Hmmm, end up I didn't go to zouk on friday. I went to Vic to drink with boss and colleagues. Sheng came to find me after that. I bluff him to come over and tell him I will go off when he reach. I plan to do that and go out with him, but when he reach I don't feel like going off cos my boss open 4 bottles of Vodka and I just feel like drinking. Haha. Was quite drunk that night and I slept in the pub. Without fail, I vomitted there again. Anyway, I enjoyed. If only Qing was there, I will enjoy more.

Saturday I went to SengKang to take my puppy. Chris accompany me to go. Kor fetch me from Ronnie place and send me home. Accompany him to get his job done first. By the time he finish everything it was 5 plus already. Er Jie decided to name her Coco. I thought there was time for me to take a nap. But after we went to get her stuff it was quite late already. Went to Rebel to meet Qing. It was a fun night cos quite many people went.
Reach home and Coco was awake. Still have to clear her shit and urine. She was making noise for the whole night that I couldn't sleep. Billy called and talk to me for awhile. He said the dog same as me, very naughty. Haha. I think the whole family couldn't sleep well that night. So I carried her out and put her to sleep beside me and she kept quiet. She keep on crawling here and there and didn't sleep. Far too irritating that I put her back in her playpen and she make noise again. I didn't care cos I was too tired. Mummy and sis woke up at 6 plus to play with her cos she keep on whining. I was being waken up by them also cos Coco crawl onto my bed. I was a bit pek chek and I push her away. Mummy laughed at me and ask me to wake up. She said my baby is very noisy. Ask me to look after her and all of them went out for breakfast. Wtf. I continue to sleep but she keep on whining so I woke up and feed her but she doesn't want to eat. So I put her beside me and sleep. Finally she kept quiet and sleep with me.

Did nothing much on Sunday. Went to find Jian. Finally had a good sleep at his place cos no one to disturb me. But Er Jie keep on calling and irritate me. Keep on asking me to go home early to look after Coco. Ask me to buy her a mattress. Coco didn't like to sleep on the mattress. Put her on the mattress she will walk away and sleep on the floor. Lol. Waste my money.
Luckily she didn't make so much noise yesterday. But still didn't sleep well. Wanted to sleep at 10 plus then she make noise. I wake up and accompany her until she sleep then I went to sleep. Wake up at 3am to coax her to sleep again then I go to bed. Don't know how long do I have to suffer.

Meet Lh yesterday and help him do facial. Find myself don't really have the skill to do facial. Got to practice harder. But it is easy to do facial for him cos he doesn't want any massage. Lol. Can save my time and energy. I only started to massage his face he said don't want to massage, so i didn't continue to massage his shoulder. Really save a lot of energy. Haha.
Went to admiralty to meet the rest. Sharon bought happy meal and there was free doraemon. So I asked lh to get happy meal but then he came back with a different doraemon. Quite sad lah, cos sharon one is better.
Enjoyed talking to the rest yesterday night. I share a lot of things with Fion. She keep on laughing at me lah, but she give me encouragement and motivation. When i'm going off, I asked Sharon whether can exchange my doraemon with her anot she said ok. :) I was so happy.
Jian came to find me then Ken send us home.

I was tired but I couldn't sleep when I reach home. Maybe i'm just too happy. I even dream about i'm still at admiralty talking to them. Hell damn funny.

Alright, it's friday! I'm in a very good mood today. Ken is going to bring me out to look for new account software! Means I don't need to stick with this ubs software anymore. Haha. Somemore can slack a bit and don't need to stay in the office.

Zouk tonight! Hope Qing go with me. *pray hard*

A new member is joining my family tomorrow. WooHoo!

I didn't go to work yesterday. Haha. Had a very good rest. Was sleeping and watching tv for the whole day. Woke up at 9 plus at night and I went out to meet Don to take my policy. Had a long chat with him then I called Chris to meet me cos Don was going off at 11. Chris acc me for awhile till he is tired then we went home. Such a boring day. I still feel very energetic throughout the whole night and didn't want to go home so early. haha. Called sheng and talk to him till he is tired and I tried to go to sleep.

