I'm back from my holiday!

Christmas eve sucks to the core. Not enjoying at all. Work is hell damn busy! And things cock up during work. Argh! I hope it won't be the same tonight! So sian Qing won't be working with me tonight! Haiz.

Trip to Sabah is fun! I'm happy cos I get to meet Jian!!!!!! Long story. Spend my 3 days there with him. Really miss him hell damn lots. Haiz. Time just pass so fast whenever i'm with him. How I wish time could stop at that moment. Really miss him damn lots ever since I met him that night. Feel very confused now cos he asked me to move over there to stay with him but I don't want to sacrifice and give up everything here.

Half day today. Going home soon! Haha. Shiok!

Yesterday while on the way home, Coco vomitted in the cab. Damn pai sei. I apologise a lot of times to the taxi driver. But partly also his fault cos he don't know how to drive. Haha.

After I reach home, I went to get prepare and wait for Leong to finish work. We didn't go anywhere. So sian. Only went for dinner then went back home. Both of us were quite tired after work already and we fell asleep. Didn't accompany each other much. Haiz. Really miss the time when he was not working at night.
I find that working at night we really got no time for each other. But if Leong works in the day he cannot tahan cos he is more to nightlife.
We quarrel again this afternoon regarding we have no time for each other and he doesn't like me to work in a pub. Wth. Quarrel so many times over this issue already still want to quarrel over it again.
But somehow we are ok now already.

Christmas is coming. Can't wait for christmas eve. Qing told me over the phone that the way supervisor plan the schedule for me and qing sucks a lot. Cannot enjoy somehow one. Think she should re plan again. Shall talk to her about it on Thursday. I really hope I get to enjoy my christmas eve.

Tiring week last week. Friday and Saturday was a busy day at work. Supervisor was not around. We only had 4 staff on Friday. Got one uncle open 6 bottle of red wine and all of us drink together with him. Cannot tahan red wine. Called Qing and ask her to come down for help. Luckily she came down and help out cos 2 of the staff were drunk. I'm really damn pissed off cos I was hell damn busy as they didn't do anything. They seems more like enjoying themselves than working. Only me and 1 more staff do all the work. Tired running here and there. I feel pai sei to ask qing to help me when she was not working on that day.
Leong came that night with his friends to drink and waited for me to finish work. Went to his house to pei him after that. I was bloody tired and keep on complaining to him. Angry day!

I was late for work on Saturday. haha. We only had 3 staff. Supervisor was not around. There was no customer initially. Then suddenly almost all the tables outside was occupied. Hell damn busy running in and out and I drink a lot that night. My mind can't even work that night. I was too busy and blur to know what i'm doing. Almost all the customer ask me to drink. Drink here and there. Then got customer vomitted AGAIN! AND I NEED TO CLEAR IT! 2ND TIME ALREADY! DAMN PISSED!
It was a busy day that even boss and Andrew came to help out. First time seeing boss helping in the kitchen. Haha. Boss was angry and say that how can the supervisor put only 3 staff on Saturday night.
It was a fun and tiring night. Been drinking a lot for the past few days and I had a big tummy now. I want to slim down soon.

Recently me and Leong hardly got the time to spent together already. Both of us are busy working. Even when we meet after work both of us were so tired already. Didn't talk much also. Feel that we are drifting apart. Even he said that to me too. Hmmm, I hope this won't remain for too long. I want to go back like how we used to.

Driving lesson on Monday still sucks. I think I sucks at driving. :(
Leong came to fetch me after my lesson. We went home to get change then went out for dinner. Went to Bojangles to drink after that. I was hell damn tired that day but he wants to drink. So we went to a place nearby. Saw Sarah's mum working there. Lol.
Went back to Leong's house and saw his dad downstairs. Went to sleep immediately. Damn tiring day.

Yesterday I stay in office till 8 plus cos I brought Coco to my office. So waited till 8 to go home to avoid peak hour charge. Managed to clear up some of my work. I called Jian yesterday to ask him about something. Really miss his voice so much. I can't control my tears the moment I heard his voice. I hope I won't be thinking so much about him. Miss him badly. Haiz.
Had an early night yesterday but I didn't sleep well. Yawnz.

Working tonight again. I will be working from Wednesday to Sunday this week. Will be damn tiring for me.

Can't wait for next week to come. Especially Christmas day cos I will be away for holiday till 30 Dec.

Tiring tiring day. This morning the moment I step into office then kena say by XP. Ask me don't always come to office with sleepy face as there are many people in the office started saying me already. Sian lor. Early in the morning come to office then kena say. Spoil my mood for the rest of the day.

So envious of Leong that he is sleeping soundly now. Somemore he can sleep all the way till evening. I feel like doing that too. Haiz.

Nothing much happen in my life recently. Everything is still the same. No life. Boring life. Work and work. Zzzz.

