Kidnap my heart.

Friday, November 28, 20083:40 PM

It's finally friday. I am always so looking forward to this day cos I don't need to work on the next day.

Yesterday lesson was ok. Revision again. Mr Bala having PMS. He was in a bad mood yesterday. Had a nice talk with Ms Denise. She was encouraging me to take my level 2 again.

Meet Yan they all after lesson. Had fun crapping and joking with them especially Alan. He keep on bullying me lah. So bad.

Kor came to office this morning again. He said Raymond recently having PMS. Keep on scolding people. Lol.

Had lunch with Edric today. He also seems like he is having PMS. Guys are more petty than girls nowadays lah. (: Cheer up pls!

PMS are usually meant for girls only. Guys can't have PMS lah. Lol.

Saw SK while going to work today. Couldn't recognize him. Then we keep on looking at each other till he talks to me. He seems quite sad too.

I hope I can go out tomorrow with my friends. Hope that Jian allow. :)

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Thursday, November 27, 20083:41 PM

Yesterday was quite a happy day! :) Jian called me at 3.30pm and said he got nothing else to do so maybe he will end work early and ask me to think of where to go. I was quite happy cos he seldom finish work so early. Then I thought of going to Kallang leisure park since he never go there before. But I was thinking it is so not convenient to go there cos is not near to any mrt station. So I went to check on which bus to go and the time for shuttle bus. End up he called and said he will come back late cos his colleague wants to go somewhere to take things. I was quite disappointed but being a reasonable gf, I never get angry. :)
5 mins later, jian called me again and ask me don't get so disappointed and he told me he didn't accompany his collegue to the other site. He is on the way back and he ask me to get ready. :) I was so happy lah! Went there to walk walk, had our dinner and catch a movie. I fell asleep during the movie. It was too boring.
Left the place at 10 and home sweet home.

Today is such a good day at work. Why? Cos I didn't do anything. *clap clap*. Gyan didn't come to office today and I was all alone cos nobody came back. Except for Raymond who comes in the morning for half an hour. Kor kor is working with Raymond now. I hope he can really work and stable down. So kor came to office in the morning too. Miss him so much. I ask him to give me a treat when he got his first pay. :)

Watching show since morning and I did something different today. I went to lunch alone! I took train to Aljunied to drop my cheque and went for lunch. I didn't realise I can eat so fast when i'm alone. When the food is serve to me, it was 1.30pm. I finish it in 10 mins. OMG!. That was so fast lah. They gave me seaweed soup today. So nice! I love it. Went to shop around this fashion after my lunch cos I don't feel like going back to office so early. Nothing caught my eyes. So I went back to office to continue my show.
Saw Edric's message when I came back. Don't feel like talking about him. Guys are so petty nowadays. :Þ
Soon he will be so sick of me, and starting his new job in another company will let him have lesser time to think of me which is also a good thing. Maybe cos he is jobless for 1 month plus and always staying at home make him so bored that he became so moody everytime over minor problems. Hope on 1st Dec he will change for the better. :) There are so many things for me to say, but I know I am nobody to say so I better just shut my mouth and keep everything to myself.

Well, there's company dinner tonight but I got lesson. Thought of skipping lesson but I find it not worth it since I can't eat anything even if I attend. So what's the point? I rather go for my lesson and i'm meeting yan they all after lesson. It is so much more interesting.

Anyway, the dress that I bought online had arrived! So happy lah. Finally!

Planning to have my off day on Saturday this week. Saturday off is more worth it cos I don't need to work so I got the whole day to plan where to go. Hope all my friends are available for me so I can call whoever I want to go out. Haha.

Can't wait for cousin to come on next weekend.