Quarreled with er jie early in the morning today. Was quite pissed off with her. She always anyhow vent her anger on me when she lost her thing. I kept quiet at first but she keep on scolding me till I cannot take it and I quarreled with her. Grandma ask me to give in again. Ya, again. They always ask me to give in to her cos er jie got very bad temper. I just can't stand it why is everyone pampering her like that just because she is more fierce than me. I'm always the one being asked to give in. I told them i'm not going to give in cos is not my fault at all. I told mummy even if she forgive me I won't forgive her. Then grandma and mummy keep on talking to me telling me sister cannot quarrel with each other. Say have to give in to each other bla bla bla. Mummy asked me to had my breakfast after that. It was the cake er jie bought it yesterday. So I told mummy i'm not going to eat, cos er jie ask me not to touch any of her things. Mummy tried to tell me er jie is just saying things out of anger and persuade me to have my breakfast but end up I still didn't eat lah. Haha. Talk till I am late to meet Jian and he get pissed off.

On the way to work I received a sms from er jie and she apologise to me for scolding me and ask me to eat the cake. Lol. Once she apologise then I don't feel angry already. No choice, I got good temper what. Haha. I told Jian about what happen and he said my temper is getting bad compare to last time. He said I learn it from er jie. Sian. Last time he was the one who ask me not to be too nice and get bullied by my family, now he said I change and he is not happy with it. What should I do then?

Went to cwp to meet er jie yesterday after work. Took the same train as Jeremy but I didn't see him throughout the journey till I reach Woodlands.
Went to Pastamania for dinner. Jeremy treat cos I told him i'm broke. So nice. Meet Bei Fen and we went to pet shop to see stuff that we are going to get for the new puppy. After that we keep on arguing about sterilizing the dog cos it's a female dog. I wanted to sterlize it but er jie doesn't want. Jeremy also join in the fun and argue with us. Lol. Went to arcade to play. So lame. Play DDR again. Haha. Still don't have the stamina to play lah. After that we try out something new. Don't know what game is that. Looks a bit like DDR. First time trying out that game. Hell damn funny cos we don't know how to play. We look like some idiot there. Wait for Jian at the entrance while I smoke. Suddenly got 2 guys approach me to ask me my age. Then they told me cos they are guessing about my age. Wtf? Must be some people who wants to ask me to buy insurance or credit card.
Went home after that. Chat with Daryl for a few hours till i'm tired. Weather was very hot yesterday so I slept in the living room. But it was raining in the middle of the night till I shiver. Didn't sleep well yesterday and i'm feeling so tired now. Yawnz

I stay in the office till 9 on friday. Qing said I act hardworking. Lol. A lot of work to do and I can't even finish it when I left at 9 lor. But I was so bored in the office. Went to meet Sheng for a chat then meet Bei Fen when she finish her lesson. Went to Cine and waited for Lh and his friends for movie. Watch The proposal. Miss out the beginning part of the show cos they were late. Anyway it is very nice show. Had a good laugh. Went for supper after the movie and home sweet home. Quite a boring night and I regret not going to butter fac. Haha. Luckily Bei Fen is there to acc me. If not I think I will be bored to death. Waited for the NR for super long till both of us are quite pek chek already. Reach home but I don't feel like sleeping. So I continue my drama till 5 plus then I fell asleep.

Saturday morning Grandma ask me to keep all my stuff cos the house is almost done already. Had a busy day packing and keeping all my stuff. Was so damn tired by the time I finish keeping. Wanted to take a nap but I realised there's still a lot of things to be done. Do facial and bosy scrub for myself. Wanted to help mummy do but not enough time already. Went out to meet Lx at woodlands and went to ubi. After 7 years of not seeing him I couldn't recognize him. He told me a lot of his past. I feel very sad when he told me about it. Feel like crying already. Anyway, I hope the course did help him in some way.
Rush to rebel to meet Qing after the course. Was super late already. The cab driver is a very nice man. Talk to me a lot and chiong down for the sake of me. Lol. saw Daryl at the taxi stand. Had a fun night that day and I enjoyed.

