Finally he is back from Sabah. I thought I had already let go. All this months I don't cry for him anymore. I thought the feelings had fade. I still can tell everyone confidently that I won't go back to him. Why do I feel differently when I see him today again? We talk like normal friends. We laughed at each other jokes. People who saw him back still say I will sure be very happy. I wish for this day to come 4 months ago. Not now. I don't know how to face u now. I really don't. Things were not as easy as I thought. I controlled my tears when we were saying goodbye but why am I tearing so much in the office? I don't want this to happen. I can do it! I have to let go. It won't be easy for me but I have to try.

I enjoyed myself at mind cafe yesterday.

wanted to go bugis to repair my phone then er jie told me that Bugis Sony Ericssion don't do servicing. Wtf? I reach Bugis already then I know about it. Stupid me la. Then it was still early, so I went to Raffles place first. Thought my elder sis was there but she was at Orchard. :( I went to mind cafe alone to wait for the rest to come. Was talking to Jordan then he saw the ring on my finger and he thought I was married. Initially I just want to play with him, so I said yes. But then I find it so fun and continue to bullshit even more. I told him i'm already 3 months pregnant then Jordan started to tell me things about being pregnant. I wanted to laugh by then but I control myself and tell him the "experience I had" during pregnancy and he believe me. Lol. I wonder what will he ask me the next time if he see that my stomach never grow bigger. Haha.

Da Jie reach first followed by Er Jie and her bf. We started our own games first while waiting for the rest. Everyone reach there by 8pm. There were 8 of us. Enjoyed alot and we went off at 11pm. I was glad that Edric managed to join us after his work. :) So sweet.

And finally he get to send me to work today! Finally! Haha.

I had already enrol for make up course. My lesson starts at 8 July.

-I had a great time yesterday night.

-I need to know more big size girls. Anyone who wants to slim down please contact me.

-Going to mind cafe tonight. Forget when was the last time I went there already.

-I miss lesson so much that I wanted to go for lesson yesterday but I know I can't.

-I hope that Qing can go clubbing with me this week.

-Looking forward to Bei fen's birthday party on Friday.

-Lastly, I miss Edric Lee, Dar! He finally resign and I am so happy.

I'm damn fucking tired now. I hope I get to sleep 24 hours a day. No matter how much I sleep it is not enough for me. Is there any cure for this?

I am so sick of traveling so far to work everyday. Edric is going to resign soon and he won't be able to send me to work anymore. I'm not that rich to continue taking cab to work everyday. I've spent too much in taking cab recently because Edric is so busy at work and I am so damn lazy to take train to work. I hate to squeeze in the crowded train when there are lots of kiasu singaporeans squeezing in here and there just hoping they got a seat in the train.

I was so damn bored yesterday that I stay in the office till 9pm. I feel so lonely. I hate this kind of feeling. I hate weekdays. I can't wait for friday to come. I guess friday is the only day that I feel so happy and enjoyed myself so much.
If only my dad is a rich man, then I don't need to work anymore.

A great weekend spent. Feels so good because finally I finish the course and don't need to think about it for the time being.

It was so unexpected that I get to club with Gui Qing on Friday cos she was not free initially. Went to Bugis to shop with Er Jie and her bf. Didn't buy a lot of things because I find it very bad to ask Er Jie to bring so many things home for me. So I only got myself a top and fake eyelashes. Bought a top for mummy also. :)
Accompany Er Jie back to Woodlands, then I meet Roch at Yishun and went to clarke quay together. That's when Qing called and told me she can join me. I was so happy. Haha. Then I did something bad by hitching a ride from Roch and drop off when they were looking for parking lot and told them I will look for them again after I go and find my friends. Lol. But I didn't went to find them in the end.
I went to Rebel to meet Qing, Alan and Xz. Saw quite a number of friends there. Had lots of fun and i'm glad things was not as boring as I thought. :)

I slept througout the whole afternoon on Saturday. Was feeling very bored at home when I woke up. Edric got to work till after midnight so I decided to go Butter factory. Plan was cancelled and I met Nick for dinner and a movie. A very nice and touching movie. Ghost of gf past. Nick showed me his car when he came to fetch me. It was crashed. Same incident as Edric. Nowadays people around me are so unlucky. It was a nice meetup with Nick. Thought he MIA already. He is still a nice guy cos he accompanied me to wait for Edric to finish work till 1am.
Anyway, I was glad I didn't go to Butter Factory on Saturday because there is a H1N1 case at Butter Factory. Lucky me. I think God bless me a lot. Maybe because I am a devoted buddist. Haha. And i'm going to pray tonight for god's blessing. I hope he will bless people around me especially my loves one.
Edric came to fetch me after my movie. Can't think of any place to go cos it was quite late. So we went over to his place. I find him so sweet that night and I feel so love and bless. Especially after he was so tired after working for more than 12 hours, he still tried to find time to meet me. I'm glad that there was time for us to have nice conversation. I can't remember when was the last time we spend time like this.
He send me home at 4. I felt bad because he still got to work early on the following day. Yes! Working on a Sunday at 8am! What kind of company? Ridiculous! I pity Edric for sleeping for less than 5 hours a day.

Mum woke me up at 8 plus on Sunday to go out for father's day celebration. Daddy came to fetch us in the morning. Just a normal breakfast. But at least I get to see Daddy. He called me last week and my heart sank when he told me he is staying at a factory now. Can 2 months past faster so that we can have a house of our own?
I went home to sleep after the breakfast. Woke up again in the afternoon and went to Jurong Safra to sing with er jie and her poly friends. The Kbox there is very new. It is damn nice!
Had lots of fun. Went for dinner after singing and home sweet home. I slept super early at 10 yesterday but I still feel so tired today. I hope I get to sleep 24 hours a day. Lol.