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Tuesday, November 25, 20085:31 PM

Received a call from daddy in the afternoon during work. He doesn't sound right. He even ask me whether i'm busy. Thought something happen to him. Then he suddenly ask me about mummy and her colleague. wtf. I didn't said anything then daddy keep on kbkb about the colleague coming to fetch mummy every day and send her home. Nagging here and there. I wanted to tell daddy that mummy got the rights to do so. Both of them are divorce. Why have to keep on torturing and let mummy suffer? I find mummy pitiful. I am so heartpain for her. Daddy then ask me to call mummy and ask her where is she now and call him back. So I called mummy to tell her everything. I was so damn sad. Then mummy ask me not to care about daddy. haiz. I wish mummy will have a good life one day. If only i earn 6k a month, I will move out from the house and take mummy away from this home. A home where nobody wants to go. Even when I was young, I hate going home. Cos everytime I went home, it will be full of nagging by grandma or daddy. Sometimes mummy cos she was too piss that she vent her anger on me. But I understand mummy feelings only when I grow older.
The world is never fair.
I really wish I can hate my daddy sometimes but I can't bear to do it. Everytime when I hate him, sweat and curse him, I will feel bad after 1 or 2 days later and treat him good again. Can I be more hard hearted? I really wish to bring mummy and move out, but I still will feel sad leaving daddy. Why can't I grow up in a normal family with both parents? I don't mind single parents, but at least a peaceful one like some of my friends does. Even though they grow up from single parents, at least the dad or mum doesn't create problem to the family. Since already divorce, what for creating so much nuisance? I can't stand it.
And why am I always the one to settle all this? Everytime my parents quarrel, my grandma unhappy with mum, sis or dad, or sis quarrel they always vent their anger or complain to me. I am always the middle person to help them pass message or whatever.

I wish to move out someday but I love my family.

So unusual for me to blog about personal stuff. For the first time, I blog it down. I just can't take it anymore.

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Monday, November 24, 20082:42 PM

Vic on friday. Edric came to fetch me and we went to admiralty to collect my result. Damn it! I couldn't make it for level 2. Really don't feel like retaking. Anyway Linda and one of Siti's friend also couldn't make it. At least makes me feel much more better to bluff myself that the paper was difficult that's why I cannot make it. :)
Meet Gui Qing at Causeway point and we had our dinner at pastamania. Went to vic after dinner. Jeremy and his friends were not there yet. Vomitted again. I was so awake after vomitting but we finished the drink. So pek chek when no one wants to open another bottle and I didn't had enough to drink. So I walk here and there talking to people and complaining to mummy about it. Then mummy ask me not to bring them here next time. :)
Then XL and jeremy came over and said they are ok to share another bottle. :) I think if I didn't give that buay song face, they won't want to open. Well, but at least they still know how to "zi dong" not bad not bad. :)
Ben keep on flirting with Gui Qing. It was so funny. At least that entertain me a bit. Overall it was still ok la. I enjoyed myself.
Went off at 1 plus and Edric send me and Gui Qing home. I miss those friday when we go vic. :) But I find vic getting more and more boring. Should find some interesting place soon.
Anyway, Edric called and talk to me while I was on my way up to my house. So sweet!
I reach home at 2 on the dot. So I immediately call jian so that he wont give me anymore curfew this week.

Woke up quite early on Saturday at 11. Was tired and lazy to go out since mummy make breakfast. So I lie on the bed and watch Dvd for the whole afternoon till 6. I can't stop watching. So nice lah. Till I don't feel like going out but it was time to meet jian. So I watch while bathing too. Too addicted to the show. Lol. Went out at 6 plus and meet er jie, jeremy and Jian at AMK hub. Er Jie already bought the movie tickets for Beverly Hills chihuahua at 9.10. So we went to have our dinner, walk walk to wait for the time to past. Finally it's 9.10pm and we proceed to the cinema to catch the movie. Not bad show. Some parts are funny, but some parts are boring.
Cab home after movie. Er jie was saying so bored and go home so early on a Saturday night. I agreed but we can't go anywhere cos she got curfew from zq too. Same as me. We are 2 pathetic cinderalla.
Anyway, Dennis called er jie and he said he was somewhere near our block. Er jie asked me to accompany her to meet Dennis but I didn't want. So awkward to see him and I don't have anything to say to him. Luckily I slept early cos he came up at 12 plus. So I didn't see him.