Jian woke me up at 9 plus on Sunday. I feel that I have lack of sleep for this weekend. Slept for 3 hours only. Get prepared and went to find Jian. Supposed to help shuyee do slimming but it was cancelled due to some problems. Sian. So I continue to sleep till evening then I woke up. Wanted to go home early and rest but end up I stay at his place till 11 plus then go home.
That someone sms me but I was too tired to go out with him so I decided to go home and rest. I was quite excited when I received his sms. But I think there's no need to be so excited to this extend everytime he ask me out. Haha. Finally I can control my feelings for him already. I was still afraid initially that I will fall for him anytime. Congrats to myself.

I hope Raymond will be free tonight. Was quite disappointed when he told me he not confirm going. Pray hard... ...

I'm still in office. Sian. Waiting for Bei Fen to finish her lesson then I go over to meet her. Suddenly got this lonely feeling again. And I don't feel like it's friday today. A boring friday I can say. Not clubbing or drinking. Haiz. Suddenly think of Jian again. Keep on repeating the song Don't go away by By2. Can't stop thinking of what happen to us.

Don't Go Away

Looking through your eyes
There’s nothing to hide
And you’re no longer mine
How could I survive
When you say goodbye
Why do birds still fly up high

Can’t stop the tears from falling
We used to be so fine
When you walk in to my life
I tried to reach out for you
Just to be with you
My heart is breaking

[Chorus]
Don’t, don’t go away
Baby don’t you know I miss you so
Don’t, don’t go away
I’ve never been on my own before

Can't you hear me just take me with you
So don’t, don’t go away

[Chorus]
Don’t, don’t go away
Baby don’t you know I miss you so
Don’t, don’t go away
I’ve never been on my own before
So won't you feel my heart beat once more

A joke to share:

Construction worker on the 5th floor of a building needed a handsaw. So he spots another worker on the ground floor and yells down to him, but he can't hear him. So the worker on the 5th floor tries sign language.

He pointed to his eye meaning "I", pointed to his knee meaning "need", then moved his hand back and forth in a hand saw motion. The man on the ground floor nods his head, pulls down his pants, whips out his dick and starts masturbating.

The worker on 5th floor gets so pissed off he runs down to the ground floor and says, "What the fuck is your problem!!! I said I needed a hand saw!".

The other guy says, "I knew that! I was just trying to tell you - I'm coming!"

It's the 7th month of the lunar calender. Hungry Ghost Festival is here. I was alone in the office yesterday and the door bell rang. I went out to open the door but no one was outside. Really freak me out. I was so scare and my imagination run wild. Lol. I keep on thinking that I open the door so wide just now, wonder whether anything come in or not. Really freak me out lah. Then I keep on thinking whether izzit because I blast the music too loud so they are not happy. I immediately turn down the volume. Called Lh and talk to him so that I won't have any stupid imagination. Don't know whether anyone play prank on me anot.
When I was leaving the office I still feel scare. I quickly switch off everything and ran out of the office.
Whatever. I hope nothing unlucky things happen to me.

This morning I feel quite hurt by what Jian did to me. The things he said and do. I thought my heart has numb long ago that I won't feel anything. Somehow today I feel the pain. I control my tears but my eyes were still quite watery and I wipe it off so that he can't see it.
I still find myself quite stupid to do things for him even when he treat me like this. I just give in.

You can close your eyes to things you don’t want to see, but you can’t close your heart to things you don’t want to feel.

I have finally collected my cosmetic from da jie yesterday. Wanted to go over to her hall to find her but she came out to Jurong point to meet me instead. Had dinner together with her. It has been quite sometime since I last chatted with her for quite long. We went to play arcade. Lol. My leg was cramp while playing DDR. I think i'm old already. Too long never play DDR. Haha. Anyway I think that is for kids to play.

