said ok. So I finish frying the fries and Jian said can add in the vegetable and cook with fries so can put in 1 dishes instead of 2 different plate. But I insist I don't want cos I never eat such dishes before, fries with vegetables? Ridiculous right? Then the fries will be soft and not cripsy. Then fried for what?
So Jian fry the vegetables when I want to. He said cos I never try his cooking before. Then I told him he also never try my cooking before what. He just pushed me away. So I sat on the chair while he do the cooking and he bloody add in the fries when I don't even like to mix it. He wants it his way and I want it my way. So we can't cook together in the future. Argh. Imagine when we get married and he cook his own dishes and I cook my own dishes and wait for each other to finish cooking so that we can have our own dinner together. Lame right.
We kept quiet during our dinner. Then he said next time he wont touch anything that got to do with kitchen. Well, so I jut treat the "soft fries" as potato mix with vegetables dish since fries is made of potato. Haha. Smart right? So overall it was not bad. :) Couples need to give in want right. I'm so forgiving! :Þ
Watch some DVDs that er jie bought and I went to bed 10pm. Thought he will come and sayang me to sleep like how he used to but end up he just lie down. haiz. Had a small arguement. Cried so much but end up both of us still give in to each other without quarrelling and we keep as calm as we can and talk over nicely which we promise to and he went home at 11 plus.

I also don't know whether I am still thinking too much that i'm not satisfied with him. He had already done quite a lot but i'm still not satisfied.

This morning I saw Vivien, one of my sec 2 classmate, msg me in wlny. Surprise. Didn't see her for don't know how many years already. And somehow I started to miss her. Haha. Sound as if I am very close with her like that. :Þ
But somehow we got abit close when she got kick out from school. Cos we still keep in contact sometimes and chat on phone. I remember the last time I saw her she was still in Siling Sec Sch doing her Ns or Os(can't remember) exactly the same year as me. But after I read her blog, she is working now and doing freelance modelling. Getting prettier and prettier with model height and good figure. Envy! So that means she is same as me. Did Os badly and so we came out to work. That is what I guess but I don't know whether it's true or not. :)
I still remember when she first transfer to our class, the group of girls don't like her including me for I don't know what reason. Think it was because we were still childish during that time. Then Miss Hesley(our form teacher) put her to sit behind me cos she is quite tall and that's when I started to be slightly close to her and I never dislike her anymore. Thinking of those childish stuff I did when I was in sec sch. So funny. Hate this person and that and said he/she very guai lan when they didn't even offend me. But now I never hate them anymore. If they don't mind, I also can be their good friends. :Þ

Tomorrow is friday! Wanted to ask er jie and her colleague to go out but she said zq is free. Argh! So fucking bored. I didn't play or drink for last week already leh. I hope this week won't be the same.

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Monday, October 6, 20081:41 PM

A not very fun weekend.

Friday after work, wait for Jian to finish work. He finish work quite late. So we have no idea where to go. I was super hungry when he came back so we went to the place near my office to had our dinner. Didn't go there for quite sometime. Miss the food there.
After dinner, went to his place to slack awhile, then went to Boat Quay to sit down for a chat. I still love the atmosphere there. Went off around 11 and reach home around 1. Super tired.

Went to visit doctor on Saturda morning with grandma cos of my eyes. The doctor poke some needle in and squeeze it out. Super painful and my tears keep on rolling down but the doctor keep on joking and making me laugh. Lol. A very nice and humorous doctor.

Went home to sleep after that. Woke up at 5 plus to get myself ready. Since finally my eyes has heal, I am super happy and excited and put make up. :) but still abit painful.
Went to vivocity with jian. Da jia then call me and ask me whether I want to go double O but Kor told me need 21 to enter. So I drop the idea. Haiz. THought I could go club after for so long. Disappointed. Then Kor ask me whether I want to go and join his subaru club to go for car race but cannot bring jian go cos it will be too heavy for the car to race. So I drop the idea too. I so so much want to play on that day. Sad sad saturday night. Suppose to go drinking with er jie and her colleagues cos she said her bf was not free and I was super happy to know thtat her bf was not free and give up the thought to meet jian on saturday then suddenly she said her bf wants to join and said he is free already then I told her it'd cancel then. So I went to meet Jian instead. Haiz. What a sad saturday to not go for party or playing. I totally never drink for last week. So Jian went to 7 eleven to buy 2 bottles of bacardi for me to drink. Reach home at 1 plus and da jie was not home yet. So envious that she went clubbing and I couldn't tag along. 1 yr and 3 months more before I reach 21. Quick quick. Time past faster can?

Sunday woke up super early for lesson at 10.30pm. I was late. But when I reach the class, I didn't see Vion and Lynn. So I sms them and they said they will be late. Not many people turn up. Think it is too early and who will want to attend class on Sunday? Super tired throughout the whole lesson so I can't really concentrate.
Jian came to fetch me after lesson and went to his place. Went to KFC with his colleague. Then they wanted to go to suntec for car show. I was too tired to go so I didn't go and slept immediately I reach his place. Woke up and watch dvd. So I spend the whole day at his place. Help him to squeeze his blackhead and clean his face so he can have nice complextion. So nice of me. Haha. Then his colleague all came back. Play and joke with him a little and home sweet home. Took a cab home as it was quite late. Super tired.

So basically that's how I spend my weekend. So wasted. I got my pay today. So I should go and have fun this weekend. I don't care. Clubbing, drinking, anyone? Drop me a msg. Thanks.

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