I woke up at 8 plus on Sunday. I slack around cos I don't feel like going out so early. Cab to Jian's place at 12 plus but he haven't wake up. So I went to buy some breakfast for him. Waited and waited after hours and I was so damn pek chek and piss. So I called him for the last time and he didn't answer. I drop him a sms saying i'm leaving. And finally he woke up and he called me but I told him I had already left. Threw the breakfast outside his door and I walk off. He came chasing after me but he shouted at me on the phone. I was so piss la. He was the one at fault but still shouted at me. I saw him chasing and I stood there and walk over. Maybe cos of guilt, he hold my hand, talk to me nicely and ask me whether i'm hungry. I just nod my head or shake my head or keep quiet. Just too angry to say anything.
When I reach his place I just kept quiet all the way and continue to watch my Dvd. He didn't say anything cos he know my pattern and temper. I watch till halfway then I told him i'm hungry and he cook maggi mee for me to eat. I saw him picking up the breakfast on the floor outside his door and I felt so bad that he eat that. But if he didn't let me wait for hours outside, he wouldn't have to eat something that is being throw on the floor. :)
After the lunch I feel better I started talking to him and we were ok cos I didn't mention about anything earlier on. I am not so petty. :P
Was so tired and I slept from evening till 9 plus. Woke up, talk to him and went off at 10 plus for dinner and cab home.

Edric didn't had lunch with me today cos he went to JB. It's ok. Cos somehow I miss the food at the coffeeshop. :)

A boring monday. I can't wait for the weekend to come. Haha.

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Friday, November 21, 20084:18 PM

It's friday! I love friday.

I had a happy day yesterday. Went to lunch with Edric at Aljunied. Finally a different place for lunch. Was so sick of the usual place we go for lunch. The food there was not bad. :) At least it is something different.

Jian finish work early yesterday and he called me said he will finish work early and can send me to lesson. I was happy. We left at 5 plus but I was late for lesson.

Lesson yesterday was quite ok. Doing revision again. Was so hungry and I sms Jian and told him I am hungry. So he went to buy food for me and I ran down to mac during break time. We manage to finish 2 packet of fries in 10 mins. Pro right? I ran back to lesson after that and Mr Bala asked me next time don't take extra 5 mins for break. :P
Had fun in lesson. Mr Bala class is always interesting and fun. But I find it more fun when Lynn & Vion are around. I miss them so much.

After lesson I went down to mac to find jian. Yan was there with a big group. Talk to yan and then talk to her friends, and I realised I make so many friends suddenly. A big group occupying 5 tables there. Had so much fun with them. One of the guy are such a joker.

Left the place at 10 plus and we took a cab home cos was rushing home to find mummy. Jian had an appointment with mummy to rub her leg cos mummy sprain her ankle. So jian went to my house to help rubbing mummy's ankle so that she will feel better. So sweet lah. After that I asked him to help me rub also. :)
Jian went home and I fell asleep.

Anyway, I bought my W890i yesterday! I suddenly love that phone so much when I use it.
This morning Jian's colleague saw my new hp and he gave me the shocking look. :) cos I bought 2 handphone in a month. Then he said jian very ke lian. hehe. Anyway, I paid on my own for the W890i. Jian only pay abit for me. :)

It's friday today. Finally i'm going to drink again. :) Didn't drink for this week. Meeting Gui Qing later for dinner and then to Vic with Edric, Jeremy and his friends.

I love friday!

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Monday, November 17, 20089:53 AM

This weekend was a bit different for me. I didn't go drinking on a friday or saturday night. It is a bf weekend cos I spent all 3 days with him.

After work on friday, I meet Jian and we wanted to go shopping. When we were about to go my gastric was so painful that we decided not to go. So we went to his place and I slept there till 10 plus and I cab home. Was so tired but we had an arguement that night. I cry to sleep.