While waiting for Jian to finish playing Street Fighter me and Da Jie wa so bored so I went to the opposite and challenge him. I asked da jie whether she know how to play anot she say she dun know how to play also. Lol. Then we anyhow keep on pressing all the button. Play like crazy woman like that. Damn funny lah. Got 2 guys playing games beside us stop playing their games and keep on looking at us. So Pai Sei. I keep on laughing.
While waiting for table to have our dinner, saw a guy finishing his dinner soon. So there was an aunty standing beside the table and wait for the guy to go off. Jian just straight away ask that guy whether anyone sitting there anot the guy said no and Jian just sit down like that. I told him the aunty is waiting for the table already Jian said she just stand there and wait what who ask her never ask and wait instead of sitting down. The aunty seems quite pissed off and walk off to look for other seats. I feel quite bad lah. But what Jian said was true also. Haha.

Happened to read someone blog yesterday. I find his name quite familiar so I click on his link. His life is really damn sad. I feel very emotional when reading his blog. I remember he is someone I know when I was 12. Talk to him a few times before and we never contact anymore. Last time when I know him he is a very cheerful guy. Didn't know things change so much for him after 8 years. However he is still very strong to fight for what he wants and taking care of his family. I must really salute to him. If I were him, I think I will give up the family long ago. Added him in msn and talk a lot to him. I just feel like helping him with whatever I can. Didn't expect that we can still contact with each other after 8 years. The world is small. Maybe this is just fate.

Finally it is Thursday. Yay, it's friday tomorrow! Can't wait for friday to come.

I feel good today. Not feeling sick anymore. Didn't want to attend the meeting at Fion house yesterday but I still force myself to attend. Yesterday got a lot of newbies that I never see before. Was not feeling very well and they gave me a lot of calcium to eat. Hate the taste but I feel very good today. They treat me so nice when they know that i'm not feeling well. I told them I got gastric pain then everyone said must eat more calcium. Had 2 initially, then Danny said is not enough, ask me to have 4 tablet more. Lol. I told them I got headache after that then they ask me to eat B complex. Got so many free nutrition for me to consume yesterday. So good lor. Can save money. Anyway, after consuming those nutrition I feel good today. It really helps.

Ordered the stocks for facial already. It will arrived on friday. Finally. Haha. Spend a lot this month but I hope it will be a good investment. Anyone who wanna do facial and slimming please remember to contact me. Promise all of u that I will do a very good job and give very good service. The place is relax and comfortable. Somemore it is personally done by me. Isn't it better that u let someone u know than going outside to let someone u don't know to do facial and slimming right? And if there's anything that u are not happy and satisfied can just tell me straight. I do body scrub also. u won't regret doing body scrub. Really damn shiok one. I swear! ur gf/bf sure love to touch u after u do the body scrub. Charges are very cheap and affordable. So do contact me! Thanks.

It's wednesday! Can't wait for next week to come. I'm missing everyone. I miss Qing. Faster finish ur exam and come out soon! Missing the gigglets. When is the next gathering?

I'm not feeling well since yesterday night. I went to Iluma to watch where got ghost with Jian. The movie is still not bad. Quite a funny show but I didn't laugh much throughout the show because whenever I laugh my gastric will feel even more pain. After the movie we went somewhere to sit down and rest. I told Jian I cannot even stand up already. Drag myself to the bus stop and took a bus home. Jian give a stupid suggestion to walk home from woodlands. So I act smart by alighting a stop before woodlands interchange and I told him that walk from there is faster. End up took us about 45mins to 1 hr like tat for me to reach home. Lol. Plus I wasn't feeling well. So I walk for awhile then I sit down and rest. Regretted walking home.

I woke up this morning thinking that I will be ok after a sleep but it is still the same. No change. Drag myself to work. Wanted to take cab but I hang on and force myself to take train. I feel like dying on the journey to work. Luckily Jian is there for me. I still feel very sick now. I wonder is it because of my smoking habit that cause me to be so weak or is it the chocolate almond biscuit that I ate yesterday. The chocolate almond biscuit that Fransicca bought from China a few months ago. Yesterday Ken and Ronnie asked xp to throw away the biscuit. They said the biscuit turn bad already. I find it a waste to throw away and I refuse to let them throw it away. I still gei kiang and tell them I eat and let u all see nothing will happen one and I really eat the biscuit. Wonder is it because of the biscuit that makes me sick till now. Everytime I smoke I feel even worst. I only smoke 1 stick from morning till now then I keep on controlling myself not to smoke. Really feel damn xin ku now. Wonder when will this torturing end?

