Looking forward to today! Hope it will be fun. :)

Wanted to take leave today but Ken ask me to come for half day. :( Sian. Still need to go and do my hair and make up. Don't know whether will be rushing for me or not.

Yesterday work was ok. Not many customer. I feel bad to let Qing work alone inside cos I was sitting outside accompanying boss friend as she was alone. So I feel guilty and after she left I do as much work as I can so that Qing can rest. Sorry ar Qing. Love u lah! Muacks.

Tonight Qing is going to take care of me and help me drink. Hope both of us won't get drunk. :)

Just received a call from supervisor. Heard that they are going to transfer me to Bukit Batok Jimm's pub. FUCK! I don't want. It is so damn far and not convenient for me. ARGH!

1 more day!!!!!!!! :)

Yesterday night Lynn cancel the plan to study cos she need to look after her kids. Initially I don't want to meet Leong cos I want to rest at home but he keep on complaining till I cannot stand him. Went to Jimm's pub with him to have a drink. I don't dare to walk in to talk to boss. Scare he will say me. Leong always talk crap when he drink. Can't stand him!

Went to his house for awhile and waited for him to prepare for work. He send me home and I was quite tired but I couldn't sleep. Wanted to sleep but I went out again with js. Had a nice chat with him. Yesterday reminds me of a special day with Jian 2 years ago. Haiz. But no more. I can't stop thinking about it. It just bring back a lot of memories of him yesterday.

Went home at 2 plus and i'm super duper tired now. js even worst. He got to wake up at 6.15 today. :( feel bad to make him accompany me till so late.

Chris didn't send me to work today. :( So damn lazy to go to work alone. I'm spending too much in cab this week. Got to control myself.

I'm going to Kl next week. I want to shop! Haiz. Going there bring back a lot of memories between me and him again. Hopefully one day i will get over it.

I find that recently I have been treating Leong quite bad and he is the one who listen to me now instead of me listening to him. My attitude and temper is quite bad recently. He really change quite a lot. Should cherish him and stop thinking back of the past.

Can't wait for this friday. I hope it will be fun! Will be celebrating my birthday at jimm's pub. Qing is going to be nanny that day as she will be taking care of me. :) Hope she don't get drunk.

Yesterday I went to far east to do my nails with Qing. Meet Henry after that and we went to somewhere at Changi Chapel Museum there to have our dinner. Had a great time spent. Went to Upper seletar to relax and something damn embrassing happen. I was very urgent to pee and I did my small business at the bush. Haha. First time lor. Pai sei. *blush*

Alright. I'm tired. Going to have a good rest before my boss come in to the office.