Saturday morning I was waken up by a phone call. Jian called me at 9am and he confirm that he was not working. So he woke me up, ask me to get prepare and we went for breakfast. Wanted to ask mummy's colleague to send to woodlands but he was late. So I reach causeway point at 11.10am. Was late so there was no more breakfast at delifrance. Sian and don't feel like eating so we went to long john instead. Talking about getting a new hp cos Jian said he will buy one for me. After thinking for quite some time, I decided to change my M1 broadband to a voiceplan since I never use the broadband and it will be wasting my money. We went home to take the device and then we headed to IMM to return it. I bought a new hp. C905! My dream phone! Was waiting for that phone to come out for a few months and I finally got it! Cost me $598 with 2 years contract. I cannot afford the no contract cos it is $900++. Have to clear the $100 bills for broadband. Then $20 for lost cable, $20 for downgrade, $20 for dunno wat. Piang. Really broke this month. Can't wait for my next pay. Jian paid $200 for me for the phone. I called mummy and ask her whether she is in the office and she said she was on her way back so I told her i'm at IMM. Asked her to pay $200 for my phone and she agree. I was so happy cos I thought the chances was very low. So I only have to pay $200 myself. So happy! Jian didn't want to buy that for me initially cos he said I am very careless and always lost my things. So he said even if I get such a good phone I won't take care of it. Then had an arguement while waiting for my turn. I thought of not buying it anymore since both of us were not happy. I walk off and cried. He came to me and we argue. After awhile when both of us has cool down he bring me to M1 and bought it for me. Was happy and we were ok. Find mummy and he return jian the $200 for my phone. Mummy is so nice and I love her to the max. :)
went to giant to buy some grocery and went back to jian place to put down the things and rest there. Watch Dvd. Test the new phone. Then we keep on camwhoring with it cos it is 8.1 megapixel. his colleague were so envious. :)
Went off at 11pm this time to avoid the midnight charge for the cab fare. I wanted to take train instead cos I didn't want to go home so early on a Saturday night. So not used to it. Normally I will be at somewhere drinking. But Jian gave me money to cab home.
Didn't feel like sleeping cos I feel like going out. This Saturday feel different cos I went out in the day and home early. I seldom went out during the day on Saturday and I felt that I was going to melt anytime when I was out in the Sun. The weather was so fucking hot and I was super tired during the day.
Called Edric and chatted with him while watching Dvd. Chatted till 1 plus and I told him i'm going to sleep cos I feel abit tired. But when I hang the phone I can't stop watching the Dvd and continue 1 after another. Wanted to call Edric back to chat but then I was too engross in the show that I forgot to call and watch it till I fell asleep at around 3 plus 4.

Woke up at 9am on Sunday again and wake Jian up. A different Sunday cos normally I will be at his place on a Sunday but we went to Jurong Bird Park instead. He reach at 11 and we meet hua at market for breakfast. The weather was so hot that I can't stand it. I took a bus to the market even though it was just a 5-8 mins walk. Can u imagine how hot the weather is?
Had our breakfast, chit chatted and we went off at 1 and cab there. Not many people. Think everyone must have gone to the zoo to see the white tiger. :Þ
Took some photo, walk around, watch the bird show and went off at 4pm. The parrot is so cute. She can sing!
Went to jurong point after that. I was so damn tired by the time cos I use up all my energy walking in the bird park. Normally I will be sleeping at his place this time. And I sweat like hell. So sticky and I feel like having a shower. Had our lunch and I suggested we go home to rest. But he said he feel like watching movie cos he wants to enjoy the air con and rest. I wanted to watch Sing to the dawn. I know it is too kiddy but I love that story since young. Jian doesn't want to watch cos he said it is too kiddy for him. Decided to watch Madagascar. Went to the counter and I said 5.30pm show. Jian said cannot get a good seats so he bought 7pm instead. My face was so sian and black when I heard that cos I wanted to get home asap. Then I signed with my OCBC card cos got $4 off. When I hold the pen, I hold it upside down and sign. Jian laughed at me and I told him I am really tired. When we wanted to go the escalator, I went to the down side when we wanted to go up. He laugh at me again. So blur la. I really used up all my energy.
Went to the arcade and watch him play. Felt like sleeping when I sat down. So we went to shop around to keep me awake. Had fun cos he keep on entertaining me so that I won't sleep.
Finally it's 7pm. Was so happy. I fell asleep halfway during the movie while everyone was laughing at the show. I didn't have the energy to laugh anymore. I slept for abt 10 mins of the show. Still ok la. I manage to keep m eyes open. Haha.
Overall the movie was nice. Funny show. Anyway, i'm watching it one more time for my sister's company movie outing. So it doesn't matter whether I miss some part of the show. We only pay 5 bucks for the ticket cos it is a company thing.
Went home after the movie and reach home at 10pm. I was so tired but after I showered I feel awake again. Haha. So I watch Dvd till 11.30 and went to sleep. Wanted to call Edric but I don't have the energy to talk.