I"m so happy. My cosmetic has arrived! Gonna rush to tampines during lunch time to collect it. Finally!

Saturday I went to Bei Fen house and crap a lot with her. It was hell damn funny lah. So happen that both of us know a same guy, Keith. I chatted with him in msn that night and I told him that me and Bei Fen are together. He really believe that both of us are lesbian.
Received a call from Bei Fen yesterday night. She told me that Keith asked her that are we really les she said ya. Then she told Keith I broke up with my bf cos I realised that the one I love is her. Really crap lah. But I enjoyed.

Yesterday I woke up at 7 in the morning and went to JB to meet Ken, Ivy and Danny. Really damn tired. Went to the talk at M suites Hotel. The hotel is quite nice. Buffet lunch is also not bad. Quite worth it. I doze off quite a few time there. Was waiting for 7pm to come so that I can go home. Anyway, I learnt a lot in the talk. Next year all the Diamond are going to Dubai. So when the talk ends, we gather outside to talk about our target next year. Everyone aim for Emerald but I told them i'm going for Diamond cos I want to go to the Dubai trip next year. They really get shock lah. Haha. Even Brother Andy is not even a Diamond yet. Then Brother Andy ask me not to let them down cos I aim so high. Lol.

Yesterday night I realised that I never on the switch at my living room before. Lol. When LH called, I went to the living room to talk to him. I wanted to on the fan and that was when I realised I don't know which switch to turn on. Shows that I am not always at home. Till now i'm still not familiar with where are all the stuff that are place at my house. It doesn't matter. I don't feel like it is my house anyway. Family having war again recently. Mummy told me this morning that after I went out yesterday morning there's a war at home. Lol. I told mummy we will move out next year during Sep or Oct. I promised her by that time I will earn and save enough to get ourselves at least a 4 room flat. This gives me the motivation to work harder giving mummy a better life. I need to work hard. I hope we can move out and stay far away from Daddy. I do love him but he is getting far too much. I got no choice to treat him like this. He deserve it. Till now he still don't appreciate what the family has done for him. Therefore I don't see a point that why do we need to help him. A 47 years old useless man is all I can describe about him. I never look down and give up on him. Still waiting for the day that he can prove something to us that he is not useless. I'm still waiting......

I'm blogging at bei fen's house now cos she is talking on the phone so I got nothing to do and came to blog.

I'm feeling very tired today. I enjoyed myself a lot yesterday. I meet Qing at Chinatown then we went for dinner. We went to vic after that. It has been so long since I went there. My balance there is since Apr until now lor. lol. Leslie already complain that I put my balance there for very long already. So yesterday I went over to finish the balance with Qing. Ken was there also. We finish the balance and Ken open another bottle for us. I drink until very happy yesterday. Really enjoyed myself a lot with Qing. Raymond, Jo and Daniel came later to find us. We play and joke a lot that night. I told Ken I really want to change position and become xiao pang assistant. He agreed but he say have to wait till 6 months later. I'm so happy and I told him I love him. Haha. I am so drunk yesterday and I vomited. Marcus came to find me and we went to rebel to club. He ask me still can club anot I told him can. Lol. Was very high that time. Went to rebel to drink and vomited there again. Lol. Cannot make it already. End my night at 4 plus.

Feeling very tired today. Don't feel like going out so I went to find Bei Fen. Going out now to find her cousin for dinner. Gotta stop here.

Don't know what to say now. I couldn't make it this time round. I feel like giving up accounting already. Accounting just sucks lah. I called Lynn immediately when I know my results. Holding on to my tears when i'm talking to her. Cheer up a little after talking to her. I was thinking that things will be better if I got half of my sister brain.
I feel like giving up, but Lynn persuade me to go for November exam since we have already go this far. Filling in the registration form is the last thing I want to do. I'm so sick of filling in this registration form already.

