Yesterday night, I share the room with er jie cos da jie has moved back to stay. Had a short chat er jie and I miss the times when the 3 of us sharing the same room when we were very young. We would be talking non stop at night before we sleep till daddy or mummy will come into the room and scold us. Sometimes we will talk till mummy came in and we pretend to sleep to avoid scolding. That was the fun days I had. I suddenly miss childhood so much. I really miss it. Can time be rewind?

Feeling so 'emo' now. I don't know what to say. I read the forum about that stupid customer criticizing my mum again. I really feel like killing him. How I wish I could stab him with a knife but I won't kill him. I will torture him till he knee down and beg me and close that forum.
The world is ugly. Why do people and animal have to grow up in this kind of cruel world?

I guess I will be away for this weekend since it is a long weekend. I will be going to somewhere at Malaysia.

Yesterday er jie told me there's nothing call forever. Even humans will die someday. She said that we were too naive and believe in fairytales when we were young and she won't allow her future children to watch fairytale so that they won't be so naive and get cheated by people next time. We used to tell our friend in primary and secondary school friends forever. But does such things as forever exist? Probably the next year u and your friends got into different classes u had already make new friends and forget about the old friends u once told them "friends forever".

As u grew older, when u get into a relationship, u told ur bf/gf "I love u forever" but break up after weeks or months later. What does forever means? That only happen in fairytale. I used to believe in fairytale till someone taught me to face the reality. Thinking back, I was once a stupid and naive person. I become so heartless now that I do things without sparing a thought for others. Even when I saw someone(who has a place in my heart) cried that day I feel nothing. I don't feel guilty. I guess my heart has died. I don't even know who is my bf now. Suddenly thought of a day when Gui Qing chat with me in msn. She told me, when she read my blog she don't even know who is my bf.

Clubbing is an activity for u to forget about everything at that moment. When u drink until so high and dance like u never dance before. Shout all u want to release ur anger and stress and that is a place when nobody cares about how loud u had shouted cos nobody can hear it anyway. Haha. Cry for all u want cos nobody can see u crying cos it is too dark over there. Isn't it a good place to release stress?