Jian couldn't wake up today to fetch me to work. I woke up at 6 plus and went over there for breakfast with him. I'm so tired now. I can't stand taking the train anymore. I hate those kiasu people la. Snatch my seats from me. Argh!

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Friday, November 14, 20083:32 PM

Dragonfly on Wednesday. Went there to celebrate Edric's birthday. Reach there at 10 plus. Think one of the singer was Sylvester if I don't remember wrongly. So handsome la! First time see him in real person. At least there was something entertaining me cos I felt quite bored at that time.
Edric was so drunk before 12. AND HE VOMITTED ON ME! Can u all imagine how disgusting izzit? He just vomitted like that without telling. Then I have to apologies to the people sitting behind out table. Went to toilet to wash up cos it was so damn disgusting and I was wearing white shorts. It was so damn obvious. I hope the stain can be wash.
They left quite early but I stayed there and left at dunno what time cos I was so drunk by that time. Reach home about 4 I guess.
I LOST MY HP! MY NEW HP G900. I BOUGHT IT FOR LAST THAN HALF A YEAR!
I swear i'm not going to bring hp the next time I go drinking. Argh! Everyone please sms me ur number again. Thanks! To the same number cos I never change number.

I didn't go to work yesterday. Was so tired. I meet Edric. Went home at 4 plus and I went to sleep. Was so tired. Woke up at 8 and Jian came to accompany me. Watch TV till 10pm then we went out for dinner and home sweet home. Was so tired that I fell asleep immediately.

Reach office this morning and my table is in a mess. So many work to do. Haiz. Sianz. Sianz.

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Tuesday, November 11, 200812:15 PM

I'm so damn tired now. I woke up in the morning and I feel like shit. The feeling sucks to the core.

And I am trying to recall what happen yesterday night. I was such a bitch. I did lots of childish stuff and I can't remember all. Can someone help me to refresh my memory?
I was too high yesterday. So high that I don't know what i'm doing and I couldn't control myself. It is a gift from god that I am still able to wake up and open my eyes this morning. I was so afraid I can't wake up anymore. Thank god.

I think it is time to let go of everything.

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Monday, November 10, 20083:56 PM

I had a great night on friday. After work, I meet Jian and we went down to Bugis to meet Gui Qing, Angeline, Dinesh and Jin Yong to celebrate Gui Qing birthday. Had dinner at KFC. Then we walk all the way from Bugis to Boat Quay. I keep on complaining cos is really damn far. Luckily I didn't wear heels like the other time with the giggles.
Settle down at a pub at Boat Quay. It was my first time there. The pub is not bad. Quite a nice place. There is live band and the drinks there are not very expensive. We had black label. I wanted to sing but had to go on stage to sing and I and not so daring to do so. I swear I will go practice lots of English song so that next time I dare to go on stage to sing. Haha. It is double storey, so we sat upstairs and it looks like we book the whole of second level cos we were the only people up there. Had fun playing games with them. Jian was drunk. I brought him to the washroom and he vommited. Then got one people walk pass and ask me whether he is alright. Then when waiting for Gui Qing to come out from the toilet got one ang moh talk to me. He thought I was queueing for the toilet so when a man came out from the gents he said oh too bad u can't use it. Wth. Overall I enjoyed my nights with them. Went off at 12 plus and I bought cup noodles at 7-eleven cos I am so hungry. Cab home after that and off to bed.

