i'm back to blog!

I've started working again! Mum open an office and I have to be there everyday. So damn bored at work and I wanna fall asleep.

Recently everything seems like not going smoothly for me. :(

Relationship sucks big time. Why must there always have problems in a relationship? Can't god create it in a better way? Why must it make people sad and having ups and downs?
Ever since 3 weeks ago, somehow things change. I know i'm not in the position to say anything cos i'm the 2nd but things happen just hurt. I tried to control and trying hard not to show my unhappiness out but I just control. I know i'm being unreasonable but I cant help it.
Seeing both of u doing very well and I might lose u anytime or maybe I should say I won't be that important to u anymore really makes me cry. I really put in everything in this relationship. My heart is with u totally. But why is god always making a fool of me? Why can't everything just go on smoothly? I really miss our beginning so much. We used to be so sweet. I miss cooking for u, I miss having late night out with u, i miss having breakfast every morning at coffeeshop telling u about what happen to me the previous night and u always show the jealous face. I feel happy when u are jealous about me cos it shows that u care and I know i'm somewhere in ur heart. Why? Why? Why are all the shit happening now? We can't go back to things like before cos so many things are happening one after another.
Vincent just came to office with her daughter and it reminds me of the time when u play with her. We were still so sweet that time. I really miss those time so much.
Dear, I really really miss u.....