just received a call from daddy. He nag at me that my grandma just came back from Malaysia and ask me to accompany her more and show more concern for her. He said that grandma went to malaysia for so long also nobody help her to water the plants etc. Daddy say our home is not like a home. Everyday there's no one at home. Wtf? As if we don't need to work izzit? Then what about our income? Are u going to give us? Must be grandma complain to him again that nobody care about her and she do this do that like a maid. Come on la, I know u help out a lot in the housework. But since u are not working and always home, just help a bit also want to complain? Then don't take money from us next time. As if I don't like to stay at home and rest. I just don't have the time. Do u know how tired and annoying it is to wake up by the alarm clock every morning to wake up for work? U think all of us like it? Who doesn't like to sleep till we wake up naturally? Daddy said we never spare a thought for grandma, then what about himself? He only come back once in a week and seldom talk to grandma. U didn't even give your own mother money to support her. Who is the one who is supporting her all this while? US! YOUR EX WIFE AND 2 DAUGHTER OK!!!! Mummy is not even related to her in anyway now and STILL SUPPORTING HER! call yourself her son but didn't give her any money. Haha. Do u even have the rights to say us? I'm damn pissed off when u said that one day u will beat mummy and Uncle Khoo when u cannot tolerate all the nonsense with us. Who are u to do that? HELLO! both of u has already divorce! Do u understand the meaning of divorce? Means u are nobody to her now. She got all her freedom to do what she want. She can don't support your mum do u know that? She can jollywell just throw her out of the house. Just thank god that u have found such a good wife but u didn't cherish her. And she being such a nice person didn't chase your mum out of the house when u left the family with another woman. I wanted to tell u that all this that has happen to our family is all because of u! U are the one who is unfaithful to his marriage and now u are angry that mummy is seeing another guy? I was hoping for this day to come the moment u cheated on her. I want to let u know how mummy felt many years back when u decided to leave the family. We are close to mummy and treat her better than u because she deserve it ok? All these years after u left, do u know how miserable mummy is? Do u know how hard she work just to support the family and taking care of us? U never know how difficult it is for her. To work and support the family and to take care of us because we were still YOUNG! Yes! WE WERE STILL YOUNG AND U LEFT US! and that was the time we need discipline the most and mummy need to worry so much about us.
U only know how to say but what have u done? U said we didn't care for grandma, then what about u? Did u? U said me and mummy always go out early in the morning and come home late at night like some big business woman. Are u jealous that mummy is more capable than u now? That she even give some of her customer to u and let u earn! Oh god! Why is my mum so stupid to pity this kind of jerk and he don't even appreciate? If i'm mummy, I will never do the same. Look at how u have treated her all this year and she still treat u so nice? I feel so heartpain for mummy. I know how much she has suffered.
and u dare to say me working day and night and not going home to help grandma with the housework? I started to work at Jimms' is all because of YOU! Remember? Do u still remember why I went to work at Jimm's pub? U think i'm not tired working from morning till night and how my life has change upside down ever since I work at Jimm's! If I never start to work there, Jian will still be in Singapore now! We are still happily together!
U think I like to drink until i'm damn bloated and even vomitted sometimes? The time spent with family is getting lesser? I only see mummy in the morning for less than an hour everyday! I only get to see er jie on a saturday and sunday morning unless I wake up super early on the weekday which is so impossible for me cos I work till late night! Fuck U!
Helping out in the housework? I'm not tired enough to work 2 jobs? I don't even have enough time to sleep. Where do I find time to help out in the housework? If u got the ability then u go and find a maid to help grandma!
I supply groceries, transport fee and her necessary needs whenever she take money from me and I didn't complain. Er jie spend the most time with her at home. Isn't that enough? And I got a dog to accompany her when she is bored. Keeping a dog need to spend a lot too u know? She kp about the dog but can't bear to give her away. Wtf is old people thinking?
Me and mummy provide money and Er jie provide time for her. Other than that we have our own social life. Is that wrong? Can't expect us to stick with her for 24/7 hour. asshole!

Had a big argument with Leong on Tuesday outside jimm's. :( But we are ok now. He give in a lot to me and i'm glad that he change a lot.

Candy called me yesterday and ask me whether I can work or not. I wanted to but Leong keep on persuading me not to go cos he want me to accompany him.

While going for driving lesson, the cab driver that send me to the driving centre was so perverted. Ask me personal question like whether I sleep with my bf all that and ask me where I stay and my number. WTF!!!!!

Yesterday driving lesson sucks. Instructor ask me to drive the test route yesterday. I sucks a lot at driving.

Leong pick me up after lesson. He bought a blue rose and a bear for me. :) So sweet. It is exactly the same as what Jian has bought it for me last year for our 1 year annivesary. Reminds me of him again. Haiz.
Leong bring me to Sembawang Park to relax. We talk about the day that we went there together with Gary and Shirley. Miss the days. :(
Back to his home after that and he overslept for work. He start work at 11pm but we sleep till 1 plus. Lol.

Supposingly Leong wanted to send me to work this morning but he was too tired to send me after work. :( have to go to work myself. So sian.