Mum woke me up super early at 10am on Saturday. The most pek chek thing is she woke me up for nothing cos she got nothing to do as both my sis did not come back on friday. So i'm the only one there and I slept with her. So it is so convenient for her to ka jiao me. Argh. and when I woke up she was already preparing to go out and ask me to make breakfast myself. Even more pek chek. Wake me up just to talk one or two sentence with me. Cos I am unable to sleep back, I made my own breakfast and watch Dvd all the way until 5 plus. Was so tired by the time but both my sis came back and da jie wanted to go sheng siong to buy things back to her hall. So she pull er jie and me along so that there are people helping her to carry all her stuff. So bad of her. But it has been quite some time since the 3 of u go out together. So I drag myself along. Was quite happy chit chatting with them. Bought lots of tidbits and we also went to see rice cooker, pot and those cooking stuff so that da jie can cook in her hall next time. Actually I was the one who went to see cos I want to get it for Jian too so that he can stop eating outside food or maggi as it is not healthy. It is better to eat home cook food. Saw quite a few not very expensive stuff and I decided to get it so that I get to cook every Sunday at his place too. Miss cooking so much. Bought lots of tidbits, breakfast and maggi mee for Jian.
Reach home at 6 and I wanted to sleep but I got buddhist class at 8pm. So there is no time for me to sleep. Was so bloody tired. Continue to watch my Dvd till 7 plus and I went to bathe.
Walk to the class with both my sisters again. Was quite a happy day cos the 3 of us seldom got this chance. End the class at 9.30pm and nick came to pick me up at 10pm. Mummy was abit unhappy cos she thought I will go home together with them. Maybe cos seldom got the chance that all 4 of us spend time together. But sorry, I don't feel like staying home so early on a Saturday night. Went to Suntec to fetch Jeremy and XL and we went to vic to drink. This week is not that pathetic than last week. At least got a bit more people. Haha. First time sang duet with nick. Some songs got too high pitch so I pass the mic to XL cos I don't want to make myself pai sei. Had some games. Henry was so irritating. Keep on calling me xiao mei mei and ask me to go home and tell me all the rubbish stuff. Was so irritated by him so I purposely walk off to find Nick to play pool. When we got back to our table, he still ask me to go over. How irritating. So Nick said we better go and we lest at 2 plus.
Send XL home then my turn and Jeremy last. Luckily i'm not the last cos when I reach home it was already 3am. Imagine i''m the last. Don't know what time will it be.
Jian was angry about me going home late but I was too tired and blur to talk to him in that drunk manner. So we end our conversation.

Woke up super early again at 9 plus cos I need to go over to Jian to make up about the night before for going home late. Make breakfast, pack, brought all the tidbits and stuff I bought and there were way too many things for me to carry. So I took a cab instead cos I don't want to carry so many stuff taking train cos it look like some aunty who just came out from the market. But I like to do grocery shopping cos I love to cook. It was just so pai sei to carry the stuff back.
Reach there at 11.15am and Jian was still unhappy. He said he thought I would reach earlier like 9 or 10? Piang. The journey is from Marsiling to Paya Lebar. How to? Is not very near. So in order for him not to be angry, I told him that I have to do some housework before I can go out which is true,(but I exaggerate a bit cos I just sweep the floor). And I told him I walk to Sheng siong to buy the grocery for him(which I bought it the day before). And I told him I still had to make breakfast for him(which is made by my mum) but I pack it. Haha. So that's why I am so late which I think is not. Lol. So Jian wants me to be a Cinderalla next week again as my punishment to reach home before 12. Yawnz. Luckily is only next week and not my whole life. Thank god. So it didn't take too long for him not to be angry. I am such a pro in making up to my bf. :) So girls, if u need any tips next time, ask me. I don't charge.
Stay there for the whole day till 11.30pm and I decided to cab home. Wasted so much on cab these few days. And the most pek chek thing was I couldn't get a cab. When I got a cab, there was already midnight charge. I swear I am going to go off at 11pm to prevent the midnight charge. I don't believe I can't get a cab in 1 hour.