I wanna go party tonight. I don't want to think about this anymore. I don't know how to tell my boss about it. Shit. Why am I born to be stupid? I think cos my elder sis absorb half of my brain and half of my second sis brain, then my second sister absorb another half of my brain. That's why I am born to be the most stupid one in the family.

Ronnie and Gyan brought Flurby and Cookie back to office yesterday. I was so happy. I miss them so much. The 5 newborn puppies were here too. They are so damn cute. I still can't decide which one to choose cos I love them all! Haha. I didn't do any work yesterday. I played with the dogs and puppies the whole day and took some pictures of them.
So cute right?



After work, I went for my beauty and make up graduation. I was the first one to reach so I thought I was too early and should have enough time for 2 models. Went down to fetch Er Jie and Bei Fen. Put make up for myself first while Miss Jane help Bei Fen to do her hair. Cos Xiao Yang got no model, I gave him one which is my Er Jie cos Bei Fen don't want to be his model and I think Er Jie regretted to be his model lah. Xiao Yang was so nervous because it is his first time to help people to put make up. We keep on disturbing and laughing at him. It was so damn funny lah. End up he ask Miss Daphny to help. Miss Jane help me to do my hair also. I love it. I told her I can never be so pro like her. Lol. She ask me to go and learn more lor. "-_-
Had a lot of fun during preparation and everything was done at 9.30pm! We went out for our catwalk. I enjoyed much more than the previous time most probably because I know everyone there this time. Haha. Alright, after everything we took lots and lots of pictures like we are really some model like that. I smile until my mouth is damn tired lah.

Bei Fen! This is my model but her hair is not I do one. Lol. Very nicely done by Miss Jane.
This is Er Jie. I like her flower shape hair also.
The Laopos. Sound so les. Lol.
Me and my model!
I love my hair! All thanks to Miss Jane.
Xiao Yang and my sis.
It's me and Bei Fen again.
The 3 of us. BFF!
Huiling came to join us also. She got very big difference with and without make up lor. I was so shock when I first saw her with make up.

Teachers, students and models.
Er Jie, Miss Daphny, Me, Bei Fen and Miss Jane
Xiao Yang and me.
My teacher. I love her lots.

Shui Fu and Me. I love his face complexion. All girls and ladies want it lor. Damn nice and shiny. I can't believe that a guy can take care of it so well.

HuiLing and me


Ken is so nice to come down and support me. Love him lah. Haha. But as a friend only. Don't get the wrong idea hor!
He is so fortunate that he get a chance to take picture with us.



Jian came to find us cos he need Ken to help him to move all his stuff to Woodlands.

We were tired and bored on the way home so we took pictures again
Home sweet Home


That's all for my day. Thanks Er Jie and Bei fen for coming down all the way to ubi and give me such an enjoyable night. I feel bad cos they go home late and there is work tomorrow. Luckily Ken went there yesterday so we hitch a ride from him and he sent us home. :)

I heard from zq that Jian injured his hand while playing basketball on Monday. He didn't go to work yesterday and doctor said that he need to rest for 2 to 3 months. I feel like calling him and ask him how is he but I think I shouldn't call. I hope he is ok and things are fine for him.

I enjoy my life yesterday. I didn't go to work and stay at home for the whole day. I think i got a super long weekend. LOl.

My grandma treat me like a princess yesterday. I was in my room for the whole day watching Hong Kong TVBI. Then she cook me lunch and serve it to my room and clear the bowl for me after my meals. I only eat, watch my drama, sleep and wake up to continue my drama. Then grandma serve me coffee and tim sum for my tea break. Don't know why she treat me so nice yesterday also.
Went to Fion house at night. I had a fun time there and back home quite early.

I'm so excited for tonight. I'm graduating for my beauty and make up course. I'm nervous that I can't do nice make up for my models. Haha. Wish me luck!

This weekend is not as enjoyable as I expect. Friday is not a fun night. I had an arguement with Jian even before we go to Dbl O. I don't have the mood to club that night. I saw 2 of my friends. Many things happen and we left quite early that night. Everything is ok when I reach home. I don't wish to think and talk about friday as it was an unhappy night.