Bored. Still considering whether I should wait for Chris till 6pm to fetch me home or just go off myself. So bored waiting at the office till 6pm but lazy to take train home now.

Supposed to meet Lynn for revision tonight but Leong told me that he is sick and asked me to accompany him. He was angry that I didn't want to accompany him. Wtf? Yesterday night he still send me a sms and say that he is very understanding and let me have my own time to do revision for my exam. But today change pattern already. Other than work, I already spend almost all my free time with him already. What do he expect now? Can't even give me my own time to study for my exam? Selfish! Still expect me to go and find him myself. Argh! pissed!

When I told him that Chris is coming to fetch me, he was very angry. He didn't even give me a chance to explain to him who is Chris. Recently we keep on arguing about small matter. Can't stand it anymore!

Back to work on Monday again.

I was not feeling well during work on friday. :(
Left the office quite early and meet Leong and his friends at Admiralty mrt and we went over to Gary's wake. I went there for awhile and went to work at night.
Leong came to fetch me from work and we went over to Gary wake. Was quite tired and after awhile and we went home. Leong ask me to accompany him to sleep that night cos he was afraid. Haha. So cute lor. Never see him like that before. Back to his place and I was feeling very cold that night. Was not feeling well and Leong was super sweet to take care of me. :)

It was very sad to see Gary for the last time yesterday. Rest in peace Gary.

Yesterday was feeling very uncomfortable at work. I slept at the table behind. Don't know whether my supervisor is angry with me or not. :(

I took mc yesterday cos I was not feeling well in the morning. Went to find Leong in the morning when he finish work. Leong suddenly received a msg from one of his brother that another brother of theirs met with a motorbike accident and he is in ICU. We rush down to Changi General Hospital to visit him and I saw that there was a lot of relatvies and friends of his standing outside his bed looking at him. It was a very sad scene and he just passed away like that. It was my first time to see such a scene like that. I feel very sad to see this kind of situation. Most of the people cried. I feel sorry for his parents the most. Can see that they really can't bear to leave their son when the nurse was pushing his body away to bring him to the mort. When we went in to see him for the last time all the brothers cried. My heart sank. Gary is only so young. Not even 20. Life is really unpredictable. Still remember the times when I went out with him together Leong they all. He take care of all his friends a lot. He never fail to follow Leong all the way home till he see Leong and I reach his block safe then he went back home. But he never take care of himself and met with an accident. Gary ar, why u only know how to take care of your brother and not yourself also? I really feel very sorry for u. U still have a bright future ahead. U just sign on for your army. But why didn't u ride carefully? I really don't want u to leave all of us behind. Among all the brother, u are always the one who make the outing happening. U are the most humorous one. Now we are short of one people to drink with us, go out with us and go rounding with us. U still haven't attend my 21st birthday u know? How can u just leave like that?
We should cherish everyone around us cos we can never predict what will happen anytime.

Alright, enough of that. Yesterday was a busy night at work. Only 3 staff working. And there was an idiotic customer. Hate him to the core. Finish work quite late yesterday and I am bloody tired now. Zzzz.

It's another new year. I'm turning 21 this year in another 18 days!

Work during New Year eve. Not bad. Get to enjoy a bit cos it was not as busy as Christmas eve.

Supposed to finish work early on Sunday. But we accompany an ang moh couple till 2 plus. Chris came to send me home. We send the ang moh back to their shipyard first and they show us around the ship. My first time there. A good experience for me. Nice view.
Went for supper with Chris and Qing at Woodgrove and home sweet home. Bloody tired the next day at work.

Yesterday Leong accompany me to watch Alvin and the Chipmunks 2. Nice show. But Leong doesn't like to watch movie. He look so bored during the show. :(
Went home after the movie cos Leong was tired. Saw Thaqif while Leong went to take his bike. Yesterday Leong's mother very dao again. Seriously don't feel like calling her everytime I see her. But I don't have a choice.

Alright, hell damn lots of work to do!