fking tired!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dbl o last sat. The music sucks. No more dbl o next time.

TIRED TIRED TIRED TIRED.

I'M TIRED TTM!

Really need a break.

I'm back to work at jimm's! :) Finally I don't have to go home drunk every night. Still prefer jimm's cos dun need to drink so much.

First 2 days at work is still ok. Quite bored sometimes but relax. Hoepfully I won't have any problem working there this time round.

Going to help out in the hash this sat then maybe to dbl o. Didn't club for a long time already. Can't wait for this sat to come.

Damn tired now. Zzzz.

I'm in a good mood today!!!!

Going to leave DNK soon! Hurray! After 2 years plus i'm finally leaving. So sick of working here already. Office job are damn boring although it is quite slack la. But I really dun like boring job.

Secondly, i'm not working tonight! Double happiness! Can get to rest for a day. (: Rest for liver for a day too! Will be going to jimm's to help on this tues and wed. Happy lah! Miss working there. The only sad things is Qing won't be working with me. ):

Without fail, I vomit everytime when I work at night. Same goes on sat. Vomited again. Argh! Why do I have such a lousy gastric. hate it!
Anyway, the pub was raid by police on sat. Happy cos we get to rest while waiting for the police to go off. How I wish the police will stay there for the whole night. Lol.
Going to quit my night job soon. Hope I can find a better place to work next time that doesn't require to drink so much with good boss and staff. Haha.

Suddenly started to miss clubbing again cos I didn't club for very long already.
Qing, shall we? Haha.

Went to sembawang park on friday to attend Leong's birthday. Had fun and enjoyed. His friends keep on saboing us for us to patch back but I never agree.

Sleep for the whole sat and went to work at night. The moment I reach there kena ask to finish 3 glass martell. Still asked to mix with beer. Crazy. Then boss tell me tonight work until 4am. Must slowly slowly drink. Trying to avoid as many drinks as I can but hard to cos it's sat. Sian.
Boss was drunk and ask me how much can I still drink cos he need my help as he cmi already. I tah alot of glass for him then he ask i'm ok anot. Of cos not ok lor. Vomitted 2 times in the toilet and go back to drink again. Nightmare for me. Until 3 plus I totally stop drinking cos I also cmi already but I still hardworking leh. Still can clear the table, sweep the floor all that. Haha. Eric came to fetch me and he can see that i'm drunk again. Vomitted when I reach home but didn't fall down this time. Haha. Lucky. Think I was too drunk and complain all my problems to him. So sad to see him cry. Didn't know he also so emotional one leh. Haha.

Sleep for the whole of sunday. The only times when I wake up is eat and bathe. Shiok. Not so tired now. Finally I get a good rest. :)

Been working at boat quay for 2 days. 1st day at work sucks like hell. is totally so unlike jimm's. Boss or the staff there nv teach me anything or tell me what to do at all. Not like jimm's where the staff will teach us what to do. Everyone there just do their own things. All i did was just being ask by boss to go to the table to drink and drink. Even when I was damn high and drunk already I still need to act normal to show that i'm ok. Boss still ask me to help him drink. Mindset is damn important lah. I vomited once in the toilet and act normal to go back to drink again. Can't wait to finish work. None of the waitress help to keep the glass and everything. Nobody care whether u are alright anot. No teamwork at all. I still prefer jimm's. The moment I finish work and see Eric outside, I feel like hugging him to cry. I told him if half way through the journey home if I tap him means I want to vomit le. Manage to control till I reach home. Fell down at the toilet. Don't want to let Eric see me in this state but I cannot tahan already. Think he also feel heart pain for me. Haiz. If not for the money I won't want to torture myself like that. Had nightmares that i'm still drinking with those customer. Keep on tah and tah. Didn't sleep well due to the nightmares.
Wake up in the morning and still feel very unwell. Took mc. Vomited again. The feeling sucks. Eric ask me not to work anymore when he see me like that. ):
Went back to sleep till evening and chatted with Qing. Really miss her alot. I feel like going over to find her and hug her and complain everything to her. Miss those times working at jimm's with her. And I know how worried she is when i'm working at boat quay. There's one thing i'm proud abt myself is that I really can take care of myself well over there no matter how much I drink and learn to be more independent. Realize that i've been relying too much on Qing during the times at jimm's. Now I understand how xin ku she is.

The thought of going back to work at night yesterday totally turns me off. For the first time I fear so much in drinking. I feel like vomiting whenever I smell alcohol. Yesterday still ok. I learn how to siam and gei siao already. Can say luckily got one table of customer are very nice ppl who wont force waitress to drink. And cos they are boss friend and very good drinker, boss wont say anything if the waitress sit at their table for too long. I spend most of the time sitting at that table cos I don't want to be like the day before. I find that I drink very little yesterday already but I still got the vomiting feeling but I keep on controlling and try not to vomit.
Had lots of beer yesterday instead. But most of the glass was being ask to bottoms up. Still had martell with beer. Can't take it. So for the rest of the night I try to find other things to do like washing the glass, refilling the mixer and ice etc. Think boss think that I didn't do a good job yesterday cos I drink quite little. But for me I think it is alot already. Somemore I didn't eat much. Bought some sandwich there but there's no time for me to eat. Really miss working at jimm's alot. The customer, boss and staff there are much more better.

Kena road block yesterday when Eric was sending me home. I was so scare that he will fail the test cos he got drink a bit at his friends ROM. Luckily he pass if not I will feel damn guilty cos he come and fetch me from work then kena caught.

I'm so glad that I don't have to work tonight. :) I want to take a rest. Seeing alcohol now makes me want to puke.

Haven't been going to club for 3 weeks already. Great improvement! :)

Went to jimm's pub then to 88 with kor and one china girl. This is the first time i can click so well with a china girl. Normally i dun like china girl. Anyway, I enjoyed myself that night.

Went to raining bar on sat. Enjoyed. Vomitted. Hate it. Should get used to it already. Haha.

Suppose to meet gigglets on sunday but was not feeling well. Gastric was damn uncomfortable. Sorry gigglets. ):

Exam on monday. I went in for 45 mins and came out from the exam hall. Went to the battle box with Eric, Qing and Cedric in the afternoon. Enjoyed myself ttm! Hope there is such outing again next time! I didn't go out in the afternoon for a long time already. Haha. Can't believe that I actually survived under the hot sun. Thank god I didn't melt. Lol.
Movie at amk hub at night. Horror movie. "-_- A nightmare on the Elm street. Overall still not bad. Supper at mac and home sweet home.

Going to start work at qool bar tonight at boat quay. Hope the staff there are all nice working ppl. Hopefully there will be no prob with the staff and bosses there. Really dun like to go to a new environment to work. Sian sian sian.

Alone at home tends to emo. Haiz...