Finally I went clubbing last friday!!!!!! Happy happy! Seriously miss clubbing so much. I enjoyed myself to the max last friday. Had a lot of fun. Thanks to Qing for making it happen. :)

Work on Saturday sucks. Many things happen which pissed me off. I think my supervisor hates me a lot. Keep on nagging and finding problem for me. Whatever happen seems to be my fault and blame me for everything. Shit her. Super angry with her that night. And my she didn't put my schedule to work on Sunday. All along my schedule is fixed from Thursday to Sunday but she only put me for 3 days and 7 days for 2 chinagirl.
The more I think the more angry I am so I go and tell boss and she change the schedule back. :)

Cousin wedding on Sunday. Went to malaysia to attend his wedding. Feel bored over there. Get to see many of my relatives which I haven't seen them for a few years. One of my cousin is damn pretty. Envious!

Yesterday night I went to pay respect and visit Leong's great grandmother. Went for dinner after that. Got ourselves a couple watch! So sweet! Went to Mount faber for awhile then to Kent Ridge park. had a nice chat. I'm glad that he is trying to control his temper nowadays. He told me among all his gf i'm the one that makes him angry the most. Haha. He told me i've change alot. I used to listen to him everytime but recently i've done a lot of things which makes him angry. Trying to change back to the old me. I miss the times when there was no quarrel between us.
This morning he told me his grandfather passed away and all his family member had went back to Malaysia but he couldn't go back cos he don't have a passport. Then he ask me to help him wash his clothes as his mum won't be at home to wash for him. Suddenly become his maid already. Anyway, I do it willingly lah cos he finish work at 4am. Don't think he will have the energy to wash his clothes when he gets home. Somemore he wake up early in the morning to send me to work. One thing that I don't like to help him to do the housework is only bcos of his mum. Always like to comment on what I do. The previous when his mum saw the way I hang the clothes she comment that I don't know the correct way to hang the clothes. Was angry lor. That is the way how my mum taught me what. Different people got different ways of doing things. And it is not as if the clothes won't be dry bcos of the way i'm hanging it. Comment so much for what. If she is not Leong's mum I really will argue back with her. Can't stand her. If she ever become my mother-in-law I will commit suicide. And the previous time when her mum was going to malaysia she still purposely tell Leong very loudly that make sure all the things in the house is not being touch especially her utensils, cooking pot, etc. I think she wanted to tell me indirectly. Please lah, as if I want to touch her things. My house things are all much more nicer and new. Leong find his mum ridicuolous and told his mum to might as well keep all the cooking utensils in her room and lock it so that we won't touch it. Lol. Hate going to his house cos I know I will see his mum and she ignore me everytime I call her. Really don't feel like calling her cos I know she won't answer me but I still call her as a respect. I no longer go to his living room when i'm at his house. I stay in his room the moment I step into his house and only step out of his roon when I want to go home. Even when I want to go to the washroom I still wait till his mum went off from the kitchen then I go to the washroom just to avoid seeing her face. Really don't know how to get along with her. Plus she is very superstitious. Still dare to call herself a christian but choose to listen to the chinese belief. I thought christian shouldn't be so superstitious. This morning when Leong grandpa passed away his mum ask him to go to the wake is not because of the grandpa. She said is because Leong will have bad luck for many years if he never attend his own grandpa funeral. Christian got believe in this kind of things one meh?

Whatever. I'm tired. Going to nap. Zzzz.

Got to work today. Sian sian sian.

Yesterday Leong fetch me from work and we don't know where to go. I wanted to find kor but he doesn't want. Really hate it lor. So far he is the only guy that never give in to me. Was quite unhappy. Went to Downtown east for dinner instead. After dinner Leong ride past the red house and stop outside for awhile. It was demolish already. Still feel eerie though and I asked Leong to go off. He bring me to OCH instead. Shit him. There was no lamp posts and very dark along the road inside OCH. I asked him not to turn in and he insist on turning in. I nearly wanted to jump off the bike cos I was too scare. That was how I manage to stop him from going in. Phew!

Went to Swensens to have some ice cream and went down to jimms at sbw. Didn't want to go down since i'm not working yesterday but leong insist on going down. Sometimes I really hate him a lot. Always want to do things that I don't want to. Was a bit pissed off when I reach there. Saw my boss so I quickly went upstairs to the ktv room. Boss called and told me he saw me.

Had a good talk with Leong yesterday night. Finally I manage to complain some of my unhappiness to him and I hope he will really understand. I'm really tired. I didn't had a good rest for 2 months plus already.

Went for driving lesson today. Sucks. I think i'm a very lousy driver. Instuctor also keep on shaking his head.

After lesson received a call from Leong. He told me he is not working on this friday. Totally sian. Haiz. Wonder when will I get my freedom back again?????