Had nightmare yesterday. I keep on dreaming about ghost and demon. It was so real. Maybe it is really real but I thought it was a dream. Haha. Cos a ghose just appear in my room seated at the mattress beside me. There were noises made my children and kids. Is not only one. About 2 to 3 kids playing with toys at my dad mattress. Then I heard them laughing and crying but I didn't care and continue to sleep. So is it real or is it just a dream? I don't know. I only know I didn't sleep well last night. I even know what time my dad reach home when I normally won't even wake up when he came back. I even wake up the moment my phone rang when normally my phone have to ring for a long time before I woke up. So, was it just a dream yesterday night? How I wish it is only a dream.

Jian called me at 6.40am cos I told him to do so. We agree to go breakfast together. He came to fetch me to work today! I was so happy. and we agree we will do that every monday. He will come and fetch me to work and we will have our breakfast before going to work. I'm so bless. I won't ask for much. Just trust and some freedom, and pamper me once in awhile will do. Even only breakfast once in a week I am contented.

I got a friend who said he wish he could be like me, so happy with my life and everything. Who doesn't have up and down in life? I think the most important thing in life is to be happy. That's why no matter what happen I will tell myself everything is going to be alright. People always said they don't care about what others see in them, but I do care. I want the best. But sometimes people are just being ridiculous so I rather not to listen. I'm not being stuborn or what but I think I got the right who do what I think is not wrong. Sometimes when I think is not wrong but someone talk sense in it and convince me, I still listen. So i'm still not that stubborn after all. :)
But I don't need people to say all the shit things about me. Keep all the sacarstic and bad comment to yourself. Before u said others, do a reflection on yourself before saying people. I'm not pointing at anyone here cos I don't know who is the one who said the shit things about me and I am not interested to know too.
I have really nice people and friends around me and I am happy and contented with my life now. So why bother? I don't want people who don't really know me to say shit things about me and affect my mood and happiness. I am what I am and I change whatever people comment about my bad habit and doing whatever I think is right. What else u guys want? I won't change totally just because of people who don't know me well. I got life, I got my freedom, I got my rights.

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Friday, November 7, 20082:31 PM

I'm meeting Gui Qing today. Celebrating her birthday tonight. My 10 years of friend. Happy belated birthday Gui Qing!

Yesterday lesson was ok. Time pass quite fast in Mr Bala class. :) Yesterday Mr Bala told the class whenever he said take a break there will only be 1 student dashing out from the class and he was referring to me. Cos I am the only one who went out to smoke during break time.
Then when I go back to class, classmates all talk to me and ask me to quit smoking. The lady sitting beside me even took out her newspaper to show me how bad the health is for smokers. Really scare me a lot. Then she also told me about her brother story. Then Mr Bala gets irritated cos we are too talkative.
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Told Ms Denise about the results but she doesn't seems to care. Such a bitch. And she was not even surprise or happy when I told her Siti's result. Never even praise her. And the way she say about my result is so sacarstic. Hate her. At least we got our cert what, don't need to ask for too much right. Such an ass.

After lesson, meet Jian at somewhere near the macdonald. We sat there to smoke then got 2 guys sat beside us and they didn't have a lighter. So I took out mine and pass it to him. THen they started talking to Jian. So coincidence the guy is also from Sabah and stay not very far to him. So they got a lot to talk. Then his lady friend came and she talk to me. End up I exchange humber with the girl and Jian exchange number with the guy. Haha. Make 2 new friends.

