Finally he is back from Sabah. I thought I had already let go. All this months I don't cry for him anymore. I thought the feelings had fade. I still can tell everyone confidently that I won't go back to him. Why do I feel differently when I see him today again? We talk like normal friends. We laughed at each other jokes. People who saw him back still say I will sure be very happy. I wish for this day to come 4 months ago. Not now. I don't know how to face u now. I really don't. Things were not as easy as I thought. I controlled my tears when we were saying goodbye but why am I tearing so much in the office? I don't want this to happen. I can do it! I have to let go. It won't be easy for me but I have to try.