Saturday was a tiring day. I woke up very early because the carpenter came to do some renovation. I slept throughout the whole afternoon. It was a sad day. I went to the course alone. Went to meet Qing, LH and M to rebel. Meet rui feng at clarke quay for awhile before we went in to rebel. Didn't really enjoy my nights cos I keep on thinking about friday night. I really miss him a lot. Went to had subway for supper. Was so tired and I reach home at 6am. My grandma had already woke up when I reach home.

I didn't get to wake up late even during holiday cos my house is doing renovation. I woke up very early everyday. Didn't get to sleep much. Finally I went to watch up yesterday but is not with him. I watch with Terence. We went out with both my sis and their bf to funan cos we want to buy a desktop. Went to The Cathay to watch movie at night and dinner after that.

Will be going to Javin house tonight to visit him. Hope he is much better now.

I'm moving on......

I'm happy cos it's friday again and there's a long weekend this week. Love it to the max!

I'm happy also cos I had already make order for my cosmetic. I can't wait for it to arrive. Next I will be ordering skin care product and nutrition for my customer use. I'm so happy that I will be having 2 customer on Thursday. Hopefully end of this year I can bring in 500 times customer then I will be rich on dec cos I will get my AWS, salary and bonus from the salon. Where can I get my 500 customer? Still got 4 more months to go. Anyone who wanna do facial and slimming please contact me. Thanks.

Supposed to go to Fion's house yesterday to help her do facial but end up I didn't go and I went to Admiralty for gathering instead. I hope Fion is not disappointed and give up on me. Haha. I find that my time is so pack everyday and I hardly have time for myself. Whenever I reach home is just sleep and wake up for breakfast and off to work. I even have to get my nails done in the office. I don't have time to slowly do it at home. Give me 48 hours a day please.

I hope I can success at the age of 22. If I ever succeed, daddy won't look down on me anymore. And if I succeed, the first thing that I do is to buy a house and bring mummy far away from this home. This home is not for her. I don't want to see mummy suffer anymore. However I can't bear to see grandma and daddy sad if the family leaves them. Actually this is the plan that mummy and me think about. When I reach the age of 21 or 22, we are planning to move out and get a house ourselves. If I success in my career, I wanna buy a 5 room flat or a condo for mummy. I want her to enjoy the rest of her lives like how I am enjoying now. With lots of freedom and being happy not working so hard.
I am sacrificing a lot of time now to learn more things. I hope the effort pays off. Like what Brother Andy thinks, he said he got high hopes on me that I can become like him someday. I feel honored that a Big brother actually notices me when i'm someone new.

Dbl O tonight! This is so gonna be the first time I bring bf to club. I hope I won't get bored tonight.
I can't wait to go rebel tomorrow with Qing. Saturday faster come please.
Qing, I miss u...

I can't stand my dad. Ever since he is not working, he keep on checking where me and mum go. He can't stop nagging. Yesterday he sms me at 10 plus and ask me where am I and ask me what time i'm going home. I can't stand it. It feels like my freedom is being control again like secondary school. I complain to mummy and she said the same thing. He always open our room door to see whether me and mummy reach home already or not. This morning mummy took all the room key from dad and pass one to me. Then mummy say next time we will always lock our room no matter anyone is in the room or not. Like this Daddy can't check on us anymore. Haha. Shit him lor. I really can't stand the way he control me and mummy's life. Always nag at us, but never say himself. What about days when he never go home? Why he can but we can't? We are not kids.

This morning "he" msg me again. He wanted to ask me out for dinner but too bad I got make up course. Haiz. When he told me I was so disappointed and sad. How come so unlucky. Really no fate.

Yesterday night while I was going home I saw Kai Wen at my block coffee shop. He look like he is on drug or he is drunk. I told him I just move there and he told me my new house there is very dangerous cos got a lot of foreign workers. Then he bring me around and intro me to all the uncles there and ask them to take care of me if they see me. He told me he always go to the coffee shop there so just give him a call next time if I go home late and he will send me home. Finally I never lost my way home yesterday cos kai wen accomapany me all the way from the coffee shop to my house. For the past 2 days I keep on going to the wrong block.