Finally I got a chance to lunch with Jian today. He is so nice to come back here for lunch. :)

Hope I will have a nice weekend this week but I doubt so.

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Monday, November 3, 20084:10 PM

A great weekend! Meet Jian after work on friday and we went to night safari. Actually we were quite early, but we waited 25 mins for the bus at Choa chu kang to night safari. Then it was so crowded. We bought 2-in-1 ticket cos we find that it was cheaper. Another ticket for Jurong bird park since we went to Zoo before. So there's another outing with Jian soon. So blessed! It was not as fun as I had expected. Didn't took many photo cos they don't allow us to flash, and it was too crowded. Queue for the tram for 1 and half hour. It was quite exciting when the tram enter the place where there are all ghost. It was so dark that we can't see anything. Suddenly when me and jian turn our head to the other side, there was a ghost beside us. Scare us and I scream. After that it was about time for the last animal show so we queue half an hour for the animal show. So we didn't see much things there. Abit waste of money. Went off after that and we had to queue for taxi too. So crowded everywhere and I was so hungry. Went to Woodlands centre to have our dinner cum supper and home sweet home

Sis woke me up early in the morning at 8 for breakfast. Was so tired and I force myself to wake up. Er jie drive daddy's car. 1st time taking her car. So damn scary. Went to collect my results after breakfast. I got my cert for Level 1! Yey! I was so scare that I couldn't make it. Was so happy when I got the results. Siti got pass with distinction. So smart la! Congrats to her. Went home to sleep after that. Woke up at 4 and get myself ready. Was so late cos I was suppose to meet Alene at 6 at clarke quay. Went out at 5.30pm, so I took a cab there. Suddenly Alene called and ask me to meet her at Orchard instead. The cab fare is so ex cos of the ERP and peak hour. Cost me 20 plus. Meet them at MRT station then they said they wants to go Cineleisure. Walk till my leg are so damn tired. Kim and Alene too. We keep on complaining cos we were wearing heels. Don't know who's stupid suggestion to go Cine for dinner. Then Jeremy came. They crack lots of jokes. Kim is still so humorous. It was so funny when we were standing outside cine deciding where to go. Cos Kim did something so funny. We wanted to take cab to clarke quay but wenyong insist on taking train. The girls were complaining. End up we went to boat quay. Then change to Vic. We had lots of fun playing games, joking, crapping, singing. It has been quite sometimes that I went out with group of friends. So I enjoyed myself so much that night. The way Kelvin and Alene argue was so funny too. Me and Raymond keep on laughing. Nick came to join us around 1 plus. The gigglets went off but me, jeremy and Nick stay there. Was quite broke after paying the bill. After the gigglets went off me and jeremy realised that we collect too little from them. Haha. End up we don't have enough cash so Jeremy paid by card. I had to entertain 2 guys at a time. Then I told them I am so fortunate cos I got 2 guys beside me. Lol. Left at 2 plus and Nick send us home. Save our cab fare.
Reach home at 3 plus. Was quite tired but couldn't sleep cos sms keep on coming in. Nick, Edric and Jeremy. Tried to quickly end all the conversation. Finally, I get to sleep at 4am.

Jeremy and me

Wenyong and SK

Tris and me

Woke up at 8.30am on Sunday cos I had to go and meet Jian. Keep on calling him but no answer. So I took my own sweet time to prepare myself. Bought breakfast for him. When I reach there he was still sleeping. Waited for awhile before he woke up. Luckily it was not very long. Something unhappy happen. His ex gf came to find him. Was quite sad when he told me. So I didn't want to go down when his ex gf came. I told him I want to sleep. Tried to sleep but I heard her voice and it really took quite a long time before I fell asleep. Not angry though. Just wonder why he can't meet her on some other days instead. Why must it be the time when I want to accompany him. Force myself to sleep. But we were ok after she went back. Where can u find such a good gf? Haha. Accompanied him for the whole day and cab home at 11. I think I spent too much on cab this month.

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