I feel like resigning already. I'm so sick of working here. I know I have been telling everyone how good my company is and the benefit I get. But then, somehow I feel that I am so sick of everything. I only realised today that I after working over here for 1 year and 6 months I still don't know what am I doing. I can't do most of the things on my own. I still have to ask here and there. I find that I don't learn much things if I continue to work over here. Cos this is such a small company and I don't see any procedure doing any job. I know if I go to a new company, my time won't be as flexible as what I have now. I won't have as many holidays as I have in this company but I am really damn bloody sick of working here already. So what this company never calculate annual leave? Then I felt as if I owe them something cos they don't deduct my pay. I never ask them not to deduct what. I know they are being nice to let us to have our flexible time, but then this stupid colleague of mine will always say me in a sacarstic way. Things like, how many holidays do u go in a year? Plus exam leh? mc leh? Bla bla bla. Act big shot. He don't even have a shares in this company. Not as if he is the one paying me. Say me so much makes him very happy? I don't understand.

And there's one particular stupid working partner always ask me to e-mail this and that when I had already send him those document before. I think he is just plain lazy to go and search his e-mail again to print it out. If I go and check his mail he sure got lots of the same things I send to him one lor. He is such an ass. So what he got a high position in that company? doesn't mean he can treat people this way right. I still remember last time he also always ask Edric to do this and that. Fucking idiot. He think he is the only one who is very busy? Just type and search in e-mail need to take how much of his time right?

Whatever. Or should I continue to stay here and ask my company to subsidies for my degree course? I think I should wait till after I get my Diploma. If they want to continue to subsidies me to further studies maybe I should stay. But if they don't agree I will resign.

The beautiful bride of the day


During the buffet
Family photo with the Groom and Bride.
The make up artist wasted my 48 ringgit giving me this kind of make up. Sucks.


Xiao Yi still didn't send me all the pics yet. So I only got a few pics to upload.

Tuesday was my last lesson. I was so happy when Lynn told me that there will be lesson on Tuesday because Mr Bala cancelled the class on Thursday. I thought I won't be able to attend anymore lesson. :) Me, Lynn and Vion bought markers for him. Really going to miss class so much. Class ended very early that day at 8.20pm. As usual, the 3 of us stay with Mr Bala and chat till going to be 10pm. I really enjoyed the last lesson the most. Mr Bala keep on saying that I am very mean. :) This is just me since secondary school. Haha. At least I get to make Lynn, Vion and Mr Bala laugh. Lol. Actually I feel quite bad making fun of a person like that but it is really hell damn funny when Lynn told me what happen and thus I become the bad person.
Time flies. I never regret taking this course getting to know a nice teacher and fun loving classmates. I will miss the times when how the 3 of us struggling for exam, encouraging each other, and getting calls from Lynn and Vion at night to wake me up to study. I really love them so much.

Got our results for April exam yesterday and I was very disappointed. Haiz.
Higher Accounting - failed
Business Statistic - credit
Hopefully I am able to pass Higher Accounting for June paper. Somehow i'm already prepared to take December paper after knowing the results for April paper. Quite demoralised.

I received a call from Alene early in the morning today. I was very worried about her and I get prepared to go down and find her but after that she say she is alright already. Hopefully everything is really ok. Babe, I miss u so much too. Just give me a call if anything happen ok? I will always be there for u. Really very worried about u.

So Edric came to send me to work as usual. I thought he was not able to wake up so I left home early then I received a call from him and I went back home to rest for awhile more. :)

The dog in my office bite my heels yesterday and the strap was broken. Was quite heartache cos I just bought it from KL. But then i'm also happy because boss bring me to parkway during lunch time and pay for my new heels. Twice the price of my broken heels and I love the new one so much.

Went to watch land of the lost with Edric at iluma yesterday. The movie has no storyline and quite lame. I won't encourage ppl to watch that movie.

Alright, I think I will stop here for today. Nothing else to blog about. Will upload the remaining pics when I got them. :)

Alright! I'm back to normal life again. No more lessons at night, no more late night studies! Finally!

I know my blog is so dead.

30 May- I accompany my elder sis to watch Aaron Kwok's concert cos it was her birthday. Not bad. The concert is quite nice with the 450 degree stage. My sis was like so damn high but I was not really the fans of Aaron Kwok. Edric send me there and fetch me after the concert. So nice of him. :) And sorry that he was caught for speeding just for rushing me to get there on time.

After all the 3 papers, I find that management accounting is the most difficult paper. I simply don't have the interest to study management accounting. The day before Higher accounting and Cost accounting paper me, Lynn and Vion didn't sleep for the whole night. As for management accounting, I don't wish to say anymore. Lol.
Somehow I miss having lesson together with Lynn and Vion. The times we encourage each other during exam and how worried they were for me the day before paper. :) They were so worried that I fell asleep and keep on calling me. I really miss them so much.

Hmmm, and I finally went to club on friday. It feel so good releasing all the stress out after few days or weeks of struggling for the exam. And I saw Syafiq there. So coincidence. And I never expect that I will meet him again the day after.
When I was moving house, I got a call from Kim, I was shock and I thought she was joking to me. Never did I expect that all this are real. I feel so sorry for Alene. I just hope she will be strong and hopefully get over it fast. I was quite worried for her yesterday night thinking that she will be alone. But then, I know she got very nice friend like Clara. I guess she will be alright. Cos I used to be the one who she talk to during secondary school days when she was sad, luckily she found nice friends in poly cos I won't be as free as I used to be in secondary school to rush down everytime when she called me and cry.
Alene, I hope u will be strong.

Well, i'm going to KL tonight. I'm so happy because finally tonight starts my holiday. I can't wait to go shopping. Hopefully I don't have to shop alone cause my idiotic cousin ps me last min. Argh!