It has been so long since I last exercise and I feel like dying after playing bball with er jie for like 5 mins? Totally got no stamina at all. Me and Er jie like 2 crazy woman at the basketball court. We play for fun while the guys were taking a rest.

I can't stand my insurance agent anymore. Without fail everyday he keep on asking me how many cigarette I burn for the day? Fcuk. I don't burn. I smoke. Can or not? He claims that he is concerning for my health as a friend. I think he concern more that the company have to pay for my medical bills if I got any health problem more than he concern about my health.

Can't wait for the weekend to come. It's a long weekend. HaHa. I think i'm going to club for 3 consecutive days. Going to Dbl O on friday, rebel on sat and phuture on Sun. Everything is plan and confirm already. I can't wait for the weekend to come. I want to club with Qing on Sat. I miss her so much.

I'm so happy today cos someone finally msg me after a week. :) Guess who?

I went to meet the gigglets at town after work on friday. Alene was halfway telling her stories and I miss out the first half of it. I miss them so much especially Kim and Alene. I enjoyed my time spend with them. Then Syafiq keep on psychoing Kim and Wy to shebang with Alene, end up there is no table for so many of us. Lol. Alene went with her friends while the rest accompany me to wait for Qing to reach Boat Quay to meet me. Practically we just joke, crap, gossip and Cam whore there while waiting. Luckily Kim was there, if not I will be bored to death over there.
Went to Dbl O to meet Lh and Michael with Qing. I'm very hyper that night cos I never club for 2 weeks already. But is not as fun as going with the usual 4, and I still prefer to go rebel than Dbl o.

Mum woke me up so early on Sat at 9. I couldn't sleep back so I decided to pack all my stuff. Stay at home for the whole afternoon and I spend my time talking to the owner cos it is the last day that i'm going to stay there. Feel a bit sad cos the owner will be alone again when we move out. She also ask me to talk to her since there will be lesser chance that i'm going to see her again. So fast 2 months just past like that. Didn't want to have dinner at home but the owner insist of cooking dinner for me and she said is the last night we are having dinner together already. So I stayed and had dinner together with her and her husband. Went to Bugis with Jian at night then we went to Geylang to find kor kor and he fetch me from there to Orchard to pick his friend's gf then to Boat Quay. A very fun night with kor. Reminds me of those happy moments with him in the past. Kor still never change. He race with his friend on the way to orchard and Boat Quay. So long never sit in a fast car already. I can't stand taking slow ride. But I know is more dangerous taking kor kor car. Once in awhile still ok.
The pub we went is not my type. Is for those old pai kia to go. The music keep on changing. From techno then change to a bit of R&B and change to thai songs.
The waitress was so careless that she spilled the drinks on me. My top and jeans was damn wet and sticky. I give her a face and walk to tell kor then went to wash up. When I came back one of the waiter apologize on her behalf and kor make him drink. Lol. Went up to KTV after that to sing for awhile and I left at 4am cos I still need to move house in the morning. Kor ask Jian to drive his car to send me home but I don't want cos Jian also drink quite a lot and his face was so red already. Somemore it was a Sat sure got a lot of TP.

Sunday my mum and sis started packing at around 7 plus and tried to wake me up but I only wake up after 1 and a half hour later. I was damn pissed and frustrated cos I didn't have enough sleep. Somemore I woke up feeling very heaty and sore throat. Called Muthu and waited for them till 10 and we started moving our things into the new house. I didn't help much. I keep on sitting inside the van and tell them I will take care of our things and belonging. I'm too tired to move anywhere. Reach my new house and fell asleep as soon as I can. Finally got my new house. I'm happy.
Woke up and went out to meet Jian for a movie. Went to Causeway point to watch murderer. The story line not very good. From the start I only want to know the ending.
I lost my way while going home at night. Haha. I don't know where I walk to and I cannot find my block. I climb to the oppsite block all the way to the 4th floor and saw that it was not my house then I went to search for my block and finally found it. Sweating like hell when I reach home and I couldn't open the door. I haven't get used to it. I can't wait to pack all my stuff nicely on my new house and invite a new member to my house soon. :)